In today’s episode of The Grounded Union Podcast, discover how true healing after long-term porn addiction requires going far deeper than behavior change. Brandon and Caitlyn Doerksen walk alongside Dave and Katie as they unpack the decades of pain beneath Dave’s 16-year addiction, pain rooted in childhood sexual trauma, religious shame, and a lifelong belief that he was “defective.” The conversation shifts powerfully as Katie reveals that the deepest trauma is no longer the pornography itself, but the cycle of partial honesty, shame spirals, and having to heal alone. Brandon and Caitlyn challenge Dave’s patterns of self-loathing and avoidance, drawing a clear line between staggered disclosure and real accountability. With practical yet confronting guidance, Caitlyn outlines a path of radical honesty through comprehensive personal inventory and disclosure. This episode offers a sobering but hopeful truth: freedom, intimacy, and peace are possible when shame is replaced with total transparency.

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Timestamps & Key Moments:

• 00:00:28 – Breaking Point After 16 Years: Katie and Dave describe the exhaustion, worsening conflict, and fear that nothing will ever change after 16 years of trying.
• 03:35 – Defining the Addiction & Failed Solutions: They outline years of counseling, 12-step programs, and trauma groups that never brought lasting freedom.
• 07:17 – Validation for the Betrayed Spouse: Katie shares how hearing her experience finally validated gave her hope that a new story is possible.
• 09:25 – Porn Is the Symptom, Not the Root: Caitlyn introduces the “weed” analogy, reframing addiction as a surface issue pointing to deeper wounds.
• 12:36 – Childhood Sexual Trauma Revealed: Dave discloses early sexual abuse that shaped his shame identity and lifelong struggle.
• 15:00 – Why Porn Actually Hurts the User: Brandon explains how porn feeds anxiety, loneliness, and shame rather than pleasure or relief.
• 18:29 – The Core Question: Why Tolerate a Life You Don’t Love?: Dave is challenged to stop running from pain and face what he’s been avoiding for decades.
• 21:11 – Sexuality Is Distorted, Not Evil: Brandon reframes sexuality as relational and good, offering hope beyond moral shame.
• 25:39 – The Lie of “Character Defect”: Caitlyn dismantles the belief that something is fundamentally wrong with Dave, and shows how that belief fuels addiction.
• 35:07 – The Weight of Betrayal on the Spouse: Katie names the exhaustion of carrying shame, lies, and a lack of accountability alone.
• 38:21 – Lifelong Dishonesty Exposed: Dave realizes dishonesty, not porn, is the deepest pattern keeping him trapped.
• 40:17 – Terror as the First Sign of Readiness: Dave admits he’s terrified, and the hosts affirm this fear as the gateway to real change.
• 46:20 – Why “Therapeutic Disclosure” Often Fails: Caitlyn explains why partial disclosure protects addiction instead of healing it.
• 01:07:04 – The Gift of Being Fully Known: Radical honesty with one’s spouse is reframed as the doorway to intimacy and freedom.
• 01:11:28 – Lock Arms and Heal Together: The episode closes with a clear picture of hope: spouses facing the truth side by side until freedom is complete.