It's All My Fault

By JCC

Hello universe!

As always, my greatest hope in this lifetime is to somehow, some way, get the chance to see you performing at your absolute best.

That day may not be today... I get it

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March 06, 2024Sometimes being a human sucks.
This one is the very definition of "all over the place".
And it ends in a flood of emotional distress... so there's that to look forward to.
I don't really know where to go with this addendum to an experience that is an hour of me in all of my exposed self thinking hard thoughts about the here and now.
Is that your kind of thing?
Then sure. Give it a shot.
Otherwise?
Pass.
Pass all the way babay!
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 44 of 53
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1h 6min
March 03, 2024But I also believe that you're here to do the same.
Getting through my long overdue apologies to you, my listener, should have been enough for this episode on its own.
But like I'm prone to do, I pile on with 11 beliefs that stretch the imagination to a point I won't blame you for never listening again.
Hold it against you, maybe...
But blame you?
Never!
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 43 of 53
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24min
February 28, 2024Over an hour of me talking?!?!? {anguish} That's gotta be terrible!
It seems as if I'm still on amicable terms with YouTube©®™.
Shocking.
I agree.
It's been 8.75 days since we got back together
As I type this... 2.27.24 at 4:53 MST.
after I panicked 2 years ago and ran
knowing how much you'd changed
and anything between us wasn't sustainable.
There's that.
You'd think those uploads from 2022 (allegedly) would have been enough for YouTube©®™ to hand me my walking papers...
Yet here I am.
Still.
Well at least on this day... at this moment, if you're reading this.
And in fact a human being.
Not a bot.
Because...
once this one is heard by the AI overlords...
well
...
Amirite YouTube©®™?
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 42 of 53
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1h 14min
February 25, 2024... but you have to believe in a better world like the rest of us! {discordance}
Hello YouTubeiverse.
©™®
As "reasons to never listen to me again... ever!!!" go...
this recording might have just skyrocketed to number one on that list.
I have never felt the need to interject a message intentionally warning tender young ears to stay away from...
the disturbing nature of my next thoughts.
...
!!!
???
At least I don't remember any such instance.
Until now.
And you know as well as I do who is to blame here.
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YouTube!!!
The tube of you.
No longer my tube.
Not even MySpace if you ask me!!!
!!!
You were asking weren't you???
???
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©©©
!?.
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 41 of 53
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36min
February 24, 2024Get lost in deep thought.
I believe getting lost is a fair assessment of the journey this one offers but the deep thoughts part - that part I'm not so sold on.
Not because I'm doing that thing where I'm underselling the depth of my existence to trigger reactions like "dude quit soliciting compliments that way - it's annoying".
Nope. At least not this time.
Instead, this is a long overdue reconciliation conversation between me and the Tube of You. As well as addressing some hooks that got sandier than I probably should have permitted.
But I wouldn't be me if I wasn't apologizing for the disconnects I unintentionally create and then intentionally exacerbate in an attempt to clarify our shared reality. Would I?
I never mean it personally.
Ever.
Well other than those hooks that got so sandy. That part is proving hard to let go of.
As clearly shown in the recording.
Okay maybe not shown, but...
Demonstrated?
Revealed?
Heard?
Documented as evidence to later be used against me?
Voiced?
Clearly audible?
...?
Okay you're right.
Leave "shown" as is.
It was good enough already.
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 40 of 53
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51min
February 21, 2024Not this one. That one.
First, what if you were thrust into a circumstance that demanded of you a decision be made in the next 30 seconds that could never be undone.
With that absurd reality engaged, the choice at hand is this:
which, of the many options available currently, would you declare as the one and only fruit option that the simulation will be offering from now going forward until you perish.
Meaning there will be only one fruit now available, but it's up to you to decide which one... and you're to do so in the next 30 seconds. 29. 28.
Would you be available in that moment to make the right choice?
What if #2 - pencils?
What if #3 - asks what, if any, moral obligations did you "acquire/sign up for" when you manifested here on 867-5309.Earth in that fetching meatsuit of yours?
That What If? #3 is a bit of a "Rick-pickle-of-a-What-If?" to chew on... I agree with you there.
Ergo the #2 pencils... amirite?
But take a bite out of this monkey's digit we must since I'm now all out of oranges.
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 39 of 53
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1h 9min
February 19, 2024Why ain't you showin' it?
This one includes... moments that I will have to stand by. As do they all.
This one also has some moments that I will choose to stand by. As do most.
Any "aspire to stand astride" moments to be had in this one you naturally inquire???
Soooooo unlikely given my past data points that have assembled to create the very inquiry you're presenting in its current manifestation.
With all that working as if it were meant to be...
I will simply let the future tell us all what it came here to reveal in the first place. Proceed as per the usual here...
as it always does.
Now what, if any of that, does this recording get into?
All of it.
At least I think so.
However, I'm feeling my carry-on baggage suddenly here... is that zipper unzipped?
Okay. How about this.
Most of it, arguably, is my final answer.
An answer we hold the right to revise as necessary at any time in the future up to and including a full denial that this answer ever existed. All with no accountability whatsoever, etc... etc. etc.
cool?
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 38 of 53
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49min
February 18, 2024And that, my friends, is all I've got to give.
As if from a dream, yesterday, combustible "pops-his-mouth-off-when-he-should't" John woke up to an issue with AT&T that led to an immediate divorce.
Less than two hours of consicous time and
BAM!
No phone.
No internet.
No meaning as a white male American in the 21st century.
BAM! BAM! BAM!
Thank you Sir!
May we never have another?
BAM!
And then the day got interesting...
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 37 of 53
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41min
February 13, 2024Russian mob bosses? I like it!
Does looking into the past prevent one from taking full advantage of the future that's right in front of them?
As with most of life's ponderings, this one is a little column A and even more column B, but knowing which column is which takes the wisdom gained in pursuit of both.
With that much to sort out you'd think I'd have gotten around to the core argument I wanted to make when I started this recording... you'd think.
But nope.
At least not really.
Mostly it's just me being me, getting nowhere specific until eventually winding it up as if we arrived right where I wanted to take you all along.
So very much...
business as usual.
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 36 of 53
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56min
February 12, 2024Somewhere, in there, is today's "lie of the day".
Two steps forward, one step back, one slip sideways before you trip on your ass... and then you turn yourself around to find out:
"that's what it's all about"!
Doing the hokey-pokey is about as apt a metaphor for the life I've got going on lately as is anything else pin-the-tail-on-the-donkey-ish.
At least I'm no longer the pinata at a pinata party eh Juanito?
Si. Si si si si mucho si senor.
Okay. I mean bueno.
Well there you are.
Like my bullet points, this one is a whole lot of trying to not slip and fall. Some of it worked out. Other parts... not so much. Whichever way you slice it, it's at a very minimum, the real me being as real as I know how to be.
NëiNsensiCaL
Episode 35 of 53
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57min

FAQs about It's All My Fault:

How many episodes does It's All My Fault have?

The podcast currently has 508 episodes available.