Living in Response

Welcome to Living in Response, an exploration of taking the thoughts out of my head and putting them into the world. Ever-evolving, still in development, and subject to change. Open, no pressure invitation to join me on my journey!

In the true essence of Living in Response, I don’t know how often I’ll be posting :)

Topics Covered:

Summarized by AI

* Speaking Freely vs. Writing in Loops – Why writing kept me stuck in repetition, and how speaking has been a more natural, energizing way to process my thoughts.

* Letting Thoughts Unfold Naturally – Releasing the need to force connections between ideas and allowing them to emerge as they are.

* Perfectionism & Gifted Kid Baggage – How growing up in a structured, high-expectation environment reinforced perfectionism and how I’m unlearning that by embracing imperfection.

* Making My Own Rules – Moving away from the idea that everything I create needs to have a clear purpose or fit into a defined category.

* Breaking Free from Performative Content – Letting go of needing to package my thoughts neatly or appeal to an audience. Just saying what feels alive.

* Interoception & Proprioception – Understanding these lesser-known senses and how they shape our awareness, emotions, and ability to be present.

* Psychedelic Cannabis & Somatic Awareness – How cannabis has amplified my connection to interoception and allowed me to explore deep states of embodiment.

* Energy Work Through the Body – Grounding practices that go beyond visualization and actually engage with the felt sense of energy.

* Following Curiosity as a Life Path – How curiosity, not discipline or rigid structure, has led me to the most meaningful discoveries.

* The Future of Healing Work – Moving beyond the never-ending self-improvement cycle and embracing expansion rather than fixing.

* Feeling Ancestors Through the Body – Recognizing the presence of my ancestors not just as a belief, but as a tangible sensation.

* Reclaiming Sensory Awareness – How strengthening interoception has changed my relationship with food, decision-making, and intuition.

* Living with Authentic Expression – Why the most meaningful thing I can do is speak my truth, even if it’s messy, uncertain, or unfinished.

Mentions & Resources:

not affiliated, just a fan

* Kelly Mahler’s Work on Interoception – A deep dive into interoceptive awareness and its role in emotional regulation.

* The Energy Codes by Dr. Sue Morter – Practices for embodiment, breathwork, and accessing energy flow.

* Fleet Maull’s Neuro-Somatic Mindfulness – How interoception is directly tied to mindfulness and self-awareness.

* Psychedelic Cannabis & Somatic Exploration – How cannabis enhances body awareness and deepens energetic integration.

* HeartMath Institute & The Science of Coherence – Research on how heart-centered practices shift collective energy.

* Institute of Noetic Sciences (IONS) – Scientific research into consciousness, telepathy, and the non-local mind.

Final Thoughts:

This is about expression without expectation. There’s no agenda, no need to wrap things up neatly—just a practice in speaking what feels true in the moment.

I would love to hear from you, especially if there’s anything that resonated <3

Mystically,

Belle

Another episode of, “I don’t totally know where this is going but I have a starting thought so let’s see where this goes.” :) Welcome to this unbounded, unfiltered, unedited, unscripted experimental, exploration/practice in speaking.

Topics Covered:

* Morning Creativity & Inner World Practices – Waking up with creative thoughts, spending time in stillness, and allowing energy to settle before engaging with the world.

* The Sacredness of Sleep & Morning Routines – How honoring my natural rhythm and starting my day intentionally has transformed my energy and focus.

* Breathing & Energy Flow in the Central Channel – Using breath and awareness to bring energy into alignment and allowing natural body movement to unfold.

* Creative Thoughts Emerging from Presence – How spending time in my inner world allows organic visualization and future-oriented thinking without force.

* Beyond Visualization: Embodied Manifestation – Why visualization alone doesn’t resonate with me, and how I engage with my desires from an embodied, felt sense of knowing.

* The ‘Ick’ with Self-Help & Healing Culture – Why constant nervous system regulation, healing loops, and the same repetitive advice no longer feel relevant to me.

* Shifting from Fixing to Expanding – Moving beyond the idea that there is always something to fix and instead focusing on expanding my capacity for life.

* The Importance of Saying What Needs to Be Said – Releasing self-censorship, honoring the urge to express, and allowing thoughts to unfold naturally in conversation.

* Letting Go of Performative Content – Why I’m no longer interested in shaping my words to fit an audience or worrying about how I’m perceived.

* Other People’s Opinions Are Not My Business – Detaching from external validation and embracing self-expression for its own sake.

* Logotherapy & Finding Meaning in the Moment – Exploring Viktor Frankl’s work on meaning, existential frustration, and how we move forward when life feels directionless.

* Attitudinal Change & Existential Responsibility – How shifting perspective creates meaning, even when the past is filled with seemingly meaningless events.

* Moving Beyond Healing as a Lifestyle – Why I no longer view healing as my central focus, and what’s next when deep self-work is no longer the main priority.

* Expanding Capacity Instead of Fixing – Reframing healing as an expansion process, focusing on bringing more energy into the system instead of searching for what’s ‘wrong.’

* Breaking Free from Algorithmic Echo Chambers – Actively seeking new ideas and perspectives instead of being passively fed the same content over and over.

Mentions & Resources:

* Viktor Frankl & Logotherapy – Man’s Search for Meaning and the concept of existential responsibility.

* Dr. Sue Morter & Energy Codes – “Central Channel Breathing” as a foundational embodiment practice.

Final Thoughts:

This is about integration—not just learning, not just consuming information, but actually living it. This project is me, “walking the walk,” and allowing myself to explore without needing everything to be polished or perfect.

Thanks for being here! If this vibes, I’d love to connect <3

Mystically,

Belle

Welcome to Living in Response - an experiment in unedited, unfiltered “self-expression.” No pressure, no schedule - just speaking when it feels right. Writing has been keeping me in loops, but speaking feels more raw, more alive - so here I am.

Topics Covered

Summarized with AI.

* Letting This Unfold Naturally – No structured schedule, no forcing—just living in response to what my body is pulling me toward.

* Writing vs. Speaking – Why writing has been keeping me stuck in loops, and why speaking feels like a more honest way to process my thoughts.

* Psychedelic Cannabis as a Teacher – How cannabis has helped me feel myself as energy, integrate patterns, and explore deeper states of awareness.

* Comparing Psychedelics – How psychedelic cannabis stacks up against LSD, huachuma (San Pedro), and other plant teachers I’ve worked with.

* Breathwork & Energy Work – Using breath to move energy, expand awareness, and reconnect with my body’s natural flow.

* Manifestation & Energy – The missing step in most manifestation teachings: I couldn’t align with something until I experienced myself as energy first.

* Resistance vs. Forcing – Learning to move with the flow of my own energy instead of trying to push my way into things that don’t feel right.

* The Role of Interoception & Proprioception – Why deepening my internal awareness has been the key to understanding and embodying energy work.

* Breaking Free from Societal Rules – Questioning the structures and beliefs I grew up with, and recognizing that my energy shapes my reality.

* Letting Go of External Validation – Expressing for the sake of expression, not for approval or recognition.

* Energy Work Without the Fluff – Why I want to distance myself from a lot of the New Age conversation around energy work and bring it back to something real.

Mentions & Resources

* Psychedelic Cannabis by Daniel McQueen

* The Energy Codes by Dr. Sue Morter

* Becoming Supernatural by Joe Dispenza

* My Substack article on Cannabis & Interoception

Final Thoughts

If you’re here listening, thank you. If you’re just passing through, that’s cool too :) My inbox is open!

Mystically,

Belle

I recorded this on Zoom and the video quality was sooooo bad lol. I thought I could get past it but I cannot so I’ll just be doing audio instead for the time being :)

This is the start of something different. No real editing, no overthinking - just speaking and seeing where it goes. In this first recording, I explore the challenges of self-expression, the struggle between writing and speaking, the ways we bring ideas to life, and a slew of other tangents that have been swimming around in my field lately.

Topics Covered

Summarized by AI

* Breaking the Cycle of Perfectionism – Why I’ve started so many things and never followed through, and why this time feels different.

* Creative Flow & Mental Loops – How my thoughts cycle when I try to write and why speaking feels like a better outlet.

* AI as a Reflection Tool – How I use ChatGPT, not as a replacement for thinking, but as a way to mirror my own ideas. I also consider the impacts of technology like AI.

* The Power of Speaking Ideas into Life – The difference between writing and saying something out loud, and how that changes the way I process thoughts.

* Moving Beyond Fixing Myself – Shifting from constantly trying to overcome blocks to simply living and expressing.

* Core Values as Feelings – Identifying comfort, transformation, spirituality, wellness, and love as the feelings that guide me.

* The Tension Between Comfort and Growth – Wanting to stay grounded while also leaning into the discomfort of change.

* Embodiment, Energy, and Psychedelic Exploration – How practices like proprioception, interoception, and psychedelic cannabis have shifted my understanding of myself.

* Resilience and Ancestry – The weight of where I come from, the challenges my family has faced, and how that informs the way I move through the world.

* The Nuance of Human Design – How learning about my design has helped and sometimes frustrated me.

* Letting This Be What It Is – Why I’m not trying to turn this into something polished or structured, and why that feels right (for now).

Final Thoughts

This is an experiment in speaking unfiltered, in sharing without needing to package everything neatly. It’s about exploring ideas in real time and seeing where they lead.

No plan, no real agenda besides just following what feels alive.

Mystically,

Belle