Living in Response

Another day, another stream of thoughts. What it’s coming down to is that there are FEELINGS in my body that are asking something of me, and even though I don’t know fully what that is yet, the more I follow them, the more that starts to unfold.

Living in Response is me publicly being a beginner and taking those steps into the unknown in full trust of whatever is to come.

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The Shift from Fixing to Flowing

Reflecting on recent emotional struggles and how I initially approached them through my energetic process—only to realize I was subtly trying to fix myself rather than fully surrendering to the experience.

The Frustration of Trying to Control the Process

Noticing how, even when I intellectually acknowledge that healing isn’t about forcing a shift, there was an underlying expectation that my emotions should resolve within my preferred timeline. Recognizing that integration doesn’t always happen consciously or on demand.

Surrendering to What My Body Needs

Shifting from energetic processing to self-care:

* Honoring my cravings for a grilled cheese and a chocolate chip cookie

* Allowing movement (walking on the treadmill) to support me

* Acknowledging that sometimes, my body simply needs rest, not more analysis

Nature Doesn’t Hurry—Neither Should I

A powerful moment of clarity at the gym while watching a Bird of Paradise tree, recalling the Lao Tzu quote: “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.”

Realizing that:

* True alignment comes from going at my own pace

* The more I focus on what’s next, the further it feels

* The needle moves forward in small, almost imperceptible ways—until suddenly, I find myself in a new place entirely

Living in Response: A Real-Time Creative Practice

* Acknowledging that I spent years projecting into the future, waiting to “figure it all out” before sharing my thoughts

* Embracing doing rather than overthinking—this podcast itself is proof of moving forward

* Recognizing that meaning is found in the act of creating, not in pre-determined certainty

From Money to Meaning

A major realization: I don’t need to rush my life in pursuit of money.

* Recognizing the pressure of “spiritual capitalism” and the societal push for financial success

* Choosing meaning, alignment, and trust over forcing a career path out of fear

* Understanding that my life isn’t about retiring early but about doing work I love until old age forces me to stop

The Power of Radical Responsibility

Reflecting on my upbringing—poverty, food stamps, financial struggles—and how I made the decision that my life would not follow that same trajectory.

* Taking radical responsibility for my financial situation without making my past an excuse

* Learning to manage money intentionally, not impulsively

* Recognizing that financial success isn’t about accumulation, but about creating a life I don’t need to escape from

Giftedness & Neurocomplexity: Understanding How My Mind Works

* Exploring how being gifted shaped my experiences growing up

* How the “gifted” label comes with challenges—feeling different, being misunderstood, and navigating societal expectations

* Processing how my fast-thinking, pattern-seeking mind influences my struggles with small talk and social settings

Letting Go of Labels & Expectations

* Releasing the need to make sense of everything

* Trusting feelings and intuition over rigid analysis

* Saying yes to opportunities that feel alive in my body, even if they make no logical sense

Final Thoughts: Moving the Needle, One Small Step at a Time

* Recognizing that every day, no matter how small, is progress

* Some days will feel like a contraction, but that’s part of the forward motion—like a jellyfish propelling itself through the ocean

* Choosing to live my life in a way that feels nourishing, meaningful, and true to me

Final Thoughts

This episode is about letting go of force, trusting my natural rhythm, and allowing my life to unfold without rushing toward the future. Every day, I move closer to what I truly want—not by hustling, but by aligning with what feels alive in my body.

If you’re listening, thanks for being here <3

Mystically,

Belle

Follow-up shower thoughts to a rough day of ruminating and embracing my own unique definition of “consistency.”

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Episode 13: A Milestone in Creative Consistency

Reflecting on the significance of reaching episode 13—something I’ve never done before with a creative project. Emphasizing that this podcast is my way of Living in Response, processing life in real time, and stepping into my voice through action rather than endless courses or preparation.

The Conflict of ‘Enoughness’

Navigating an “I’m not enough” spiral—particularly the fear that I won’t be able to create a life that aligns with my heart’s desires while also being financially sustainable. Wrestling with gratitude for my current job while acknowledging that it’s not the dream. Processing cultural and familial influences around work and privilege.

Sitting with Discomfort vs. Trying to Fix It

Realizing that while deep inner work is important, sometimes the best way to move through emotional resistance isn’t by analyzing it—it’s by tending to basic needs. Recognizing when the body needs movement, nourishment, or simple pleasures rather than more introspection.

Grilled Cheese and a Movie as Emotional Medicine

An unexpected emotional shift after indulging in a grilled cheese sandwich, a warm chocolate chip cookie, and a nostalgic feel-good movie (Sleepover). How small acts of care, movement (walking on the treadmill), and a hot shower completely transformed my energy—reinforcing that not all emotional processing requires deep work.

The Balance of Discipline and Flexibility

Exploring the difference between “rallying” and forcing something. Learning to discern when resistance means “push through” vs. when it means “rest and reset.” Acknowledging that consistency isn’t about rigid adherence to structure—it’s about being consistently honest with what I need on any given day.

Creative Process as a Way of Life

Reframing creativity beyond traditional projects—right now, my creative act is building my life in the most authentic way possible. Letting go of pressure to define the “next step” and instead embracing the unfolding process.

Future Anxiety and The Manifestation Trap

Recognizing how I got caught up in future-focused thinking, leading to tension in my body and mind. Questioning mainstream manifestation teachings that encourage constant focus on desired outcomes—acknowledging that true embodiment of a vision isn’t about mental effort, but about deep energetic alignment.

The Fitness Journey as an Energetic Shift

Sharing how my relationship with fitness has transformed from a history of yo-yo dieting and disordered eating to a deep understanding that physical transformation is just a matter of time thanks to my energetic process. How this shift in energy mirrors my overall approach to life—moving from doubt to deep, embodied knowing.

Indulging with Awareness: A Tantric Perspective

Exploring the concept of indulging with awareness—how choosing pleasure consciously (rather than out of impulse or avoidance) can actually be a powerful integration tool. Applying this to food, movement, and overall self-care.

Final Thoughts: Compassionate Flexibility & Flow

Letting go of rigid expectations for creative output, movement, and progress. Learning to trust that my process—whether in fitness, creativity, or life itself—is unfolding exactly as it should.

Final Thoughts

This episode is about honoring my process, embracing creative consistency without force, and learning that sometimes the best way to move through emotional resistance is not by fixing it, but by simply living and tending to my basic needs.

Until next time <3

Mystically,

Belle

Me processing inner conflict in real time (very non-linearly) about the way I feel about wanting to share and not forcing my ideas onto folks.

This is Living in Response, an unedited, unfiltered, unbounded exploration and experiment of speaking what’s on my mind and in my field.

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A Day of Conflict and Deep Reflection

Processing the heaviness that followed a journaling session—realizing that even though writing felt liberating in the moment, something about it didn’t resonate afterward. Exploring why certain ideas don’t sit right in the body, even when they feel true in the mind.

Tuning Into the Body’s Wisdom

How physical sensations like pressure in the chest or tension in the stomach reveal deeper conflicts for me. Using interoception to explore these sensations rather than forcing them away. Learning to approach resistance with curiosity instead of judgment.

Human Design & The Innocence Motivation Conflict

Reflecting on how my Innocence Motivation in Human Design contrasts with my mind’s urge to persuade, convince, or "get people to understand" certain ideas. Wrestling with the tension between wanting to share knowledge and feeling that pushing too hard pulls me out of alignment.

Reframing Desire & Agenda-Free Expression

Acknowledging that different people thrive on different approaches—some are meant to persuade, while others (like me) feel most alive when sharing openly without an agenda. Shifting from “people need to get this” to “I love this, and I want to share it.”

Living as an Open-Ended Experiment

Releasing the pressure to have a defined goal, vision, or creation. Recognizing that my current “project” is my life itself—an unfolding, evolving experience driven by curiosity rather than rigid expectations.

Pressure from the Creative World

Feeling overwhelmed by the influx of messages from the online space that insist on "having something to create" and "knowing your future self." Realizing that my creative journey doesn’t have to look like anyone else’s.

Permission to Just Explore

Letting go of the need to "fix" things or prove my worth through productivity. Trusting that being fully engaged with my curiosity is enough, even when societal conditioning says otherwise.

The Role of AI in Self-Exploration

How I use AI (specifically ChatGPT) as a reflection tool—helping to process thoughts, explore conflicting ideas, and gain clarity. Acknowledging the ethical concerns while also recognizing its potential when used with intention + using caution when using ChatGPT to discuss Human Design or Astrology because it is VERY OFTEN inaccurate.

Balancing Passion and Non-Attachment

Navigating the paradox of deeply believing in the power of energy work while also not wanting to impose beliefs on others. Learning to share from love rather than urgency or responsibility.

Integrating, Not Just Understanding

Recognizing that intellectual understanding alone isn’t enough—true transformation happens through direct experience, embodiment, and feeling. Knowing that change must come through the body, not just the mind.

Mentions & Resources

Not affiliated, just a fan

* Decolonizing the Body by Kelsey Blackwell

* Human Design Motivation

* The HeartMath Institute (Scientific research on energy fields and collective impact)

Final Thoughts

This episode is about sitting with inner conflict rather than rushing to resolve it, plus a bunch of stuff in-between. It’s about noticing when something doesn’t feel right, exploring why (sometimes), and giving myself permission to live in a way that feels natural—without pressure, without force, just curiosity and flow.

Thanks for being you.

Mystically,

Belle

Not too long ago I stopped believing in traditional “goals” for myself and today the algorithm presented me with someone who literally wrote a book about the same thing . My algorithm works for ME ;)

You’ve tuned in to Living in Response an open-ended, unedited, unbounded practice in saying what I want to say and letting it be whatever it wants to be.

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Swapping Goals for Pacts

Discovering the concept of “pacts” from the book Tiny Experiments by Anne-Laure Le Cunff, which replaces rigid goal-setting with curiosity-driven commitments. How this approach resonates with my perspective on moving in a direction rather than fixating on specific outcomes.

Living in Response & Following Curiosity

Why I’m embracing an open-ended approach to creativity and life—choosing to engage with what excites me rather than forcing structure or expectations.

Reframing Commitment

How my relationship with the word “commitment” is evolving, shifting from obligation to devotion. Learning to commit from a place of love, curiosity, and expansion rather than pressure or force.

Slow Living & The Psychology of Pace

Reflections on a workshop by Elliot Cohen about the psychology of slow living and how it aligns with my long-held belief that the world would be better if people slowed down.

The Algorithm Reflecting Me Back to Me

How my online experience is shifting as I find more people expressing ideas that mirror my own inner truths. Why this feels like validation, expansion, and an invitation into a new space of thought and creativity.

Empowerment vs. Victimhood in Systemic Challenges

A personal reflection on breaking cycles of socioeconomic struggle and why I believe in acknowledging systemic barriers while also empowering people to believe in possibility. The tension between recognizing hardship and advocating for personal agency.

The Power of Possibility & A Club Night Lesson

A real-life moment where shifting someone's perception of possibility changed their entire energy. Why possibility is such a transformative force in both small moments and big life shifts.

Epigenetics & Taking Ownership of Health

Exploring how epigenetics—our ability to influence gene expression through lifestyle choices—radically changed my perspective on health and well-being. Why I no longer feel resigned to hereditary disease patterns.

Making My Own Rules

Realizing that I get to decide what works for me—whether it’s creativity, commitment, or the structure (or lack thereof) in my life. The liberating realization that I am subject to change and that’s a good thing.

Speaking as a Creative Practice

Why I’m recording daily and how speaking, rather than writing, allows me to process ideas in real-time. Letting go of needing a set topic, a defined niche, or a clear goal—just following what feels alive.

Fear as Part of the Process

Recognizing that fear isn’t something to eliminate, but something to integrate. The difference between being paralyzed by fear and using it as a natural part of expansion.

Interoception, Embodiment & The Soul’s Communication

How slowing down and tuning into the body allows for deeper connection with intuition and energy. Why I believe the body is the bridge between the soul and the mind.

Mentions & Resources

Not affiliated, just a fan

* Tiny Experiments by Anne-Laure Le Cunff

* I just got this today so will report back after I read the whole thing!

* The Psychology of Slow Living by Elliot Cohen

* Watched a talk on this today by the author and I 100% intend to read this too!

* The Biology of Belief by Bruce Lipton

* The Energy Codes by Dr. Sue Morter

Final Thoughts

This project is about documenting my process in real-time—being open, unfiltered, and engaged with what feels alive. No rigid plans, no expectations—just letting curiosity lead.

If you're here listening, thanks for being part of it! As always, I would love to hear from you <3

Mystically,

Belle

Here’s to shifting from only consuming knowledge to actively engaging with life, letting creativity unfold naturally rather than forcing an outcome. Instead of feeling pressured to teach or structure what I’ve learned, I’m simply documenting my process and responding to what excites me. This shift feels deeply personal—honoring my ancestors, embracing embodied movement, and recognizing that true healing comes from doing, not just understanding.

Embracing the process, letting it be imperfect, taking my time, leaning into me, feeling my way through, and thoroughly enjoying every single bit of it - this is Living in Response, a project in being, the act of living.

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Shifting from Learning to Doing

Realizing that I’ve spent years absorbing knowledge, but now it’s time to engage with life, experiment, and let my process unfold naturally.

The Difference Between Past Programs & My Current Teachers

Why previous programs felt restrictive, emphasizing rigid methods, while my current mentors encourage me to explore my own process.

Letting Go of the Pressure to “Make” Something

Understanding that creativity isn’t always about producing a structured outcome—sometimes it’s about simply engaging with what calls to me.

Dancing as a Form of Embodiment & Energy Work

How free movement is becoming an essential part of my practice, connecting to my body in a new way, and why I signed up for an embodied movement community.

Creativity as a Process, Not a Product

The realization that true creativity unfolds through action—not by trying to perfect something before starting.

The Fear of Being Perceived & Releasing External Validation

Why expressing myself openly feels both liberating and vulnerable, and how I’m learning to let go of the need for approval.

Living in Response vs. Living in Expectation

Following what excites me, without forcing it into a specific outcome or plan—trusting that clarity will emerge through action.

THIS WAS HUUUUUUGE FOR ME!!!!!!!! ↓↓↓

Documenting My Process Instead of Trying to Teach

A shift in perspective: instead of feeling pressured to distill what I’ve learned into lessons for others, I’m simply sharing my experience as I go.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!↑↑↑!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Influence of My Ancestors & Breaking Generational Patterns

Reflecting on how my journey feels deeply connected to my lineage—doing what they couldn’t, expanding in ways that weren’t available to them.

Hashimoto’s, Energy Work & Healing Through Engagement

How engaging in activities that truly light me up is key to managing my energy and health, rather than constantly trying to “fix” myself.

Mentions & Resources

Not affiliated, a fan

* Celebrity Energy – Whitney Uland

* Creative Living – Lois from Up Club & Maia from Colectiva

* The Biology of Belief – Bruce Lipton

* The Magician’s Table – Britten LaRue

Final Thoughts

This project is an experiment in showing up, responding, and letting things evolve. Instead of feeling like I need to have it all figured out, I’m embracing being in the process.

If you’re also shifting from learning to doing, I’d love to hear about it. Thanks for being part of this journey. ❤️

Mystically,

Belle

This is a messy one lol. Messy as in I stumble around a bit but that’s just part of my process ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ It’s also a little bit of a love note to the people who are out there doing the dang thing and sharing their process with the world.

This is Living in Response—an experiment, an audio journal, an exploration of speaking freely without a plan, without over-editing, without knowing exactly where this will go. I’m discovering, more and more, that things unravel as I begin. So I’m doing it afraid, doing it messy, doing it anyway.

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Doing It Afraid

Every teacher I’ve learned from—whether through books, courses, or life itself—has reinforced the same message: It’s always going to be scary to put yourself out there, but the only way through is to do it anyway.

Authenticity as the Anchor

Who I am, what excites me, what I refuse to compromise on—this is the foundation. Meaning in life is tied to resonance, not just with what feels good or exciting, but with what feels like mine.

Energy & Resonance

Everything is energy. What calls us forward, what aligns with us, what “clicks” isn’t random—it’s a reflection of what’s already alive within us.

The Fear of Being Seen

A lot of the world, including spiritual communities, demonizes the desire to be seen. But wanting to be visible, wanting attention for our art, our voice, our work—it’s not wrong. It’s human.

The Power of “Celebrity Energy®”

I’ve been in a group coaching container with Whitney Uland (How to Be Famous®), exploring the energetics of visibility and authenticity. It’s not about chasing fame—it’s about increasing the capacity to be seen without shrinking, without shame.

The Artists Who Owe Nothing But Their Truth

Why I’m drawn to artists like Sophie Hunter, Lyvia, and Morgan Clae—not necessarily only because of their lyrics or genre, but because their energy is undeniably real. Authenticity is magnetic.

Creative Living & the Ache to Express

I recently joined Creative Living with Lois from Up Club and Maia from Colectiva. Their approach—merging the intellectual and somatic, the mind and body—is already shifting my creative process in an undeniable way. Sometimes we need to hear the same thing a thousand times before it clicks.

The World Would Be Different If…

A journaling prompt from Creative Living brought up unexpected resistance. I share how I leveraged the holotropic nature of the energy that is me to process / move through it.

Integration vs. Endless Healing

For years, I was obsessed with self-help, always searching for the next limiting belief to dismantle. But at some point, it’s not about fixing—it’s about integrating. About moving forward, not just inward.

Holotropic Energy & the Natural Return to Wholeness

Inspired by Stan Grof’s work, I’ve been reflecting on how energy naturally wants to reintegrate. The mind can interrupt this process, but when we slow down and pay attention, we can witness reintegration happening in real time.

Healing Alone vs. Healing with Support

There’s a dominant narrative that healing must be done with a practitioner, but I’ve worked through deep grief and trauma alone—with tools I learned from others. It’s possible. Both things can be true: We need skilled guides and we can empower ourselves.

The Savior Complex in Spiritual & Self-Help Spaces

There’s a fine line between wanting to help others and falling into a savior mindset. But dismissing the desire to help as a “savior complex” can be another way of suppressing the natural human impulse to contribute.

Expression Over Fixing

I started in healing spaces, but I find myself more drawn to creativity and expression. The shift from self-help to self-expression feels like the next phase of my journey.

Parts Work & Internal Dialogue

I’ve never formally studied Internal Family Systems, but I intuitively recognize different parts within myself. Rather than trying to silence them, I’m experimenting with bringing them into the process.

The Eclipse in Virgo & Creative Unfolding

The timing of this creative burst feels synchronistic—especially as Virgo rules my fifth house of creativity and self-expression. For me, the cosmos mirrors what’s already in motion.

Letting It Be Messy

I’m doing this unpolished, unfiltered, unbounded. This is me joining the movement of visionaries, creatives, and innovators supporting each other. Maybe my willingness to do this messy and not die (lol) will help someone else take their first step.

Mentions & Resources

not affiliated, just a fan

* How to Be Famous (Celebrity Energy Mentorship) – Whitney Uland

* Creative Living – Lois from Up Club & Maia from Colectiva

* The Holotropic Mind – Stanislav Grof

* The Energy Codes – Dr. Sue Morter

* Authentic artists: Sophie Hunter, Lyvia, Morgan Clae (I said Maddie in the recording)

Final Thoughts

I don’t know exactly where I’m going with this. But I do know that I’m answering the call.

Something is calling me forward, not through my mind, but through my body. And I’m listening.

No overthinking. No waiting until it’s perfect. Just creating, just expressing.

If you’ve shared some of your energy with me in listening or reading, thank you <3

I’d love to hear from you!

Mystically,

Belle

In the spirit of, “you don’t have to have everything worked out, you just have to start,” here is another episode of Living in Response, a living exploration / experiment / liberation in speaking and sharing what’s alive and on my mind.

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Breaking the Habit of Overthinking

How a simple shift—brushing my teeth with my left hand—became a lesson in persistence, discomfort, and rewiring old patterns.

Living in Response vs. Living in Preparation

Shifting from endless research and preparation to actually engaging with life. Learning through experience rather than just studying concepts.

The Resistance Cycle in Creativity

How resistance shows up in new habits and creative projects. The moment when something stops feeling exciting and starts feeling like work—and why “pushing” (gently, intentionally, more like flowing) through that moment matters.

Speaking vs. Writing: Why This Feels More Alive

Why writing has kept me in mental loops and how speaking allows me to process thoughts in real time.

Interoception, Proprioception & Embodiment

Bringing awareness back to the body. The role of interoception (internal sensing) and proprioception (spatial awareness) in deepening my understanding of energy work.

Psychedelic Cannabis as a Mirror

How working with cannabis has helped me see my own energy patterns more clearly—sometimes gently, sometimes forcefully.

Expanding Without Forcing

Letting things evolve naturally instead of trying to control the outcome. Trusting curiosity to guide the way.

The Gemini-Sagittarius Axis & My Own Evolution

A story from my Living Astrology apprenticeship about how Gemini learns through study, while Sagittarius learns through direct experience—and how this insight is reshaping the way I move through life.

Energy Work Without the Woo

Why I’m passionate about grounding energy work in real, tangible experiences rather than vague, mystical language.

Dancing, Free Movement & Embodied Expression

Realizing that the way I dance at shows—completely lost in movement—could be something I cultivate daily. Expanding movement beyond moments of peak experience.

Algorithms, Synchronicity & Finding My People

Noticing how the more I step into my own process, the more I find others doing similar work—proof that I’m not alone in this.

Energy Activism & Discernment

Why fear-based narratives feel like traps, and how I’m choosing to engage with the world in a way that expands rather than contracts.

Letting Go of External Validation

Expressing for the sake of expression, not for approval or recognition.

Releasing the Need to Have It All Figured Out

Trusting that I don’t need to know exactly where I’m going. Just taking the next step and letting things unfold.

Mentions & Resources

not affiliated, just a fan

* Living Astrology by Tyler Penor

* The Energy Codes by Dr. Sue Morter

* Psychedelic Cannabis by Daniel McQueen

* Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl

* My Substack article on Cannabis & Interoception

* Embodiment & Free Movement – Inspired by a creator I found, _miss_powers_

Final Thoughts

This is an experiment—one where I’m seeing what happens when I let go of needing to know where I’m going.

No fixed plan, no expectations—just speaking when there’s something to say (and lately there’s been a lot).

If you’re here listening, thanks for being part of it <3

Mystically,Belle

Welcome to Living in Response - a podcast / audio journal / experiment / exploration in “creative self-expression” where I’m practicing sharing what’s on my mind and in my heart. While unedited, unfiltered, unbounded, my attention right now is concentrated around “spiritual awakening,” energy work, interoception & proprioception as facilitators to healing and expansion, and lots of stuff in between. Mostly, this is me just getting started so thank you for being here <3

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* The Lie We Tell Ourselves About Remembering Ideas – Why I’ve started writing things down instead of trusting my memory, and how that small shift is fueling my creativity.

* Mindless Scrolling vs. Intentional Exploration – The difference between passive consumption and actively seeking inspiration online, and how each affects my mental state.

* Speaking vs. Writing – How speaking my thoughts has helped me move forward in a way that journaling never did, and why I’m embracing this form of expression.

* Creative Process & Inner Conflict – Navigating the push and pull of inspiration, self-doubt, and trusting my unique way of making connections.

* The Fear of Plagiarism & The Myth of Originality – Wrestling with the idea that no thought is completely original, how creativity is really about synthesis, and why crediting sources matters.

* Living in Response – Exploring what it means to create from a place of energetic alignment rather than forcing strategy or structure.

* Energetic Expansion & Spiritual Awakening – Why awakening isn’t a single moment but a process of contraction and expansion over time.

* New Age Spirituality & Breaking Out of Boxes – Realizing that I replaced societal conditioning with new spiritual labels—and how I’m working to move beyond them.

* Feeling Instead of Fixing – Learning to sit with emotions in the body rather than always trying to process or move through them.

* Human Design & The Struggle of “Waiting to Respond” – Why my understanding of sacral response had to change, and how it’s transformed my approach to decision-making.

* The Ego & Personality Aren’t the Enemy – Why demonizing the ego is missing the point, and how I’ve come to appreciate the role of personality in growth.

* Reciprocity & Giving Back Without Overgiving – Recognizing when it’s time to share what I’ve learned and contribute in a way that’s sustainable.

* The Trap of Spiritual Language – Breaking down vague self-help and spiritual phrases like “just be in your body” and why clarity matters.

* Meditation, Yoga & Energy Work as Creative Fuel – How these practices help me move energy, focus, and get unstuck.

* Creativity as a Holistic Process – Understanding that creative expression isn’t just mental—it’s a full-body, multi-layered experience.

* Navigating the Unknown & Moving Forward Anyway – Learning to trust the process even when I don’t have a clear direction, and seeing where my expression leads me.

Mentions & Resources:

Not affiliated, just a fan

* Evan Meyer’s Raw Wizard Writing Workshop – A reminder to jot down ideas instead of trusting memory.

* Rick Rubin’s The Creative Act – A must-read on making art for yourself first.

* Austin Kleon’s Steal Like an Artist – Why creativity is about remixing ideas, not inventing from scratch.

* Kelly Mahler on Interoception – Understanding how bodily awareness impacts emotions.

* Fleet Maull’s Neuro-Somatic Mindfulness – Interoception’s role in self-awareness and mindfulness.

* The Energy Codes by Dr. Sue Morter – A blend of breathwork, embodiment, and energy work.

* Human Design Concepts – Rethinking sacral authority and waiting to respond.

Final Thoughts:

This is about expression without expectation. I’m not trying to have all the answers—I’m just showing up, saying what’s alive, and letting the path unfold.

Would love to hear from you—if anything resonated, let me know!

Mystically,

Belle

Welcome to Living in Response, an exploration of taking the thoughts out of my head and putting them into the world and doing it AFRAID. Ever-evolving, still in development, and subject to change. Open, no pressure invitation to join me on my journey!

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Summarized by AI

* Doing It Afraid – The reality of showing up despite fear and inner resistance.

* Interoception & Proprioception – Using body awareness to process emotions instead of trying to "fix" them.

* Self-Expression Without Over-Contextualizing – Letting go of the need to over-explain and just saying what feels true.

* The Five-Year Plan is a Myth – Why rigid life plans don’t work and how I’m embracing a directional approach instead.

* Spirituality & Capitalism – The tension between personal growth and the high cost of self-development spaces.

* Coaching & Accessibility – Struggling with the pricing of coaching programs and the desire to make transformation more available.

* Personal Financial Journey – From childhood poverty and credit card debt to financial stability, and the lessons learned along the way.

* Reciprocity & Energy Management – Finding ways to give back without depleting myself.

* Energy Expansion Requires Contraction – True growth involves cycles of inward reflection before outward movement.

* Psychedelic Therapy & Cannabis Facilitation – Sharing part of my personal journey exploring cannabis as a gentle, agency-preserving tool for healing.

* Personal Philosophy & Breaking Cycles – Moving beyond inherited beliefs and choosing what resonates in my body.

* Not Knowing as a Portal – How uncertainty creates space for new insights and direction.

* Energy Activism – Viewing personal healing as a way to contribute to collective change.

* Chaos as a Necessary Force for Transformation – Disruptive energy isn’t inherently negative; it’s part of the process.

* Balancing Spiritual Practices & Living Life – Using embodiment / energy expansion as nervous system regulation to support real-world engagement.

Final Thoughts:

This project is an experiment in speaking freely, without filtering or editing. It’s a practice in being fully present with what’s alive in the moment. If anything resonated, I’d love to hear from you. <3

Mystically,

Belle

Last night, I got hit HAAAARD with the “imposter syndrome” and a slew of other “limiting beliefs” that previously have stopped me in my tracks. This time, I handled it differently and this recording is me reflecting on what happened, how I moved through it differently than I ever have before, and an overall “atta girl” for still showing up. This exploration and experiment is exactly that and I can’t say for sure where I’m going or what’s going to come up, but I do know for sure that speaking about it is going to be part of it.

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Summarized by AI

* The Cycle of Starting and Stopping – Noticing the familiar pattern of excitement, followed by self-doubt and resistance when sharing openly.

* The Loud Inner Critic – Thoughts like “People are tired of you,” “You can’t talk about activism,” and “You always quit” surfacing after posting.

* Interoception & Proprioception – Using these senses to tune into the body and move through emotional resistance without forcing solutions.

* Letting Emotions Process Themselves – Instead of trying to fix or clear them, simply observing and allowing them to shift naturally.

* Energy Flow & Self-Healing – Understanding that resistance is just unintegrated energy, and trusting that it will reintegrate if given space.

* The Role of Daily Practices – How breathwork, meditation, and other embodiment work build the capacity to handle emotional waves.

* When to Use Techniques vs. When to Just Witness – The ongoing question of when tools like EFT are helpful versus when they become another form of control.

* Tapping & the Nervous System – How EFT works on the brain and body, and the realization that the words used in tapping may not be as important as the sensations.

* Creative Expression & Fear of Judgment – The challenge of sharing authentically without overthinking how it will be received.

* Self-Help vs. Just Living – Moving beyond the endless cycle of fixing and instead focusing on simply being and responding in the moment.

* The Shift in Approach to Learning & Certifications – Recognizing that another course or program isn’t always necessary, and integrating what’s already been learned.

* Building Resilience & Capacity – How real-life experiences of navigating self-doubt contribute to inner strength over time.

* Feeling Ancestors Through the Body – A growing sense of connection to ancestral support in moments of challenge.

* Expanding Awareness of Sensory Experience – How paying attention to interoception and proprioception can shift anxiety and presence.

* Grounding Through the Senses – A simple practice of naming things seen, heard, and felt to return to the present moment.

Final Thoughts:

This episode was a real-time exploration of working through resistance, allowing emotions to move, and trusting the body's process. No neat conclusions—just sharing the experience as it unfolds.

Would love to hear from you if anything resonated <3

Mystically,

Belle