This is a messy one lol. Messy as in I stumble around a bit but that’s just part of my process ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ It’s also a little bit of a love note to the people who are out there doing the dang thing and sharing their process with the world.
This is Living in Response—an experiment, an audio journal, an exploration of speaking freely without a plan, without over-editing, without knowing exactly where this will go. I’m discovering, more and more, that things unravel as I begin. So I’m doing it afraid, doing it messy, doing it anyway.
Topics Covered
Summarized with AI
Doing It Afraid
Every teacher I’ve learned from—whether through books, courses, or life itself—has reinforced the same message: It’s always going to be scary to put yourself out there, but the only way through is to do it anyway.
Authenticity as the Anchor
Who I am, what excites me, what I refuse to compromise on—this is the foundation. Meaning in life is tied to resonance, not just with what feels good or exciting, but with what feels like mine.
Energy & Resonance
Everything is energy. What calls us forward, what aligns with us, what “clicks” isn’t random—it’s a reflection of what’s already alive within us.
The Fear of Being Seen
A lot of the world, including spiritual communities, demonizes the desire to be seen. But wanting to be visible, wanting attention for our art, our voice, our work—it’s not wrong. It’s human.
The Power of “Celebrity Energy®”
I’ve been in a group coaching container with Whitney Uland (How to Be Famous®), exploring the energetics of visibility and authenticity. It’s not about chasing fame—it’s about increasing the capacity to be seen without shrinking, without shame.
The Artists Who Owe Nothing But Their Truth
Why I’m drawn to artists like Sophie Hunter, Lyvia, and Morgan Clae—not necessarily only because of their lyrics or genre, but because their energy is undeniably real. Authenticity is magnetic.
Creative Living & the Ache to Express
I recently joined Creative Living with Lois from Up Club and Maia from Colectiva. Their approach—merging the intellectual and somatic, the mind and body—is already shifting my creative process in an undeniable way. Sometimes we need to hear the same thing a thousand times before it clicks.
The World Would Be Different If…
A journaling prompt from Creative Living brought up unexpected resistance. I share how I leveraged the holotropic nature of the energy that is me to process / move through it.
Integration vs. Endless Healing
For years, I was obsessed with self-help, always searching for the next limiting belief to dismantle. But at some point, it’s not about fixing—it’s about integrating. About moving forward, not just inward.
Holotropic Energy & the Natural Return to Wholeness
Inspired by Stan Grof’s work, I’ve been reflecting on how energy naturally wants to reintegrate. The mind can interrupt this process, but when we slow down and pay attention, we can witness reintegration happening in real time.
Healing Alone vs. Healing with Support
There’s a dominant narrative that healing must be done with a practitioner, but I’ve worked through deep grief and trauma alone—with tools I learned from others. It’s possible. Both things can be true: We need skilled guides and we can empower ourselves.
The Savior Complex in Spiritual & Self-Help Spaces
There’s a fine line between wanting to help others and falling into a savior mindset. But dismissing the desire to help as a “savior complex” can be another way of suppressing the natural human impulse to contribute.
Expression Over Fixing
I started in healing spaces, but I find myself more drawn to creativity and expression. The shift from self-help to self-expression feels like the next phase of my journey.
Parts Work & Internal Dialogue
I’ve never formally studied Internal Family Systems, but I intuitively recognize different parts within myself. Rather than trying to silence them, I’m experimenting with bringing them into the process.
The Eclipse in Virgo & Creative Unfolding
The timing of this creative burst feels synchronistic—especially as Virgo rules my fifth house of creativity and self-expression. For me, the cosmos mirrors what’s already in motion.
Letting It Be Messy
I’m doing this unpolished, unfiltered, unbounded. This is me joining the movement of visionaries, creatives, and innovators supporting each other. Maybe my willingness to do this messy and not die (lol) will help someone else take their first step.
Mentions & Resources
not affiliated, just a fan
* How to Be Famous (Celebrity Energy Mentorship) – Whitney Uland
* Creative Living – Lois from Up Club & Maia from Colectiva
* The Holotropic Mind – Stanislav Grof
* The Energy Codes – Dr. Sue Morter
* Authentic artists: Sophie Hunter, Lyvia, Morgan Clae (I said Maddie in the recording)
Final Thoughts
I don’t know exactly where I’m going with this. But I do know that I’m answering the call.
Something is calling me forward, not through my mind, but through my body. And I’m listening.
No overthinking. No waiting until it’s perfect. Just creating, just expressing.
If you’ve shared some of your energy with me in listening or reading, thank you <3
I’d love to hear from you!
Mystically,
Belle
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