Living in Response

Episode 024 of Living in Response is ultimately a love note to Visionary Weekend and an ode to the magic of COMMUNITY <3

Thanks for tuning in to this unfiltered, unedited, unbounded, and UNCAGED exploration in “you don’t have to have it all figured out, you just have to start.”

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1️⃣ The Cost of Community is Discomfort (And It’s Worth It)This weekend cracked me open. I came in craving community, and what I found was so much more: authenticity, inspiration, and soul-deep connection.But to get there, I had to walk through discomfort. I had to show up early. Be awkward. Feel fear.And every time I let my body lead instead of my thoughts—I was rewarded. Beautiful connections came through after the fear. Not before.

2️⃣ Embodiment Over Small TalkAs an introvert and Scorpio stellium (hello, depth!), small talk drains me.So instead, I leaned into presence.I stayed in my body, let the sensations guide me, and stayed curious.This helped me show up exactly as I was, without trying to impress or prove.And somehow… that made space for the most powerful connections.

3️⃣ A Deeply Affirming CommunityThese people? They’re doing the dang thing. Living in alignment. Rooted in purpose.It reminded me of my rave days in my 20s—different vibe, same deep soul resonance.I could feel their authenticity. Their journeys. Their devotion to their process.No perfection. Just real people showing up for themselves and each other.

4️⃣ Visionary Podcast Segment IncomingAn unexpected download: I’m adding a new podcast segment!Living in Response: Visionary Edition✨ Conversations with people who are actively living their purpose—not perfectly, but deeply.I want to ask (for some examples)

* What feels alive right now?

* How did you get here? (because i have a hunch there is a theme!!)

* What makes it rewarding? What makes it hard?

* What’s your personal philosophy?

This segment is about capturing the process—the messy, meaningful middle. Not just the polished result.

5️⃣ The Process IS the ArtOne of the loudest messages from this weekend:✨ The process is the art.✨ The behind-the-scenes matters.✨ The awkward beginning phases are sacred.It’s easy to compare yourself to someone who seems ahead. But I was reminded: everyone starts somewhere.And my “somewhere” is exactly where I’m meant to be.

6️⃣ Community is How We HealI keep saying it: we’re not meant to do this alone.This weekend proved that.Being in the presence of others who are devoted to their purpose—that is medicine.And I felt it in my body. Safe. Expanded. Lit up.This is how we build the world we want. Together.

7️⃣ The Evolution of Meaning is PhysicalMeaning is not an idea. It’s a feeling. A bodily sensation.My work is rooted in interoception—the biological ability to feel our internal landscape.It’s how I make aligned choices, sense when to stay or go, and feel resonance.I believe developing interoception is humanity’s next evolutionary step.It’s where science meets spirit. And I’m here for it.

8️⃣ Purpose, Values & the BodyInspired by Logotherapy (Viktor Frankl’s work), I believe:🔸 The meaning of life isn’t pleasure or power—it’s meaning.🔸 And meaning is found through values—which I experience as sensations in the body.So yes, my nervous system is my compass.The more of us living this way, the more coherent and connected our collective becomes.

9️⃣ Trusting the Seed PhaseNot everyone I met this weekend was “established.” But they were committed.They were in it.And that inspired me to honor my own seed phase.🌱 The podcast is enough.🌱 I’m enough.🌱 We’re all growing at the pace that’s right for us.

1️⃣0️⃣ Living UncagedI’m releasing the need to be perfect, polished, or performative.This podcast is uncaged—no edits, no masks.I’m not here to be someone else.I’m here to be me. And let that be enough.

Final GratitudeTo the ancestors.To all my relations.To the people who showed up and shared their medicine / gifts / talents / passions /visions / dreams .To the mocktail bar (YES).To the art that moved me.To the improv poetry workshop that surprised me.To LA. To life.And to you—for listening, witnessing, and being a part of the journey!

Mystically,

Belle

Day 19 of Living in Response is a deep reflection on Visionary Weekend - a community-based event that brought me into profound connection with my body, spirit, others, and the visionary energy that’s alive in LA. Today was technically day 2, even though it was day 1 for me and I’ll be reporting back on day 3 tomorrow <3

This one’s unedited, unfiltered, and straight from my core (as usual!)

I forgot to mention I did a poetry and improv workshop and LOVEDDDD it!! Who am I?!?! lol.

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1️⃣ The Power of Visionary Community

* I attended Visionary Weekend, hosted by Destiny (@destinythemuse), and it sparked something big inside me.

* The event gathered creatives, mystics, teachers, producers, and more—all living their vision.

* The panel format showed me how diverse paths still stem from a shared willingness to do things differently.

* The people who spoke from personal experience (“I” instead of “you”) hit me the hardest. This affirmed the core of this podcast: sharing from lived experience.

2️⃣ Embodied Listening & Interoception Practice

* One of the first workshops paired us up to explore deep listening—from the body, not the mind.

* Rather than reflecting back words, we reflected sensations.

* This had a profound impact—people cried, opened up, and truly felt seen and heard.

* This embodied approach is what I’ve been unknowingly practicing for years: interoception—the ability to feel what’s going on inside the body.

3️⃣ Developing Interoception as a Lifestyle

* I’ve made embodiment a way of life, not just a practice.

* Interoception helps me:

* Make aligned decisions

* Navigate intuition vs fear

* Feel more meaning

* Say no to things that make me feel off

* I went from only sensing basic needs (like hunger or temperature) to using my body as a portal to energy, connection, and intuition.

4️⃣ Cannabis, Creativity, and Energy Perception

* Cannabis is an intentional ally in my spiritual practice—used to deepen presence, creative flow, or social connection.

* During the event, I noticed visual energy outlines around people and even plants.

* My reading with a spirit doctor unlocked deep ancestral insight, especially around my relationship with my father.

5️⃣ The Importance of Place, Belonging, and Vision

* LA has a unique energy—home to people chasing dreams and building a better world.

* I felt so seen among this community of innovators and dreamers.

* The event reminded me that insert yourself into community is sometimes the only way to find it.

* And it’s okay to be nervous. Discomfort is often the cost of expansion.

6️⃣ A Lifestyle of Feeling

* Everything in my life now runs through my body.

* From breathwork and massage to interpersonal conversations and spiritual insight, I interocept my way through life.

* Interoception is a biological sense—like touch or smell—that allows us to feel our inner landscape.

* It is also, in my view, the gateway to energy, intuition, creativity, and purpose.

7️⃣ The Feminine, the Masculine, and Authentic Integration

* A reading affirmed both the divine masculine protector energy that’s guided my path and the playful, feminine essence that loves red and champagne.

* Both are welcome. Both are natural.

* I’m no longer buying into the shame that says one has to be more “in her feminine” to be worthy of love or alignment.

8️⃣ This Podcast as a Living Practice

* Living in Response is not just a name—it’s an experiment in staying open.

* I share unedited, raw reflections because I’m building the courage to stay with what’s real now, not just what’s polished.

* And from this place, I’m proving to myself (and maybe to you too) that it’s okay to do things scared, to evolve the vision, and to keep showing up.

Eternal gratitude for this life and everyone / everything in it!

Mystically,

Belle

Day 18 of Living in Response features “Energy Activism,” surrender, “mesodosing cannabis,” life with Hashimoto’s disease + a touch of living astrology.

Thank you for supporting this raw, real-time experience of being human. <3

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—> ChatGPT is annoying in that it often won’t summarize content about cannabis. However, I do speak to it in this episode and mention “mesodosing,” which is what I call it when I’ve imbibed more than a microdose and not as much a macrodose, for creative and meditative purposes.

1️⃣ Too Much to Say — Overwhelm & the Creative Process

* Not knowing where to start because there’s so much to say can feel just as paralyzing as having nothing to say.

* The key: Let the body speak. Start somewhere, anywhere—trust the process.

* This episode was recorded after cleaning, journaling, yoga—giving the resistance some space rather than forcing through it.

* Reminder: The process itself is the art.

2️⃣ From Output Obsession to Process Devotion

* Many books and teachers share the output of their journey—but skip over the real-time process.

* I’ve been trying to reverse-engineer my life into a teachable method… and it just doesn’t feel right (yet).

* The magic is in sharing from the middle—not waiting for a polished lesson.

* Letting the process be the gift, rather than something to be wrapped up and sold.

3️⃣ Energy Activism — A Different Kind of Impact

* I may not be lobbying or protesting, but I am participating in change.

* HeartMath’s research proves our energy affects others—coherence is contagious.

* Grounded, calm, embodied people change rooms just by being.

* This is my version of activism—off the radar, but deeply impactful.

4️⃣ Hashimoto’s, Brain Fog & Healing on All Levels

* Recent struggles with thyroid medication reminded me: healing is layered.

* Even after all the energy and spiritual work, my body still needs physical support.

* But I don’t demonize that—medicine is medicine, and all of it is energy.

* Healing is not linear, and it’s not all or nothing. It’s all part of the path.

5️⃣ Stop Demonizing Your Process

* I used to look back on past spiritual trainings and feel shame—“Was that all a waste?”

* Now I see it differently: everything I did brought me here.

* Trying, doing, realizing something wasn’t for me—that’s not failure, it’s wisdom.

* Acceptance over shame. Curiosity over judgment.

6️⃣ Surrender is a Feeling

* Surrender isn’t just a concept—it’s a physical, emotional feeling.

* In meditation today (with gentle cannabis support), I found myself feeling surrender.

* Mantras like “It’s okay to not know” and “Let go” dropped me deeper into presence.

* I’m learning to create surrender in my body when I need it most.

7️⃣ Preparation Meets Trust

* I used to feel pressure to explain how I got to where I am.

* But I’m learning to trust that whatever wants to come through in the moment will.

* Practicing this at events, in conversations, and in sharing my work.

* The trust muscle is growing—and it’s deeply tied to surrender.

8️⃣ Astrology & Archetypes of Energy

* Briefly touched on the shift from Pisces (surrender, mist, endings) to Aries (spark, new beginnings).

* Astrology as a language of energetic expression that mirrors the body.

* My sun moving into the 12th house reflects this deep inner process of surrender before the spark.

Mentions & Resources(not affiliated, just a fan)

* Creative WeedWork by @destinythemuse

* Visionary weekend hosted in LA (March 21-23)

* HeartMath Institute (for heart coherence research)

* “The Subtle Body” by Cyndi Dale

I’m feeling a little more tired today than usual, so I’m going to take extra care of supporting all aspects of my wellness today.

In eternal gratitude!

Mystically,

Belle

Day 17 of Living in Response is about something new-ish in my field - innovation, which in essence begins with, “there has to be a (better)” way.

Thanks for joining me on this raw, unedited, unfiltered, uncaged, unbounded exploration into undocking the ship without knowing where I’m going.

Topics Covered in This Episode:

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1️⃣ The Creative Process & Showing Up Consistently

* Some days feel like an explosion of expression, others don’t.

* Learning to separate thoughts from feelings—just because my mind says “I have nothing to say” doesn’t mean that’s true. THISSSSSSSSSS

* The act of recording without expectation builds a muscle of self-expression.

* Creativity isn’t on or off; it’s always present—it just needs space to flow.

2️⃣ Resistance as a Creative Portal

* Resistance used to stop me—now I recognize it as part of the process.

* Instead of validating the voice that says “I have nothing to say,” I sit with it and create anyway.

* Giving the resistant parts of me “something to do” (e.g., imagining them coloring, watching a movie) allows the creative part to step forward.

* Every time I push through resistance, I end up creating more than I expected—sometimes recording a full hour.

3️⃣ Launching the Podcast on YouTube

* Initially, I wasn’t thinking about YouTube—just naturally found myself setting it up without overthinking.

* Decided to keep it unedited, unfiltered, and unbounded—real, raw, and in the moment.

* Letting go of perfectionism:

* No need for hair, makeup, or a production setup—I want to show up as I am.

* Authenticity is a core value—if I have to change how I present myself just to record, it doesn’t feel like me.

4️⃣ “There Has to Be a Better Way” – The Theme of Innovation

* This phrase keeps repeating in my mind—applies to:

* Personal growth & healing – How can we make healing faster, more effective, and accessible?

* The world at large – The current systems (government, healthcare, environment) clearly aren’t working.

* Creativity & work – How can we move beyond traditional expectations and create new ways of working and expressing?

* Innovation isn’t about starting from scratch—it’s about seeing what already exists and finding a better way.

5️⃣ Healing & the Future of Mental Health

* Traditional talk therapy helped but was too slow and limited.

* Psychedelic therapies, energy work, and somatic practices offer faster, deeper transformation.

* Experiencing resistance in the body can be resolved through:

* EFT tapping (Emotional Freedom Technique).

* Cannabis-assisted emotional release.

* Somatic-based healing rather than just talking.

* Healing is a portal to creativity, clarity, and meaning—once we clear the weight of past wounds, new possibilities open up.

6️⃣ The Role of Community & Collective Change

* We are a collective species—we need connection, but modern culture has made us competitive and isolated.

* More people need to step into innovation, share their ideas, and challenge old paradigms.

* Fear of not being “enough” or “qualified” is a lie—these doubts are conditioned but not true.

* If something feels alive in your heart, that’s a sign it’s meant to be explored.

7️⃣ Visionary Thinking & Following the Natural Path

* Attended a Visionary Mindset Workshop—reinforced the power of clarity in innovation.

* Instead of forcing a rigid plan, I trust in the unfolding process—following what feels alive and natural.

* The vision is forming as I go—I don’t need to know the full picture yet.

* Life is always asking something of us—our job is to listen and respond.

Mentions & Resources

not affiliated, just a fan

* The visionary I mentioned in the podcast is Yukino Nagasawa

* In hindsight, I should *not* have mentioned that she attended the workshop because that’s super personal and I won’t be doing that again, however I did reach out to her and she gave me permission to post this episode <3

* The organization I did my visionary workshop with (who is offering another soon BTW!!!) is Kinesthesia

* The other organization I mentioned that introduced me to psychedelic cannabis is Holistic Therapeutix

Next Steps & Reflection Prompts:

AI may have generated these for me, but I ~*genuinely*~ want to know!

🔹 What is something you feel resistance toward that might actually be calling you forward?🔹 Where do you find yourself saying, "There has to be a better way"?🔹 How can you practice self-expression today, without expectation or pressure?

I hope you have a beautiful time of day wherever you are and that you feel the love that you are <3

Mystically,

Belle

Day 16 of “I don’t know where I’m going but I’m going to start anyways because I know I have something to say.” In this unedited, unfiltered, and unbounded experiment in speaking from the heart, I get pretty existential with it because that’s just part of who I am ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ & it’s what is most alive in me at the moment.

Thanks for tuning in to Living in Response <3

ALSO - just to make sure it was clear, I incorrectly said that Viktor Frankl was German then tried to correct myself but it didn’t really sound that way so just so you know, he was born in Austria :)

Episode Overview

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In today’s episode, I share a major personal realization about my connection to Logotherapy—the existential psychotherapy approach developed by Viktor Frankl. I discovered that I’m just three degrees of separation from Frankl himself, which hit me on a deep emotional level. This sparked a reflection on the power of lineage*, the upcoming Logotherapy conference, and how meaning is passed down through experience.

(*this was something AI picked up on, not me, but I am intrigued lol.)

I also dive into my Logotherapy coursework, exploring how case studies are helping me integrate these principles into my life. My latest case study, "Discovering Myself Through My Voice," is a reflection on how meaning emerges through self-expression rather than being something we passively find. This realization ties into Frankl’s Meaning Triangle—creative, experiential, and attitudinal values—and the Guideposts to Meaning: self-discovery, choice, uniqueness, responsibility, and self-transcendence.

I then shift into a real-time reflection on values—how they shape our lives, how we experience them in the body, and why resistance often signals something meaningful waiting to emerge. I explore the interconnection between values, somatic awareness, and existential fulfillment, touching on ideas from interoception, the nervous system, and embodiment practices.

Finally, I share insights from my Logotherapy instructor’s work in hospice care, discussing death, legacy, and the importance of living in alignment with what matters most. This leads me to "The Dash" by Linda Ellis—a powerful poem about the small but profound line between birth and death, representing how we choose to live our lives.

If you’re someone who is searching for purpose, navigating resistance, or looking for a deeper connection to meaning, then we will probably get along and I would love to hear from you! (No pressure.)

Key Takeaways

🔹 Meaning isn’t something we wait to find—it emerges through action. Speaking, creating, and engaging with life bring clarity.🔹 Resistance isn’t just an obstacle—it’s an invitation. The things we resist often hold valuable clues about what matters to us.🔹 Values aren’t just intellectual concepts—they are embodied experiences. Learning to feel values in the body changes the way we relate to them.🔹 Self-compassion is a crucial value. Sometimes doing nothing and allowing ourselves to pause is just as important as taking action.🔹 Humor is a powerful tool for self-distancing. It helps us shift perspective and not take ourselves so seriously in moments of doubt.🔹 Death is a reality, but it’s not something to fear. The true question is: How are we living our dash (in reference to Linda Ellis’ original poem)?

Resources & Next Steps

Books/Poem Mentioned:

* Man’s Search for Meaning – Viktor Frankl

* The Dash – Linda Ellis

Invitations:

* What values feel most alive in your body? How do you know?

* Where do you feel resistance in your life? What might it be trying to show you?

* If your life were summed up in a "dash" between two dates, what would you want that dash to represent?

Eternal gratitude to all my teachers, ancestors, relations, and for anyone who is joining me on this journey!

Until next time - keep exploring, keep feeling, and keep Living in Response :D

Mystically,

Belle

Letting myself be excited while expressing my ideas because the excitement is what is helping them to form. Another episode of Living in Response, an unedited and unfiltered, journey into saying what I want to say despite all the reasons not to.

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In today’s episode, I take you through a raw, real-time download of a major creative realization. I’ve been sitting with the desire to create something—initially calling them "workshops"—but every time I tried to structure them in the traditional way, I hit a wall. The inner critic came in, telling me I couldn’t do it, that there was no audience, that I’d have to market it, and before I knew it, I was tangled in thought loops that led nowhere.

I realized I was approaching this the wrong way. My usual go-to strategies weren’t working, and instead of staying stuck in my head, I decided to move—literally. I went on an Ujjayi hike, a practice where I hike while using Ujjayi breathwork to regulate my energy and get out of my analytical mind. And within 10 minutes, clarity started dropping in.

One of the biggest insights? I’ve been trying to create these experiences through methods that don’t work for me—writing things down, making PowerPoint slides, structuring it step-by-step. But that’s not how I naturally create. Instead, I realized I could just speak them into existence. I could use voice recordings, let the ideas flow in real-time, and transcribe them later. This shift from writing to speaking opened up a whole new way of bringing my ideas to life.

I also saw how I was unintentionally boxing myself in with Human Design labels. Thoughts like, “I have to do this in a structured way because I’m a Quad Left” were actually limiting me. But Human Design isn’t meant to restrict—it’s meant to be an invitation. Once I let go of the mental rules, I felt free to create in my own way.

From this process, two new experiences (not workshops!) are taking form:

* Supporting Human Design Generators & Manifesting Generators – Redefining "waiting to respond" in an embodied way, outside of the rigid Human Design language that often leaves people feeling stuck.

* Somatic Values Exploration – Connecting with values not just intellectually, but through a fully embodied experience rooted in Logotherapy and nervous system awareness.

This episode is a celebration of breaking free from overthinking, letting creativity emerge in its own way, and shifting the focus from outcome to process. If you’ve ever felt stuck in your own creative endeavors, this might be the nudge you need to explore what truly works for you.

Key Takeaways:🔹 Overthinking can block creativity—sometimes, the best move is to stop thinking and start moving.🔹 Not all creative processes need to be structured—some ideas are meant to be spoken into existence.🔹 Human Design should be a guide, not a box—if it's feeling restrictive, it might be time to zoom out.🔹 Resistance isn’t a bad thing—it signals that something meaningful is waiting to emerge.🔹 Values aren’t just intellectual concepts—they’re embodied experiences that shape our sense of meaning and motivation.

Many thanks and much love to anyone who happens to stumble upon this. My comments are always open! <3

Mystically,

Belle

I’ve always known that teaching/sharing/expressing an idea is how I learn best so this episode is dedicated to not only my study of Logotherapy/Logo-philosophy, but also to my life as a person who lives it.

Living in Response is the step on my self-expression / creative journey where I do “it” messy, unfiltered, unedited, a little afraid but all the way excited. Thanks for witnessing my version of “getting started.”

Topics Covered

Summarized by AI

Wrestling with Resistance and Realizing WhySpending a month avoiding Logotherapy studies, feeling guilty about it, and then finally asking—why? Realizing the drive to "keep up" wasn’t coming from a love of learning, but from chasing a credential. Letting go of the rush brought back the natural curiosity that made studying fun again.

Values as a Compass, Not a ChecklistReflecting on why I felt disconnected from my body and struggling to get back to the gym. Instead of forcing discipline, I asked myself: Why do I even want to go? Remembering that wellness isn’t just a concept—it’s a feeling. Tapping into the energy of past moments when I felt strong, alive, and in alignment made movement feel natural again.

The Power of Shifting Focus (aka Dereflection in Action)Realizing I was hyper-focused on the wrong thing—fixating on needing to work out instead of connecting with the deeper why. Using Logotherapy’s dereflection technique, I redirected my attention to something more meaningful: the feeling of wellness, not the obligation of a gym routine. That small shift turned resistance into motivation.

What Logotherapy Actually Is (and What It’s Not)Breaking down the core idea of Logotherapy—meaning isn’t something we "find" in a grand, sweeping way. It’s something we experience in every moment through values, actions, and mindset. Unlike traditional therapy, which often digs into the past, Logotherapy is about looking forward and asking, What is life asking of me right now?

Feeling vs. Thinking Your Way to MeaningNoticing how Logotherapy, like a lot of psychology, is deeply intellectual—but meaning isn’t just an idea, it’s a feeling. Connecting this to embodiment work and how values show up in the body. Learning that when I feel lost, I don’t need to think harder—I need to feel deeper.

Realizing That Teaching Is a Core ValueUnpacking an unexpected realization: teaching is something I’ve always done, from lining up stuffed animals as a kid to leading training sessions in my past jobs. But somewhere along the way, I convinced myself I wasn’t a teacher. Sitting with that realization and figuring out what teaching looks like for me now—without pressure or expectation.

Using Values to Navigate StucknessConnecting the dots between resistance, avoidance, and values. When something feels off, it’s often because I’m not living in alignment with what matters most. Instead of forcing discipline, I can reconnect with the feeling of those values in my body and let that guide my next steps.

Final ThoughtsThis episode is about learning to trust values as a lived experience, not just an intellectual exercise. It’s about recognizing when I’m pushing too hard, when I’m out of alignment, and how small shifts in focus can make all the difference. Whether through Logotherapy, embodiment work, or just getting curious about what feels alive, the path forward is always there—we just have to notice it.

Mentions & ResourcesNot affiliated, just a fan

* Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl

* The Viktor Frankl Institute of Logotherapy

Thanks for being part of my journey <3 My comments section is always open :)

Mystically,

Belle

An important one. TBH I don’t usually listen back to the recording all the way because I don’t want to but for this one I did and I’m really proud of saying what I had to say.

Thanks for engaging with Living in Response, a real-time exploration of starting at the beginning, which means uncertain, unfiltered, unbounded, and a little afraid.

Topics Covered

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Overcoming Physical and Mental Resistance

Reflecting on personal growth through hiking at Runyon Canyon—once a challenge, now a choice. Recognizing how physical endurance mirrors mental resilience and the power of persistence. Learning to focus on the present moment, breath, and personal progress rather than external comparisons.

The Role of Breath in Expanding Capacity

Discovering the impact of Ujjayi* breath (a yoga pranayama) during hikes—how intentional breathing shifted the experience from struggle to flow. Recognizing that breathwork and embodiment are tools for endurance, both physically and in life.

*I said incorrectly in the recording that Ujjayi that it’s in through the nose and out through the mouth but I meant to say it’s in AND out through the nose. It also has a little hissing sound from constricting the throat slightly.

Lessons from the Hike Applied to Life

Drawing parallels between persistence on the trail and navigating life’s uncertainties. Learning that staying present and taking one step at a time creates momentum and trust in the unfolding process.

Shifting from Limitation to Possibility

Reflecting on a shift in mindset around wealth and success—moving from a place of “I could never” to “It’s just not what I desire right now.” Exploring how expanding personal perception of possibility removes self-imposed limitations.

Breaking Free from Societal and Cultural Conditioning

Acknowledging the deep-seated beliefs around work, opportunity, and what is “possible” based on cultural and economic upbringing. Unpacking the tension between gratitude for the present and the desire for more. Recognizing the responsibility and privilege of having broken out of cycles of limitation.

Accessibility, Opportunity, and the Bigger Picture

Exploring the need for accessibility in personal development and spiritual resources—how financial and societal barriers impact access to these tools. Reflecting on lived experiences of poverty and systemic limitations, and the responsibility to create more inclusive spaces.

The Power of Slowing Down

Recognizing that energy and motivation don’t always come from doing more—they often come from pausing, resting, and turning inward. Understanding that deep relaxation, meditation, and embodiment practices are not just luxuries but essential tools for self-sustaining energy.

Embracing Paradoxes in Personal Growth

Navigating the balance between ambition and acceptance, external success and internal fulfillment, self-responsibility and systemic barriers. Holding space for multiple truths—acknowledging privilege while also validating struggle.

Creative Expression as a Means of Integration

Using podcasting as a form of self-exploration and integration—allowing ideas to evolve through spoken word. Letting go of the need to be perfectly articulate, trusting that clarity will come through continued expression.

Mentions

I mentioned something about a speech given about women in the workforce and I TOTALLY butchered it because it was from Joelle Tanguy, UN Women Director, Division of Strategic Partnerships (not Steve Jobs omg @ me), but it was addressing the female talent in Saudi Arabia, you can check that out here if you feel called.

Final Thoughts

This episode is a deep dive into persistence, self-trust, and expanding what feels possible. It’s about recognizing that growth isn’t about forcing things but about aligning with the energy of what is already unfolding. Whether through breath, movement, or mindset shifts, we are constantly shaping our reality.

So much love and gratitude.

Mystically,

Belle

An experiment in speaking even when I think I don’t have anything to say and a little bit of what I’m currently exploring. Also, I didn’t mention it but Electric State was kind of profound and I’ll chat about that next time.

Thanks for being a part of the Living in Response project where I’m taking everyone’s advice and doing it uncertain, unfiltered, unbounded, and a lil scared.

Topics Covered

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The Exploration of Speaking vs. Silence

* Navigating the inner conflict between wanting to express and feeling like there’s nothing to say.

* Observing the justification for silence and questioning whether it's a deeper avoidance.

* Recognizing that expression doesn’t always need a clear direction—it can be an act of engagement.

The Process is the Art

* Letting go of the pressure to always have a structured message.

* Trusting that speaking and expressing, even without a predetermined direction, is valuable.

* Creativity and contribution emerge naturally from an authentic, exploratory process.

Reframing Contribution and Self-Actualization

* Moving from feeling unfulfilled in a career to seeking ways to contribute meaningfully.

* Realizing the importance of self-discovery before trying to give back (for me).

* The balance between self-actualization and self-transcendence—understanding oneself as a path to finding purpose in the collective.

The Role of Interoception in Meaning and Awareness

* Interoception (the ability to sense internal bodily states) as a key to emotional and psychological well-being.

* How developing bodily awareness supports self-regulation, decision-making, and alignment with what feels right.

* The connection between deep interoceptive awareness and navigating life more intuitively.

The Body as a Portal

* Viewing the body as an essential tool for accessing deeper states of awareness.

* How sensations, emotions, and energy shifts guide personal evolution.

* Recognizing indigenous and ancient wisdom traditions that emphasize embodiment and honoring these roots.

Relaxation as a Gateway to Expanded Awareness

* The importance of deep relaxation in nervous system regulation and interoceptive awareness.

* The role of practices like Yoga Nidra and Non-Sleep Deep Rest (NSDR) in achieving altered states of consciousness.

* How cultivating presence and deep relaxation can be an accessible tool for personal and collective healing.

The Science of Brainwave States & Consciousness

* Exploring how different brainwave states (delta, theta, alpha, beta, and gamma) impact perception and awareness.

* The role of gamma waves in deep meditative states, oneness, and expanded consciousness.

* Studies on long-term meditators and how brain activity shifts with deep states of love and compassion.

Financial Accessibility & Spirituality

* The challenge of making transformational tools accessible to those who need them most.

* Recognizing that many who struggle financially are often the ones who need healing and self-discovery resources the most.

* Commitment to ensuring that personal offerings remain financially inclusive.

Trusting the Path & Following Curiosity

* Honoring the unfolding process rather than trying to force an outcome.

* Allowing curiosity to lead rather than overanalyzing each step.

* Embracing the joy of exploration and trusting that everything aligns in its own time.

Resources & Mentions

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* Interoception & Neuroscience: Research by Kelly Mahler and Antonio Damasio on the role of bodily awareness in mental health and decision-making.

* Brainwave Studies: Work by neurophenomenology researchers studying meditation and gamma wave activity.

* Yoga Nidra & NSDR: Ancient and modern relaxation practices for nervous system regulation and deep healing.

* Human Design: Insights into how bodily awareness supports Generators in living in response.

* Psychedelic Cannabis & Somatic Work: The role of altered states in deepening embodiment and energy awareness.

* Book Mentioned: Becoming Supernatural by Dr. Joe Dispenza (not fully aligned with his work but referenced for curiosity).

* Social Commentary: Reflections inspired by @dinah.akua, a creator discussing decolonization and accessibility in spiritual spaces.

Final Thoughts: Letting Curiosity Lead

* There’s no need to force clarity—expression itself is valuable.

* Relaxation and embodiment offer profound transformation.

* Curiosity is the guide—trusting it allows life to unfold in unexpected and meaningful ways.

Eternal gratitude for this life and everyone in it! My comments section is always open :)

Mystically,

Belle

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This is Living in Response, a living exploration of adding my voice and ideas into the mix of life - unedited, unscripted, unfiltered, unbounded, and destination unknown!

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The Power of Asking: Is This What I Really Want to Be Doing Right Now?

* A simple question I’ve built into my daily life that helps me move out of autopilot.

* Applying this even to things I “should” be doing, like scrolling Instagram or working out.

* Sometimes the answer is yes, and that’s okay—no justification needed.

* Other times, it’s no, and that awareness gives me the chance to pivot toward something more fulfilling.

Breaking Free from the Good/Bad Binary

* Realizing that labeling actions as “good” or “bad” only creates unnecessary pressure.

* Instead, focusing on conscious decision-making—what feels right in the moment?

Judging My Own Process

* Catching myself in a loop of self-criticism: “I’m just talking about doing it instead of actually doing it.”

* The pressure to shift away from discussing the process and focus on “real” topics.

* But the truth is, the process is the art. Creativity is born from lived experience, not some polished final product.

The Reminder: Creativity is Personal

* Revisiting The Creative Act by Rick Rubin, one of the most impactful books I’ve read.

* Understanding that true creativity comes from an authentic place—it doesn’t have to look any certain way.

* Letting go of external validation and embracing creation for its own sake.

Reflections on My Past in Animal Welfare

* Coming across a post about a dogfighting case and feeling unexpected emotions surface.

* Realizing I’d been having stress dreams about my time in animal shelters for years without acknowledging them.

* Making the decision to finally face and process those emotions instead of keeping them locked away.

* Engaging in deep somatic release—crying, shaking, and fully feeling the memories until they lost their hold on me.

* Moving from an open wound to a scar, honoring my past without being trapped by it.

Energy as Activism

* Exploring a form of activism that isn’t about protesting or lobbying, but about changing the collective through energy.

* The science of heart coherence—how our nervous system state influences others.

* How focusing on my own energy, alignment, and regulation creates ripple effects in the world.

* Trusting that being in a state of wholeness, presence, and joy is a contribution to collective healing.

Letting My Life Be My Art

* Moving away from the idea that art is just writing, painting, or music.

* Seeing my life itself as a creative act—the way I move, express, and engage with the world.

* Dropping expectations of what my path "should" look like and following what feels alive.

Final Thoughts: Trusting the Process & Honoring What Feels Alive

* Recognizing that I don’t need to force my path—it unfolds naturally.

* No need to rush or prove anything—the process is the point.

* The things that matter most will come through when they’re ready.

* And at the end of the day, I get to live my life my way.

Thanks for bearing witness to my process <3

Mystically,

Belle