Mothering Anxiety

How are we at the Holiday Season again? Didn't we just celebrate Christmas like a few weeks ago and it's Christmas again?

If you've been following along on my Healing Journey, you know that I cut ties with my Toxic Family last November, right before the Holidays. If you are anything like me, I kept myself EXTREMELY BUSY to not let myself process or feel any of my feelings. This year though, everything is biting me in the butt and everything is very triggering.

Take a listen as I talk about my specific Holiday triggers, from missing my old Family Traditions, Christmas shopping for certain people, and how I am trying my best to make sure my Daughter never feels as if she is missing out on anything.

Cutting ties with Family is tough and going through the Holiday season can be extremely triggering but letting ourselves process through whatever it is we need to feel is a huge step to making us heal. 

I said I would continue to make these and well, here it goes. Part 3 of Random Things that give me Anxiety. In this episode I expose myself over the most random things that give me Anxiety like driving on the far left lane of the freeway, car washes, and going to the restroom with my Toddler because let's face it, Toddlers have no filter. . . Am I right?

My previous episodes have been a tad bit heavy, so I wanted to throw in a funny one in the mix because I have a few more heavy ones before the end of the year comes through. 

Do you have any random things that give you Anxiety?

Any that we have in common?

Being someone who suffers from Body Dysmorphia, my pregnancy was not rainbows and butterflies and sunshine. Pregnancy was extremely rough for me mentally. I never realized how bad my self esteem, my self confidence, or how bad my Body Dysmorphia was until I was pregnant. It truly took a massive toll on me, so rough that I never wanted to leave my house, I changed my work hours so no one would see me and I sunk myself into a very deep and dark depression.

Take a listen as I talk about my truth of what being Pregnant with Body Dysmorphia did to me mentally. I talk about my thoughts, my feelings, and all of my worries. 

Doubt. Shame. Lack of Self Confidence. Lack of Self Esteem. Not feeling good enough.

I have battled with no self esteem for many many years. Some days I feel as if I am not deserving of this platform, of this voice, of the strength I have to share my story with everyone. 

I constantly feel NOT good enough. I am constantly doubting myself, I am constantly self sabotaging my own success.

Take a listen as I talk about where me not having the confidence stems from and the little and simple ways I am trying to do to give myself the credit for all of the work I have accomplished. 

If you have been following along, you know that I keep talking about this "healing journey" that I have embarked. I am not only trying to learn to love my Anxiety and trying to learn my life with Anxiety, but I am trying to heal with my Childhood Trauma, my low self esteem, my people pleasing tendencies, but most of all, I am learning to heal my soul by learning to love myself for the very first time.

I have not made an entire episode talking solely on this Journey, so I decided to dedicate a few episodes on this Healing Journey and where I am so far.

There are 5 stages of Grieving and right now I am in the angry stage.

Take a listen as I talk about how I am feeling right now and how being on the Healing Journey has helped me see my life in a completely different perspective. 

Do you experience any physical symptoms that you did not know where associated with Anxiety? Migraines, Insomnia, Excess Sweating, or Heart Palpitations? I have been covering all the of the physical symptoms I experience in a multiple part series. I have many and many that I didn't even know were purely because of Anxiety. 

We like to think of Anxiety as only a Mental Issue but it definitely can affect our physical health as well.

Take a listen as I talk about 4 new symptoms that I experience when I am experiencing Anxiety.