Mothering Anxiety

TRIGGER WARNING : Suicidal Thoughts and Self Harm are mentioned. 

September is Suicide Prevention month. I have slowly shared how at the young age of 13, I was suicidal. There was a point in my life where I became conscious of the fact that I was on this Earth by pure mistake. Add that in with some bullying, an emotionally distant family, and the feelings of me not wanting to be alive grew strong every day. 

I never thought I would share this story to anyone. 

I had all my content planned out and I had the sudden urge to record this Episode and I wasn't going to argue with the Universe so I decided to record it. 

Take a listen as I remember those lonely feelings of when I was suicidal, how I was able to triumph through them and how I feel now that I am over 15 years passed that. 

Take a listen as I chat with Christopher about his Alcoholism and how it affected his Mental Health. He shares his incredible journey on what lead him to the path he is now with his own podcast 40,000 Steps. We have a very raw and honest conversation about our lives with Anxiety as well as how addicting made an impact on both of our lives. Truly such an inspirational story. 

Stepping out of our comfort zone doesn't come easy to those of us who deal with Anxiety. We tend to fear that others are going to think negatively of us, we think that people are always judging us, we think that people are going to think that we are "dumb." I did a few experiments on stepping out of my comfort zone suggested by some of you and I talk about my experiences with them. Take a listen as I talk about how stepping out of my comfort zone has helped me physically and mentally. 

We've all heard of different ways we can try and manage our Anxiety. From cutting out caffeine, to eating healthy and exercising, to even getting some sunlight. And trust me, I know it all sounds very cliche but, I put them all to the test and let me tell you. . . it works. Cringe right?? Take a listen as I talk about the 5 different things I do to my almost every day routine to make sure that those "every day" anxieties are gone. I know you are all going to hate me for repeating myself like every other person but there is some truth to some of these things that are said! I promised I would always be honest and well, here I am. 

365 Days of Mothering Anxiety. What an absolute Roller Coaster this has been. Take a listen as I talk about how I started my Podcast, what it's like for me now that I've been doing this Podcast for an entire year and how I have come to realize that this is what I am meant to be doing. 

For so long, I felt as if I never had a purpose in life. At a very young age and came to realize that I was never meant to exist, that I was merely here by pure mistake. It was taken me almost 30 years to finally find the true beauty behind my life and I would be lying if I said it was because of this Podcast and the incredible people I have met throughout this journey that have made me realize that I do have a purpose and it is to share my story, to share my life with Anxiety and to help others not feel alone.

I am here to put your story into words for you, to talk about the uncomfortable to make you feel comfortable, and to share my life as a healing journey for myself.

Thank you to everyone who has been tuning in week after week, who has been with me throughout this entire year, and if you are new here welcome. 

I could not have done all of this without each and everyone of you, you truly do not go unnoticed.

Here is to 365 more days to come of Mothering Anxiety.

This is your Podcast Host, Mireya, where I truly am meant to be. 

You all loved the first one so much, so here is the second one! I have made a (very long) list of the most Random Things that give me Anxiety and have decided to share them all with you in a multiple part series in hopes to show you that you might not be alone in some random Anxieties. Some examples I talk about in this episode are driving with a new person in my car and going down escalators. Do we share any similar things that give you Anxiety? Take a listen to find out!

It has taken me 30 years to realize that I haven't been living my life for myself but for others. I have realized that everything I did, from what I would wear, what I would say was simple to "please others," to make others comfortable. Take a listen as I talk about some habits I have as a People Pleaser and what it is I am doing to change that mindset. It isn't easy, but the work is so worth it!