Mothering Anxiety

Admitting that I am the Bad Guy in certain people's story is a hard thing to admit. Admitting that I have also picked up some toxic traits along the way from being surrounded by toxic people is also hard to admit.

 I know that I have done things and said things that may have caused harm to others and as a people pleaser, as someone that always needs to be liked and loved by everyone, it is hard to just simply think that some how you were harmful to someone else. But, we also have to learn to admit that some times we will always be the bad guy in someone's story because we stood up for ourselves and we know longer were willing to put up with their abuse. 

Accepting that in their narrative, you are the bad guy and you will never be able to share your side of the story to make your point. 

Take a listen as I talk about some toxic traits I have picked up along the way in order to survive from being so emotionally neglected growing up and as I talk about some toxic traits that I am currently working on. 

Are you a victim of Self Sabotage? I never realized how many self sabotaging behaviors I had until I started to do research and record this episode. Some of these behaviors were things I used to do and some are some that I still constantly do. 

Take a listen as I talk about the 4 Self Sabotaging behaviors I have and still currently deal with.

I constantly get asked, how do you so openly share your story and post yourself all over social media while dealing with Anxiety? 

The answer is. . . I don’t know. I’ve been doing social media for maybe almost 3 years by now and I will have to say that it does get easier. When you find your “tribe,” your “community,” you won’t feel as anxious or judged. You know that these people genuinely care, and genuinely are following you for the content you provide. 

Everyone has a story and everyone’s story brings value to someone’s life. You don’t have to be as open as me, but if you want to start posting more, I say DO IT. It’s fun! 

Take a listen as I talk about some good things and bad things about being so open on social media and what I’ve learned after doing this for a couple of years.

My daughter just turned 4 years old. She is officially at the age I was when I have my first memories as a child, some good ones and not so good ones. 

Now that she’s at the age, it’s absolutely terrifying because if I am going to cause her trauma, this is it, this is when she remembers things. 

Take a listen as I talk about my worries, concerns, and most of all anxieties being the Cycle Breaker of my own family and how I am trying to be a better parent for her.

There were so many things I wanted to accomplish by January 1st. I figured New Year, New Start. I was pushing so had to get this all done but then none of it happened. I figured, well, that’s okay, still plenty of time. 

Now we’re half way done with January and I have still NOT found the motivation to do ANYTHING. I didn’t realize that I was BURNT OUT until I was basically forced to start working and now I’m at the point where I am struggling to get back on track. 

Take a listen as I talk about the reality of life sometimes! Some days we get BURNT OUT & we feel like failures for not accomplishing anything but I am here to tell you to use your Burn Out as an advantage.

The movie Encanto is a Disney movie with the underlying theme of Generational Trauma.

If you have been following along my Podcast and my Healing Journey, you know that I am no stranger to Generational Trauma, I have been trying to break the cycle of Trauma in my own family.

Now, here comes a movie that talks about Generational Trauma with pretty colors and catchy songs and I have LOTS TO SAY.

Am I glad that a movie about what many of us have gone through was made? Yes. I also love how from an outsiders perspective, the family looks and acts like a "normal" family but for someone who has been in a toxic family dynamic, there are bigger issues within the family. 

Take a listen as I talk about my thoughts on the movie Encanto and how I was able to relate it to my own life and journey of breaking my Generational Trauma.

Kinda cliche right? Aren't we all annoyed when we hear someone say "New Year, New ME." I mean, I know that I am. So why did I decide to title my episode something so cliche? Because it is true. This year I plan to be an even BETTER me than I was LAST YEAR.

If you've been following along, you know that I have embarked on this Self Healing Journey from my Childhood Trauma, Toxic Relationships, and simply just learning who I am and how to love myself.

The transformation I have done in just one year has been REMARKABLE and I truly cannot wait to see what 2022 has in store for me!

Take a listen as I talk about my goals for this year and some tips and tricks on how I've helped keep my new habits alive.

Where did the time go? Doesn't it feel like the year just started? How is Christmas only a few days away, how are we starting 2022 in just a week? 

As I look back in this year, there are many things that I am grateful for and many things that I have learned. There was many good things but also many bad things that happened this year that has helped shape me into the person I am ending 2021 as.

Take a listen as I recap my year and talk about the many things I learned throughout this year.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday and a very safe and Happy New Year!

I took all of Thanksgiving off of Social Media to allow myself to work through and process any feelings that might have come up during the Holidays. There were many things that I learned and also many memories I forgot I had. The week consisted of lots and lots of crying but by the end I realized what I was truly grieving for and that what I have now is a million times better.