Todd once loved a woman. And she loved him back, but there was one thing that she just couldn’t get over, he twirls. This piece explores what it means to be effeminate when you’re a straight cis-dude. Kaitlin talks to men who embrace and resist their femininity.

Ep 1 of “Pansy”: A season of stories about letting your feminine flag fly.

Produced with help from Julia Alsop and editorial support from Cassie Wagler. Special thanks to Julia Serrano.