In this first 2-part collab episode, Chilli and I was talking about finding ourselves, bullying and making peace. We started by talking about traveling at first, before touching on friends, and also moving towards getting a bit more vulnerable. It was a beautiful first episode as I didn't expect ourselves to have such great chemistry without a brief and prompt. It was an interesting episode as we manage to pull off "rye off the bat", as we retain the authenticity of the content while maintaining the same art direction as my other episode.

My future used to be bleak, I spent most of my time hanging out, travelling, and there is so much that I have given up for freedom and travel. However, the realism of growing up hits when I start taking more responsibility for things, from being a more filial child to a better leader, I'm hopeful for the future today.

And it's a nice take to be hopeful and to be able to count our blessings.

This is a 2 part episode where I'd like to address my late posting. I'd been caught up with life, adulting just hits and it was quite hard to let go of what I used to do; especially hanging out and streaming. But then again sometimes we also do have to look at what we stand to gain from letting things go. 

I'd gain a lot more insight as a working realtor, and it also allows me to be more focused on growing my resources to go after my dream.

Growth comes with letting things go, and sometimes letting go is not a bad thing afterall

This is a feeling I mostly have when I'm hustling, or when I'm embarking on things that I'm passionate for. As I'd been seeing my friends getting married, having kids, owning a house and here I still running after my passion, creating content, gaming, traveling and creating art.

However, sometimes defying meta and conformation is not that lonely after all, or rather, it is meant to be "this lonely". All we need is a little courage to own our own narrative and journey, and what's waiting for us out there is definitely the better, stronger versions of ourselves.

"If Only". 

A phase of convenience, of excuse, of hoping to shape the world where everything goes our way. It is also this sad phase that made us unwilling to work for things. This hope of a silver lining gives us a reason to wait out for things that might even happen, or even the absurdity of all criteria to align like stars that are never meant to cross.

In this episode, I'd like to talk about how we (or rather, I), use this phase so often to push things off, to not work on it and just to... simply, wait. And how I should stop waiting and start living.

Recently I'd been up to alot of work; drowning in them infact. I have lost so much time for myself, from gaming or leisure time, I find myself stepping into the life of a workaholic. It makes it worse when my work can get very result base when it comes to sales.

However, all is not lost as I find myself embracing more responsibilities, from paying more and helping out my family, to using the capital as resources to further grow my passion project which I didn't have.