Victory at Bat

And so the “More of U.S. than You,” Gelt Ku crew of the cannabis industry decided that it was better to abandon me in the sun.

The marijuana players of the day, worked with my violators, aided and abetted those who killed my family and stole everything from me in conjunction with the Epstein Maxwell Gelt Ku crew.

They decided, together as lawyers, street members, and public safety to further violate me on July 31, 2021 in an effort to keep me silent. See? Don’t ever let me see y’all knocking law enforcement when you worked with them all the way up to the Supreme Courts. You helped each other wash me away and left me to hang in the sun to be trafficked across the country without a voice as a victim of a violent crime.

You watched and Witnessed in real time as James Haltom II poisoned my food and drink and the only thing any single one of you could think to do was cover yourselves while my family members, also victims of this current Epstein issue, died one by one.

You each aided and abetted my violators while stealing evidence from the pile left with me at 1004 Paris Avenue, Apt.C, Nashville, TN on July 31, 2021.

You witnessed a two men come to the door to give me an Order of Protection against me written by my daughter, the last correspondence I ever heard from her; an Order as retaliation for my not sitting down and shutting up. I haven’t seen my child since December of 2019.

YOU WITNESSED THE HARM OF ME and left me to die.

What did I ever do to anyone in the cannabis industry?

I FOUGHT FOR YOUR RIGHTS TO SMOKE LEGALLY. I fought for a long time. I fought and advocated for others before any of you acted like Hidden Enemies to me. I didn’t boast, I was working quietly.

And what did y’all do?

Acted like the Hidden Enemies written about in the Song of Psalms because others paid you to do it and you would do anything, absolutely ANYTHING, to get your screen time, your ratings, your followers, your Numbers. Numbers you have no Foundation for because you are starving creatures who can only think of yourself in a moment. You each turned me into a Number.

I fought for each one of you and you decided to turn your back because “I didn’t look the part?” You made fun of me to your friends to justify the treatment of me, when I was dying and slurring my words while Mr. Haltom was putting Visine and anthrax in my coffee and food each day. It was easier for each of you to claim I had a substance abuse problem because you lack humanity and the knowledge required to recognize signs of death.

Do you know what you were witnessing? I was literally clawing my way back to life.

I am left with the emotion that none of you care. You do not care what happens or what happened to me. You saw what you saw, you used espionage to keep ahead of your own crimes in order to benefit yourselves. You pointed fingers: “It’s public safety,” “It’s the courts!” “It’s….”

It’s no one, but each one of You. “The More of U.S. than You,” Club. Aka The Suffering Olympics party: The Cannabis Division.

Everyone lawyered up. Everyone has the capability to actually feel the weight of loved ones against their skin. To smell them, to argue with them, to hold reminders of them.

I no longer have these options. You, the people I fought for the right to toke, took it from me to feed yourselves so that you each could bow to a false king on First Felon Island: Failed President Edition.

And I mean nothing to any single one of you. You aided and abetted those who have abused me for my entire lifetime and they Set each One of you up to take the fall for the violent crime committed against me. Do you realize this? You had no idea what you were participating in, and he set you up to take the fall. He will make y’all accountable for his crimes against me. See how it works? Corruption spills everywhere.

All performers contributed to leave me to die in the sun so that you could have a big celebration and call it a win. Will you be embarrassed to answer truthfully before the Throne of G-d as One of Seventy Two Nations?

Would you be embarrassed to say, “Yes, I accepted payment to wash her out because she is an Epstein victim and I needed the money?” He uses criminals who have already been in the system because you will be easier to prosecute for the crimes he committed, based upon your past history. “I’ll give you another chance.” And y’all fell for it. He hates that I call him the First Felon in Charge on First Felon Island. (There will be a pushback for this statement because he can’t stop watching me, I’m under 24/7 surveillance and there is no freedom or friends for me because I don’t keep my mouth shut)

Y’all gonna go down for stealing my inheritance, house, bank accounts, killing my family on his behalf? This is a true statement.

You have stolen my hope, faith, and joy. I’m ashamed that I fought for any of you, but I do not regret it because my intentions have always been pure. I can’t say that about my experience with any of you.

I was wrong to fight for y’all. You are “just like them.”

Even in the 1970s, in the United States of America 🇺🇸, my GaMi hid her and I while she taught me. It was very important to Her for me to know that she was more than a face and now, I pass this on to you in the hopes you will hear before I check out again.

She was learning to be a doctor at the University of Berlin when those she went to school with all her life arrived to her home to take her and our family. Because of her looks, she was made to service Nazi soldiers during WWII. She was imprisoned in a brothel, but because of her Knowledge, she was allowed other privileges. Despite what many may think, war creates different times and love happens during the hardest of times. She was never allowed to own her own car, bank accounts, belongings. Just like me and my Mother. But, Her Faith was like no other despite appearances. She was more than a face. She was more than Marilyn Monroe. She wants you, who is reading this, to Know this. She was almost a Doctor and she studied botany before the War. Before they held her and killed our family in 1946.

This reading is for Her because She is the reason I keep putting one foot in front of the other until my recall back Home to Heaven.

I apologize for the lack of transcript and closed captioning. I’m fumbling through this process.

Thank you for listening to me. 🙏🏻📿

Please see the mentioned facts below. Women are rapists and violators, too. I’ve been harmed by more women than men, myself. Don’t let the false softness of “old school mirage” fool you. She and her have multiple victims.

Look who she lives, sleeps, and works for.

“In November, 2018, a young woman who had been one of Guilfoyle’s assistants at Fox News sent company executives a confidential, forty-two-page draft complaint that accused Guilfoyle of repeated sexual harassment, and demanded monetary relief. The document, which resulted in a multimillion-dollar out-of-court settlement, raises serious questions about Guilfoyle’s fitness as a character witness for Trump, let alone as a top campaign official.”

https://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/the-secret-history-of-kimberly-guilfoyles-departure-from-fox

“Rupert Murdoch appears to confirm that Kimberly Guilfoyle left Fox News due to 'inappropriate' behavior, after reports claimed she faced a sexual harassment accusation.”

https://www.yahoo.com/news/rupert-murdoch-appears-confirm-kimberly-150728881.html

“Rupert Murdoch Email Confirms Kimberly Guilfoyle Fired: “Inappropriate Behavior”

Female assistant claimed Fox host "displayed herself naked"”

https://lavocedinewyork.com/en/people/2023/03/13/rupert-murdoch-email-confirms-kimberly-guilfoyle-fired-inappropriate-behavior/

“KIMBERLY GUILFOYLE: DON JR.’S GIRLFRIEND REPORTEDLY FORCED OUT OF FOX NEWS

The former host allegedly left amid accusations of sexual misconduct and “emotionally abusive” behavior”

https://www.rollingstone.com/culture/culture-news/kimberly-guilfoyle-don-jr-s-girlfriend-reportedly-forced-out-of-fox-news-704473/

I’m still learning the more difficult words, so if you listen, apologies for the broken Yiddish. In matters of the Heart ❤️ singing Psalms, it really is the thought that counts.

Google translate is who I use for translating from Hebrew to Yiddish.

I read Tehillim from Chabad and Psalms from the Jubilee Bible on the Bible Gateway.

Thank you to those of you listening. I took a shot at broadcasting and I wasn’t aware that others would really listen. You remain a mystery to me, but I haven’t been heard for a very long time and just knowing someone is listening, helps to Heal what’s left in my heart.

I appreciate your presence very much. 🙏🏻

Especially when no one around me has ever shown me how to ask.

Especially if my environment has shown the penalty is great.

Especially when our Creator(s) beating within my Heart is telling me to gather strength and carry my Cross across the desert of Suffering to Stand and Deliver.

It makes me feel weak, but if I recognize why I may feel this sadness like I’m unworthy of Life, it should be taken as my sign to carry it across the Serpents 🐍 at the Gates (mouth).

Sometimes Forgiveness is asking Creation for absolution, not those I may have harmed, but in how I have learned my Lesson born of my mistakes so that I can help show others a better way to live so they can also learn correction.

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America is filled with demagogues at the moment. I don’t think We the People will be back “online “ as Humans for a while.

Please excuse our teenage years while everyone figures out why they disrespect their Mother and because they disrespect their Mothers, they lost their connection to God Our Father as One of Seventy Two Nations.

Of course, assumption junction, what’s your dysfunction? I am an island unto myself because everyone made it this way. (Please see demigogues reference above.)

Now, I get suppressed by Hidden Enemies acting as One unit because everyone across all lines is guilty and wtf would the Jones’ think?

If you would like to join me at my Table of One, please ask.

Signed,

A Mother without a Name

I’m just a Number and I have to be shuffled along again to appease the Hidden Enemies.

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I had something else picked out and then I ended up reading this instead. I guess G-d decided I needed this Chapter for today. Healing is not linear and I’m all over the place.

If you listen, I guess you do, too.

I use Google Translate to transcribe from Hebrew into Yiddish.

https://translate.google.com/?sl=en&tl=yi&op=translate

I have found this translator is the only one who carries Yiddish. Such is the way for Diaspora and Jews as a whole. Throw in Ashkenazi and watch out! Another ripple in the dichotomy of Divisions. We as humans have some wrinkles to iron out regarding our acceptance of one another. Some of U.S. were Hidden children, hiding from today’s enemies.

My GaMi knew these Days of Hell would arrive and though I was prepared from a young age, it just makes me miss Her all the more.

I get my readings from Chabad and the Jubilee Bible from the Bible Gateway.

https://www.chabad.org/library/bible_cdo/aid/16256/jewish/Chapter-35.htm

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalms%2035&version=JUB

All great resources when I need a moment to return back to life.

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I’m fumbling through this life I’m resisting to live because in Heaven there is no struggle. Others made decisions in support of my abusers and just dumped me in the hot sun ☀️ while everyone prospered from fraudulent conveyances across all domains.

But, who am I, right? I guess I’m not a person worthy of respect and dignity as performed by so many who know more about me than I do them.

And each celebrates winning from harming a victim because they were fraudulently conveyed to; but I guess if everyone lies as one organ, it’s not a lie? “More of U.S. than you.”

“Why aren’t you working already? I don’t understand.”

TRANSCRIPT

It's a struggle to live and I'm tired of complaining about it so I made plans and I went four days no food. This is my second day without, well, it was my second day without hydration with a view to activating my constitutional right to voluntarily stop eating and drinking and the reason why is because everything around me tells me I don't deserve to live.

I was abused as a child and an adult in some pretty horrific ways. I lost everybody, that there's a lot of funerals I haven't attended. and I didn't get any good byes.

And people just took everything. They just took everything from me. Like, you wouldn't believe. No documentation. sent off around the country with no result each time everybody just takes everything. Everything hospitals, whatever. They just take everything and that's what. We Epstein Trump victims deserve, I guess.

I don't know. I don't know what's wrong with people. I don't know. And I think that's what it is. I don't know what's wrong with people, and I'd rather not live amongst a bunch of, I mean, the network to create the amount of harm is pretty amazing. So it's hard. It's hard, I don't like it. Because I am the one that everybody came to. to solve the problems and I needed people and they're either dead or they're just one of them, you know?

And if you can only think in numbers and you lack human capacity, there's no reason for you and I to be in our, you know, lives together, but you don't need to come kill me. The fact of the matter is a major crime occurred to me, and nothing has happened. I was just dumped off. No end result, no word.

And people just think I'm supposed to just operate normally with my daughter and my mother just gone. They're just gone. And I tell people, and they don't care. They don't care. And I try to go to therapy, and I try to go to doctors, and I try to get mental health. And because of who my violators are, every single medical care facility and everywhere I go is just they just come in. And this is just the way it is, in the intelligence world.

And I have survived this far, but I'm wondering why. I don't know why I didn't get to stay up in Heaven. And it's hard because Heaven is a beautiful place. There is no suffering. You're just an existence with God. and it's warm and the feeling is just amazing. And then I was made to come back down here.

And then I was struggling, you know? I was really struggling, and instead of realizing what happened to me or even caring about what happened to me, everybody just assumed I was in a troubled relationship with substances because of who I was attached to. And then what everybody did, they went, they gave him everything. They catered to my abuser, these people that were supposed to love me. and they took my family from me, and they left me no words. Nothing. I got no ex…explanation.

I just got flung out into the wild and told you just here just live. Beg, borrow, and plead for that which is yours. And I have worked my whole life. I was taught not to ever ask for help because there was always penalties. Always. And I'm just disappointed. I'm I'm just disappointed.

Because all the good in me was created by those who turn their backs on me. And I'm the one who reported the harm to my child. And then they just came. They just came for us. They just, I mean, it was just, I don't even know where my sister is. I don't know anything. And this is what y'all have decided. I deserve. Nothing. No word, no nothing.

And that's who you are. You are cruel people. You are absolutely cruel people who have run out of humanity. And so today, I don't know why I'm fighting to live. I stopped myself. I would have been dead by Friday.

But something I got a text message. and then I was looking for mental health. I don't know why I'm fighting, but I'm fighting. I have nothing.. I have never relied on people before, and y'all have just dumped me out.

I had a business. What happened to that? Every, oh, everything's disappeared. And that's how cruel everybody is. They're so afraid of their own crimes that they join together in their wrongdoing. And they make decisions and they don't care. They do not. The abs absolutely do not care about humanity. They have no humanity. They do not care..

And when I'm left in this kind of environment where people are like just go be okay and beg borrow and plead. And I'm not used to it. You took everything from me. You left me for dead, like, literally, and threw me out in the world.

That's who you people are, whoever, you know? That's who you are. You don't deserve to take care of other people. None of you do. I don't know what happened. I don't know what occurred. I don't know who's protecting you. I don't care. And God our father doesn't care.

You are cruel. You are cruel to me.

And every day I have to fight for a reason to live, and I have no reason to live. It's crazy that I am fighting to live. It is absolutely crazy because I hit brick walls every day and I feel like somebody's laughing about it, you know That's how empty somebody is.

And I try to explain it to people, and they're not a victim like me, and they know all the histories surrounding Epstein’s Island and all this stuff and. I don't know why I'm fighting to live. I have no incentive. I don't, I have no friends, I have no family, I have nobody because I reported and that everybody took advantage of me and exploited me and then passed me around to all their friends and everybody's watching me as hidden enemies.

And then whoever orchestrated the whole thing never told everybody that I didn't give consent. So then whoever caused it all, now you're all joined together with your wrongdoing. and you know you did something wrong.

And you know each one of you know you stacked the deck against me. You know it. And it's sad. It's sad, that's how empty all of you are. That's who you are now. You're afraid of the crimes you have committed, or you're just too proud, or you honestly, you just don't care.

And that's what I think. I think each one of you has reached the level that you have absolutely emptied out your humanity. You have. You're absolutely empty, and you should take this as your sign that you are no longer useful to an American society. Because you are taking victims and just flinging them out because it's better for you. Not for us.

You're taking our words, you're taking our verbs. I mean, and you're using them for yourselves. And you're wondering why we can't get back up. If we had been abused all of our lives and y'all don't care. Y'all don't care at all. None of you. You exploited me. You extorted, and you took everything. Everything.

I created a child. I created a child in my stomach and…me? What is wrong with you? And then …you're the ones who did it. You are. You're the ones who did it.

You're the ones who sit as doctors and judges and lawyers and attorneys, and then you turn around, and you represent us the victims. I like, you're our friends, and you are not our friends. You are awful people. You are so lost in the desert. And I feel sorry for you.

Because at least I'm crying. I don't think you have the capability. I don't think you have the capacity any of you. I don't think any of you have the capacity to feel emotion. You take so many amhetamines. You justify it by saying it's prescription use. And I've watched y'all snort it off the damn counters while you made fun of me for not using so I know what you're doing.

And I regret that you were ever in my life. You take, you feed off of people who are innocent because you are so fucking empty. You create your own healths, you complain about who's doing what, who's doing what, where, and it's you. You are. You are so envious and jealous of people who were happy in their lives that you must go fuck it up and figure out how you're going to fuck it up for them. and take it away. And you enjoy it. You enjoy it. You are so empty that you enjoy physically taking, hate, hope, faith, enjoy, away from other human beings.

And you're so afraid of what you've done that you don't even think anybody needs any explanation. That's how big your fear is.

And then you turn around and you fluff yourselves up and, oh, whatever. She's just, or he's just It's because you're too weak to say the fucking words. You're gonna act like God, you should be able to stand up like God and tell everybody what you've done to us.

Why are you hiding? Why are you manipulating?

You don't deserve to serve any American person. You don't deserve to take care of any human being at all. Every single one of you. Because everybody knows what they did to me.

Everybody, every singlebody knows, every piece in part. You just, it's just some of y'all don't know the backstory before I came to you and they used you for that. They used you to commit more crimes to cover up what I was already working on. So now you're one of them. Now I can't listen to your music anymore. Now I can't look at your face anymore because you didn't even respect me enough to tell me what you did.

You don't respect me. You don't think I'm a human. I get it. Because you're not human. You lost it a long time ago..

So now I have to fight to stay alive like I just did today. And I don't know why I'm doing it. The deck is stacked so high up against me is pointless. But I'll be goddamn if I'm gonna let y'all win. I will be goddamn if I'm gonna let y'all win. You know who you are. You are damned creatures. You are so sick. You should take yourselves out. So that the rest of us can heal. Because you're not healing anybody.

You're pretending. You're accumulating numbers. You're using your numbers to cause create false bravado for some reason you think maybe you've gotten addicted to video games. I don't know what y''s mindset is. I do know that each one of y'all are victim perpetrators and that makes you more dangerous.

So I fight to live again. I stop myself. I am getting help or I'm trying to who knows? Y'all probably come and take that over again too.

But this is what y'all do. I know. Y'all do not deserve to take care of people. None of yall

Nobody's giving me informed consent of anything. I've got a whole lot of habaloon, a lot of shuffling around, chasing my tail, spending money I don't have so that you'all can call me poor and justify your reasoning behind calling other people names that don't have the amount of money you have because you stole all of it or your child pornographers.

You don't get your money honestly. That's why you accuse others of all these labels. You don't create your life honestly, and you're so full of envy and jealousy, or just plain old empty of humanity in general.

And you people are the reason other people have to seek medication to want to live because of the treatment of you. And you pretend as if God our father of 72 nations doesn't see. He is the creator of all the seen and unseen.

And whether you're down here in human land or not, believe in my words, I can guarantee you your skin is filled with all the Deeds you have performed in your lifetime.

That is a fact. You can always test the theory by checking into Heaven unless you're afraid. You seem to have no problem doing it to others because you think you're God that I live to fight another day and talk to an empty space and see if I can go eat something and I have no idea what I'm doing.

No idea. I have no idea why I'm living. I have no incentive, but I'm still here and I'm still fighting, and I guess it's just me for me.

That will just have to be good enough. There's going to be plenty of tears. I'm still going to cry. because y'all have fucked me up seven ways to Sunday and you know it. You know it.

I hope if anyone listens to me, that you gain something.

I Know with Knowing others have gained from my Words without permission, but this is the society and culture we have raised by those who teach One another Plagiarism is just another way to Profit. It’s indicative of how empty I may be and have never been taught to ask.

G-d Our Father is the Creator of All the Seen and Unseen; He was knocking on your Door with a Message just before you decided to go for it, anyway.

Of course if I’m so full of Disbelief, and surrounded by others like me, I wouldn’t Believe me, either.

Maybe in another forty years you will Believe.

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TRANSCRIPT:

I don't know why, but I feel compelled to leave this in a podcast as I begin my final Ascension with no water starting no water tomorrow, but I've never spoken these words. I've always typed them out.

So one day, way back in the back where the Bible started, Mary was raped by Three Wise Men. She was a young girl. She was a virgin, and three wise men raped her and caused her to become pregnant.

Joseph married Mary to protect her because it wasn't safe then; she was very vulnerable, obviously she was raped.

So Joseph married Mary to protect her and he went to the three wise men and he said, “You are going to pay for your crime. You have produced a child. Here is the child.”

And so the three wise men brought the alms, which is the penance, right? So think about what you've heard through the years, right? It didn't Everybody started denying it. This doesn't sound right, this doesn't sound right, this doesn't sound right.

And when I came back down from Heaven, God showed me that this was the real story. And it makes sense, doesn't it? Look around you at what's happening.

OK. So here's Jesus Christ. He's born. He's glad to be alive. He's going around loving everybody despite his mother's denial of him because she was a victim of rape, loving everybody, right? He was good. He was a good soul.

And then another day, God showed me Jesus Christ in the desert. And I think I did write about this because I wrote about it the day I quote unquote-saw it. And it was to do with Jesus walking across water.

And all of a sudden it occurred to me, these people were following him because he was talking, and he's so charismatic, right? And he loves everybody, and he has good stories to tell they're good for life. They're good advice for things to do, you know, love one another, what happens if I have an argument with somebody. So they're all following him.

And he was talking for so long, they wandered out of the city into the desert, and they had never been there before. They were told never to go there. But they wandered.

So what happens if I'm standing in the desert, right? If they stopped at the end of the path of the city and he kept walking, he was probably talking. and didn't realize.

And he turned around to them, and they're all in awe because what do they see? They see him standing in the desert. But what's around him? The mirage, right? So the mirage looks like water. And so they're all in awe like, “Jesus is walking across water. Oh, my gosh!” And they're all, you know, they can't get over themselves.

And he's trying to tell them, “No, No! I've wandered out here with no shoes on because I don't have enough sense to be cautious about danger. The sand is very, very hot. Can you come assist me?”

And they're all still stuck on. “He's walking on water. How are we going to get to him?”

So he's trying to plead with them. “No, really. It's just sand. It just looks like water. I see the same thing when I'm looking at you,” and they're all, “Oh, you to walking on water.”

And he's like, No, really, my feet are blistering.”

And then... Obviously, he went back and then they, the women washed his feet because he had blisters.

So that makes sense, right?

So then, as time went on and Jesus started, you know, he was he was a humble man. But because of his words, it created envy from others who seemed like they were missing something.

Like, why can't they talk like he does?

Why aren't they so connected to God like he is?

Why does he have such good sense?

So envy and jealousy started happening around him because people weren't filled with the Holy Spirit or the Spirit of creation, where we come from, right?

Here's this child born of rape, and he's talking about wise words that nobody else has ever spoken. He He makes sense to the masses. So, of course, it would, I mean, look at what's happening today, right?

Jealousy and envy everywhere. For what reason?

Because people are empty.

So what happens in “The More of U.S. than You”Club is everybody gets together because it doesn't sound good to stand as one person and denigrate somebody. They always, people who always use envy and jealousy to denigrate others, have to gathering groups to feel strong, Because otherwise you look like a fool standing over there by yourself, complaining about a good person. Right?

So he kept on. He kept on trying to do good deeds, but the words used against him and the betrayals against him. Look what happened at the Last Supper. His mother denied him. We, the People kept filling him up with negative words. We told him he was all these things, painting him with lies, because we didn't feel good.

Why can't we talk like Jesus?

You know, that's what we were doing. So we wandered around. I mean, we made him feel so awful that the only thing that he could think to do was take his Cross to Heaven, to God, right?

He was like, well, all of these people, there's more of them than me. I must be this person that they're saying I am. They're stoning me. They're calling me all these things. They betrayed me at the last Supper. My mother denied me. What is the point of my living? I must be a terrible person. So I probably should just die.

So he poisoned himself because that was the only thing available at the time. But they didn't want to write that in the Bible, because what does that mean?

It means that People were Sinners, but isn't that the whole reason for the Bible? Don't we need to see where we're going wrong? So We the People, caused Jesus Christ to feel unworthy of life, and he took his own life.

And when he woke up, his mother was praying next to him, because she realized that he was still her son. No matter the wounds, no matter the memories she had of her rape, he was still her son, and she denied him. And now he was gone.

So she spent those days in the tomb with him praying him back to life. She was his Mother, she gave birth to him. and God sent him back down here.

And I can relate to all of that, because the same things have happened to me. But the point of the story is we sent Jesus to commit suicide. Go back and read the chapters. Go back and read the pages.

It was meant to be a lesson of how bad humanity can get.

How bad our words can wound one another.

Anybody who's been abused at any time can know how Jesus Christ felt in that moment. So of course, this is my perception. And I've already been up to the kingdom of heaven. You'll just have to take my word for it.

Nobody does. Nobody believes me. That's why I'm treated the way I am. But I understand the story.

My mother thought I was a product of rape. She was in an unhappy marriage, a whole bunch of other things occurred. I have a history of abuse in my family. I'm you know. I try. I tried. I tried to be better than the conditions I was brought up in. I did my best for people. I always spoke well of people when they weren't in the room, because I know how it feels to be talked about. I know how it feels to be projected upon. I know how it feels to be a child and adults use me for pleasure and film it and sell it. I know how it feels to be raped, but regardless of all of that, I would never wish that upon anybody else, and that's something we as Americans need to work on.

We are sending people to very dark places based on our words and based on thinking money means intelligence. Money means emotional intelligence, which is very important. Money means critical thinking, and none of that is true.

If you don't have the foundation of money, you will never understand it. It's not to be used as a weapon, a tool to harm others, and that's what's happening.

So before Holy Father Francis died, he said, “Live like Jesus Christ.”

And to me that means, take your Cross, whatever it is that bothers you, that others will not let you be quiet about. Whatever it is you're hiding, I guess I should say. Whatever that is you're hiding, whatever it is you think you need to present before the throne of God, you carry it across, right? You see how that that you carry it a cross, the desert, the desert is the desolate place where death waits for us. It's a calm is a desert. It's like the place between two worlds. It's where we feel like we're suffering with something, don't we?

So take your cross, take whatever that is, whatever you're holding down, whatever's causing your suffering, and take it across the desert. doesn't mean take yourself out.

It just means deal with it. Whatever's causing your suffering, you have to name it. so that others don't bleed.

So that we don't turn around and create a mass of people like today. Again, causing others to feel like they don't deserve to live. But we have to. We have to speak of whatever it is we have done. We have to speak of our deeds.

Because they become the scroll that God our Father reads. God, as one of 72 nations, no matter what we name it down here, no matter what label is applied down here, it's the same. We're all going to the same place. He is the same God.

And when we Ascend to Heaven, we are escorted by a loved one to the footstool of our Father., and as soon as we are taken, our skin unfolds into a lotus and it becomes the scroll, and it is a scroll of all the deeds we have done and all the deeds that have been performed against us throughout our lifetime that has been written on our skin.

We can't escape it. It may seem unfathomable to you if you listen to this, but it's only because you've never visited the kingdom of heaven and I don't want you to. I don't want you to.

It's my job to go to the Kingdom of Heaven, not yours.

But if you are listening, I hope in the middle of in between all my rants and raging, and I'm going through grief and everything else, it's part of life. It's part of life transition. I hope.. I hope for the United States of America that you start to love each other again. that We can be the People that our Ancestors would be proud of because not any single one of them wished that we would go through the same hate that they did. God bless you Amen 🙏🏻