This was inspired by a line from a Björk song. The song is “it’s not up to you” and the line is “I can decide what I give, but it’s not up to me what I get given.”
I think it’s a profound insight into our powerlessness over what God or others will give us. I don’t mean that in a bad way, but rather showing that surrender and acceptance is the path to peace, and that our generosity ought to flow freely and from love and not as an attempt to manipulate.
Here’s the transcript:
Come, Holy Spirit.
As I think about today and the things that I may or may not receive from you or other people. and the ways that I want to be treated, that I may or may not happen. I ask your grace to let go of. Knowing in advance, whether they will or will not.
Help me to let go of. Specific things happening, specific ways. Help me to not try to control it or. Use force or manipulation to try to ensure a certain outcome. I want to release all that. and accept that it's not up to me what I get given.
I do ask that you would kindle in me generosity. and delight and the freedom that you have given me. that I do get to choose what I give.
I get to choose what I give to you. my prayers, my time, my attention, my worship. And I get to choose what I give to other people. Help me to see that as a precious gift from you, that freedom.
And I ask that you would fill me the spirit of generosity. so I might delight. in scattering my gifts. far and wide. Amen.