While I often talk about mothering on the podcast, it’s been a few seasons since I shared a personal reflection on being a mother. So this episode of Belonging is a solo episode where I open up about my journey with delayed postpartum depression.

In this episode, I talk about struggling with anxiety and rage, realizing that I was taking out my anger on my partner, being diagnosed with PPD, trying meds that helped and then didn’t help, microdosing psilocybin to support extended breastfeeding, and finding my way forward with as many questions as answers.

This episode was really vulnerable to record and share. My hope is that it helps mamas in a situation like this feel less alone. Whatever you need to do to feel better, I’m with you.

Resources:

• Episode #96: Friendship deserts, creativity floods, and ancestral mothering with Megan McGuire and Ariella Daly
• Episode #98: Being Alone in Nature with Nicole Antoinette
• Becca Piastrelli: The Baby Bomb on The Pop-Up Pod
• Lindsey Koelman of Marin Acupuncture
• Episode #77: Mothering the Mothers with Rachelle Garcia Seliga

Anoushka Florence is a teacher, an author, a circle-tender, and a mother. She is the Keeper of the Mama’s Village, the Mama of The Goddess Space, and the author of The Women’s Circle. Her work is based on ancient spiritual feminine practices that are grounded in the belief that the power to heal comes from within.

Together, we begin with the question what is circle? and spiral out to the importance of women’s circles, rituals, cleaning as clearing, ancestral lineages and more. We also discuss common questions about circle, such as— how do I find a circle near me? what if I’m an introvert? and what if I feel uncomfortable or unsafe in circle?

At its center, this conversation is about how circles can serve us all well. And it’s an invitation to hear if circle is calling you.

More from Anoushka:

• Buy Anoushka’s book, The Women’s Circle
• Anoushka’s website
• Anoushka’s on Instagram @thegoddessspace

Tracy Benjamin is a food photographer, stylist & blogger based in the San Francisco Bay Area. In this episode, we have a tender conversation about grief, and all the ways she’s experienced it since her mom’s sudden death in 2017.

Together we explore how loss can encompass our full range of emotions and impact every area of our life. Tracy shares what it feels like to be the only woman left in her family and the joys and struggles of becoming her family’s keeper — hosting their gatherings, their values, and their grief stories.

We also talk about parenting our children and our selves, normalizing death in our society, grieving our dreams, letting our creative work evolve, and keeping grief weird through it all.

Our conversation is hard, heartbreaking, and so, so honest. If you’ve lost a parent or someone close to you, what Tracy says will resonate deeply. And if you haven’t felt that specific grief, this episode is also a balm for the collective grief the past few years have brought us all.

Resources

• Join me for Passagecraft 🌙

More from Tracy:

• Tracy’s blog Shutterbean
• Tracy’s Instagram @shutterbean

Nicole Antoinette is a writer, podcast host, and community-builder who is super into long-distance hiking. In this conversation, she tells us the story of how long solo hikes have become her spiritual & devotional practice.

Together we explore the power of facing fear and discomfort, the lessons gained from embracing loneliness, and the self-trust that comes when there’s no one else to ask for answers.

Our conversation is an invitation for the hikers and non-hikers among us to consider how we can deepen our devotional connections with the land and ourselves. The lessons Nicole shares support us all in being honest with ourselves and facing scary things.

Resources:

• Becca Piastrelli: The Baby Bomb
• Thru-Hiking Will Break Your Heart by Carrot Quinn
• Geartrade
• The Comfort Crisis by Michael Easter

More from Nicole:

• Nicole’s book How To Be Alone: an 800-mile hike on the Arizona trail
• Nicole’s website
• Nicole’s Instagram
• Nicole’s gear list

Asha Frost is an Anishinaabe (Ojibway) Medicine Woman (member of the Chippewas of Nawash First Nation), Healer, and Spiritual Mentor. Last time she was on the podcast we discussed her viral article “Dear White Woman who wants to be like me,” and today she returns to share her new book You Are the Medicine with us.

Together we explore the medicine of publishing a book. We discuss why we felt called to write, how books can be like babies, and the ways releasing our books made us more resilient. We also talk about how both our books are invitations to move at a slower, earth-pace.

Our conversation is a call to recognize the postpartum grief that comes when you release a creative work. And it’s an opportunity to embrace the end of the extended winter we’ve been undergoing and to craft rites of passage for ourselves that acknowledge a new season.

Resources:

• Episode #26: Ancestral Constellations & Conscious Dreaming with Grandmother Sarah
• “A Love Letter to COVID Authors” by Kaitlin Curtice

More from Asha Frost:

• Asha’s book You Are the Medicine
• Asha’s website
• Asha’s Instagram
• Belonging Episode #57: Web of Connection with Asha Frost

Have you been craving a deep, expansive conversation about creativity, burnout, postpartum, paying for the village, and raising children in ancestral ways amidst climate crisis? I know I have been. So I invited my friends, fellow mothers, and past guests Ariella Daly and Megan McGuire to join me on the podcast again to commune “in the mammoth bone tent.”

Together we have an open and vulnerable conversation about creative surges and depletion postpartum, how motherhood has isolated us from our communities, our desires to know our neighbors and celebrate rituals with them, and our visions for our childrens’ futures —including the ways climate crisis impacts where our families can live and flourish.

Ariella is a beekeeper, seer and healer with a young daughter. And Megan is a permaculture gardener and ritual weaver with three children. I hope you’ll join us in conversation about mothering and enjoy this episode.


✨Enter our giveaway!✨

In honor of this very special podcast episode, Megan, Ariella and I are hosting a giveaway.

The winner will receive: a signed copy of Root & Ritual, access to Ariella’s Kindred Bees Lecture Series on Bees, Kinship, and Bee Tending & access to @forest.whisperer’s Mothering as Ceremony Live Class and Recording.

Find me on Instagram @beccapiastrelli to learn how to enter.


Resources:

• Tending the Flame
• Nature and the Human Soul by Bill Plotkins

More from Ariella Daly:

• Ariella’s website: Honey Bee Wild
• @beekeepinginskirts on Instagram
• Belonging Episode #47: The Kindred Call of the Honeybee with Ariella Daly

More from Megan McGuire:

• Megan’s website: Living Mythic Time
• @forest.whisperer on Instagram
• Belonging Episode #82: Mothering as Ancestral Reverence with Megan McGuire

Dacy Gillespie is a personal stylist who intuitively guides us to discover the clothes we feel best in — uncovering and releasing what society says we “should” wear in the process.

Together we explore the question “what do you want to wear?” and we talk about how pausing before purchasing can help us make more ethical decisions and find clothes we love. Dacy also shares why “flattering” is a fatphobic concept, how to approach your clothes when your body changes, and her advice for online shopping and creating a capsule wardrobe. 

Our conversation is an invitation to stop settling for clothes you don’t really like. It’s also a reminder that you have a right to feel good in what you wear. Enjoy.

Links & Resources—

• Belonging Episode #66: Radically Claiming your Needs with Mara Glatzel
• Dacy’s Forbes feature — How to Build a Mindful Close that Sparks Joy
• Atlantic article on returns & landfills — The Nasty Logistics of Returning Your Too-Small Pants
• Becca’s beautiful measuring tape & more options on Etsy

More from Dacy Gillespie—

• Mindful Closet.com
• @mindfulcloset on Instagram

Lisa Olivera is a writer, therapist, and creative who shares work centered around radical acceptance, cultivating compassion, and integrating our stories and full humanity. She is also a new mother, just five months postpartum at the time we recorded this episode.

Together we talk about the pressures and expectations of motherhood, the deep joy and grief of becoming a parent, and how having two tiny eyes on you all the time invites you to embody your values and step into your integrity. We also share our experiences of how becoming a mom made us change plans, say no, and honor our energetic capacities — even if it means disappointing people or ourselves in the process. 

Our conversation is an invitation to love your life, grieve your dreams, feel the depth of each moment,  and be fully human. Listen as we rewrite the story of motherhood together.

Resources 

• Belonging Episode #54: Finding Connection in Isolation with Lisa Olivera
• “Matrescence” is a term coined by Dr. Alexandra Sacks. Learn more in her TED talk.
• Episode #78: Non-Linear Reciprocity and Skills to Traverse Change with Jessie Harrold
• “From the time of birth to the time children are 3 years old, one MILLION neural connections are made in their brain each SECOND.” from Rachel Garcia Seliga @innatetraditions

More from Lisa Olivera: 

• Lisa’s book, Already Enough: A Path to Self-Acceptance
• Lisa’s substack

Belonging is back! After my winter hibernation, I find myself craving a little vernal worship. So this episode is all about ancestral rituals and practices for spring.

First, I share lessons I learned while wintering, including my stepping away from social media, making my life small, and my seasonal self-care wheel. Then we dive into the pleasure of seeds, greens, flowers, eggs, honey, and milk. I offer my favorite practices for planting, cooking, nourishing yourself, and connecting with ancestral rituals for spring.

Resources

• My winter self-care wheel
• Reel for making pesto
• Nettle soup recipe (with potatoes)
• Marysia Miernowska
• Sister Spinster
• Bloom Generation Flowers
• Belonging Episode #77: Mothering the Mothers with Rachelle Garcia Seliga
• Belonging Episode #69: Motherhood, Grief, and the Grandmother Hypothesis with Amber Magnolia Hill
• Medicine Stories Episode #67: Harvesting Light: The Alchemy of Sun & Human w/Nadine Artemis