Carole Baskins Diary

I turned my profile back on with Match.com

and am getting a lot of interesting responses.  I have been slow to answer and not able to get excited about the prospects because I love Peter Kent so much.  I want so much to believe in him.  I hate having lost the trust I had felt.  I am trying to not let Peter Kent see how he has hurt me and on the contrary have been trying to make him feel more loved and cared about in hopes that it will be enough for him.

 

1/16/02   Dear Peter Kent

 

Coming home, to my gorgeous lover, and finding him doing the dishes, was the sexiest thing I have ever seen.  That moment captured the romance of living with a partner who cares enough to do the mundane in an effort to make his woman's life just a little easier.  I was touched to my very soul and thought about it all day.  To come home and find you had gone further and washed all of the dishes, when I had not even been thoughtful enough to thank you earlier, left me near tears.  You are so good to me in so many ways.  You take such good care of me, physically, emotionally and spiritually.  I am truly blessed and love you deeply. - Love, Carole

 

From Peter A. Kent:

 

Carole, I relate exactly the same in all the things you do for me.  You may shed tears on my legs at any time, any place.  Our life is rather wonderful.  I am happy and we are just beginning.  We shall be together til death. - Pk

 

 

You are a great lady.

You may or may not be correct in this matter, I can easily say that you are much more on the correct side.  After you left this morning I dreamed a rotten dream about my son; about my conception of his feelings for me.  Knowing what you have been through in your life gives me the justification to take this interpretation and use it as you have.   You are such a lovely person to me, for me.   You are 100% there for me and I need to clean up my life with things that have value only, things like you.  I felt myself yell out in my dream when you were gone this morning (8:15); I woke up and smiled because you must have tiptoed around here to let me sleep.   Since my last acupuncture treatment, I have been saying that I need another for liver Qi rising.   That will cause bad dreams.  I love your tenderness for me and your strength of goodness in general.   I hate to keep retreating to that same safe place, but I like to make you shake and lie in you afterwards.  You, again, have helped me this morning.  You were such a comfort to have with me last night.  I wonder what I would feel like now without having had you with me last night.  I must be going through some changes because, I don't remember going through such dreaming since I was a child. - pk

 

From: [email protected]  To: [email protected] Sent: Thursday, January 17, 2002 7:47 AM

Subject: Listen to your heart

 

The sub conscious is a direct line to God.  Yours spoke to you last night and neither of us heard it.  You were upset after a day of dealing with Bud and contemplating selling your soul for an easy way out.  You woke up thinking about Jeff and how he had sold his soul for an easy way out.  You knew when you got involved with Jeff that he was not someone you could trust, but you did it anyway because you needed the money and the price of 2400.00 for just 6 days of work looked like a quick fix to your financial problems.  Jeff used you to get what he wanted.  You had hoped to use Jeff to get what you wanted, just like you hope to use Bud to get what you want.  Your sub conscious was linking the two situations, because they are very similar and, I believe, as a warning to you that you have already done this sort of thing and it didn't work out.  The definition of insanity is to keep doing the same thing hoping for a different outcome.

 

Take some time as you are working to define your vision.  Mine is to lead by example.  I run everything I do through that filter and if the choice I am contemplating does not align with my core value of leading by example, then I

I discover Peter Kent is a liar and a cheat.

I was disappointed to discover that Peter Kent is still actively searching for that, bigger better deal.  We had driven to Ormand Beach Friday night and spent Saturday looking at houses he built in Holly Hill, Ormand Beach and we met Jim (Uncle Jimmy) and  Naboku Walls and had lunch with them at the inlet.  I was feeling so in love with him and awestruck by the quality of the work in the houses he built and how people remembered and liked him.

 

We got home late on Saturday and both of us went to check our email.  Thinking lovingly of him, I looked up in the mirror that faces my desk to see his reflection, just to savor the moment, and noticed on his screen was [email protected] or Match.com as we know it.  It has a bold, ugly, unmistakable look to it, that was far too familiar for me to ignore.

 

He was reading a woman’s profile and I surmised that she had contacted him and he was just curious.  Earlier in the day, I had asked how upset he would be if I asked him to sign a prenuptial agreement and he said he would hate it, that he hated the very thought of it and didn’t want to even think about it.  He went on further to say, he would do what ever I asked, so I dropped it.  I have to protect the cats and my family, not so much from him as from anyone who could lay claim through him, but to say that only insults his family and his ability to stay out of trouble, so I kept the words to myself.

 

I lay in bed, from 2:00 am on, unable to sleep, wondering why Peter Kent, who claims to be so happy, would still be showing his profile.  It only took one click to hide mine from the world, which I had done on November 20.  I decided not to make myself sick over it and just read the letter he responded to her with.  There was none, but he kept her address as new, as if to revisit it later.  In looking for this, I found other similar letters from women to Peter Kent and his responses.

 

What I read, kept me up the rest of the night, thinking I should take him to some very exotic, foreign country and abandon him there.  By the time he could get back I would have his stuff packed into his storage shed and my locks and numbers changed.  The day after his birthday, when I was so good to him and gave him 1000.00 and more, he had responded to a woman’s inquiry with photos of himself and said that he had to be careful in responding to people because of the sensitive nature of his life.

 

I would like to think that he just needs a lot of reassurance that he is still handsome and desirable, but I am sick.  My stomach feels hollow and my heart aches.  I hate this feeling.  Even worse, is the fact that I no longer trust him.  I had enjoyed feeling love and trust in our relationship and that can’t be resurrected after such carelessness for my feelings.  I am deeply saddened.

 

I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/

 

I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. 

 

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Peter Kent Letter to Carole

I am having a real tough time with my memory for the past two days; today was a terrible day for me.   I was very unproductive, and very forgetful.  While I got the work done it could have been finished by now, and, I kept forgetting things all day.   I felt 'low' all day.  I am embittered by this Jew in Sarasota that refuses to pay me thus far, and, some times I am not real proud of myself for being a handyman.  Today I could not get 'off' that position.  I think I had about two good hours, after, 4:00 the rest of the day was spent thinking how tired I was and that I will not be able to do this kind of stuff too much longer.  I need to feel good about who I am again.   While YOU make me extremely happy, YOU are all I want in a mate and that is more than 50% of my requirements to be complete; there is still the fact that I need to be content with myself, to be proud of where I am in life.   Surely I could put this in better words, at the moment I cannot.  Love, PK

 

The apartment is going to look great.  I am changing the color of the verticals in front and the grill work, it will make a big difference.   I like doing that kind of stuff, however, it is petty compared to the knowledge I have and intensity to do bigger things; things that have rewards other than monetary.  While I agreed with your stance a few days ago regarding direction, it left out the leading of my spirit.   Truly you are the first female in my life that I have ever listened to; you were right, however, I need the fulfillment of a bigger picture, a contribution to mankind sort of.   Today I am hurting; not physically, just hurting in my being, wanting to be more.  I am frustrated without having any power at all.  I am talking to you and thinking about all this at the same time.  I do not know what else to say right now.  Please know that I love you, what I suffer from today is not fatal.  Love, PK

 

I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/

 

I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. 

 

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Hillsborough County Architects, Engineers and Contractors

Dear Peter Kent,

 

Harry Heuman (813-307-4503) called me back and said that he is not only the President of the Hillsborough Association of Retarded Citizens, but that he is also on the Board of the Holocaust Museum in St. Pete and President elect of the Tampa Rotary Club.  He said keeping busy keeps him out of trouble.  I have known him for at least ten years and never knew any of that.  He said the expert on my question was Scott Pailthorpe (813-757-3808) who is the manager of the Plant City branch of the Hillsborough County Planning and Growth Department and Harry made the introduction for me via three way calling.

 

Scott was very knowledgeable, if not arrogant, and said that due to a glitch in the law architects and engineers are not required to be certified or even knowledgeable of the Building Code and that they just keep submitting plans until they pass the Building Department’s standard.  He said that licensed contractors, on the other hand, must also be certified in SSTD 1099 by the Southern Building Code Congress International, which is located in Birmingham, AL and by the American Wood Products Association, who he had no idea where to find, but suggested the Internet.  The Certification is obtained by attending their classes on high wind construction and wood construction in high wind conditions.  That certification then has to be brought in to the Contractor’s Licensing Board and it will be noted in your file that you are certified to draw up house plans.  He said your plans would then have to comply with the high wind manual and the rest of the Building Code before your plans would be approved by the Building Department.  He said that because it is such a royal pain and outside the scope of what most contractors get paid to do, no one is doing it.  He couldn’t think of anyone who had ever tried.

 

While this would make you the only person doing such a thing, I am not sure that jumping through so many hurdles is really taking you in the direction you want to go.  I am not sure what that direction is, and until you know, I think this could be a lot of expense and “busy work” that really isn’t productive.  It could be beneficial for the specialized sort of building you ultimately want to do, but first you need to get your certification with the German finalized, and you need your contractor’s license, which may be much more difficult to obtain than you suspect.  Things have changed a lot in Florida since Hurricane Andrew.  My brother had his contractor’s license in N.C. but never got one here and there is probably a good reason for it.  The drawing program and the classes will only get better with time and it makes more sense to be ready for both when you do devote the time and money.

 

I asked what would be involved in converting the barn to a house and Scott said that if the barn was permitted and I would have to take the parcel ID# to Sarah Jimenez (813-635-7300) on the 19th floor of the County Building downtown to find out, then I could ask for a building permit for Occupancy Change.  If it was not permitted before, then I would have to start from scratch as a new building permit and could not call it a remodel job because it would be changing from a barn to a house and while barns are exempt from certain standards, houses are not.  One of the things that I will also have to check at the 19th floor is the flood zone.  Barns can be built at grade, but the floor of the house has to be above the 100 year flood plain and most places around here are not.  He said if I start from scratch I have to have an engineer sign off on every existing part of the structure saying that it meets the code and that even if my contractor had the certifications for SSTD 1099, he could not sign off on the existing structure.  I said that didn’t make sense, but he said that is the way it is.  I forgot to ask if they would accept an out of state engineer.  It doesn’t s

Nicest Christmas I ever had, and had, and had. You are a dream come true. What I life I have in front of me. I feel a tremendous energy starting with the New Year, this year. I love you. Peter Kent Sex in the truck Over the weekend I had made a comment to Peter Kent that we had not had sex in my truck yet and tonight he asked me to help him find something under the carport. He opened the door of the cab, cleared the seat and told me to jump in. ...He is such a delight. "A Beautiful Mind" reminded me what a beautiful life I have. There was one place in the movie wherein she looked at his face with an undying love on her face, she looked just like you at that moment. I was so pleased that she could act that well. It was an extraordinary experience, just like you are to me each day I wake up with you. Happy New Year, Carole. Could we do something intimate tonight, please? It may well be raining this evening when you get off work. - I love you, Peter Kent I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views. If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story. The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/ I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story. My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. You can help feed the cats at no cost to you using Amazon Smile! Visit BigCatRescue.org/Amazon-smile You can see photos, videos and more, updated daily at BigCatRescue.org Check out our main channel at YouTube.com/BigCatRescue Music (if any) from Epidemic Sound (http://www.epidemicsound.com) This video is for entertainment purposes only and is my opinion.

Dear Peter Kent

 

I don't have a doctor.  I never get sick.  The only one I know is a friend of Alan Schreier's and I don't want him anywhere near your dick.  I get ads for Viagra online, without a prescription all the time, but have never checked it out.  It could well just be a come on.  Have you checked?

 

My biggest concern is for your health.  You know how I feel about things that are un natural, even if they are naturally occurring in the body, I am wary of anything that is manipulative of a perfectly designed system.  My understanding of the body's functions and limitations pales in comparison to yours, so in this matter I would be foolish to impose my beliefs on you.  What I do want you to take into consideration is that I love the man you are inside.  If I could never feel the sensation of your penis inside my vagina, I wouldn't love you any less and I wouldn't seek satisfaction outside our bed, because I love you, the man, the spirit, the sensitive soul.

 

Our sex life has been most rewarding and you have done more for me in the past month than has been done in all my life before you.  I want to grow old with you. Because of the natural way of man, and the fact that you are older than me, that puts a heavier burden on you to take care of yourself, if you are to give me what I want most.

 

While we are on the subject of gifts, I understand that giving is more important to the giver, than receiving is to the receiver.  I apologize that I have been insensitive to that need in you.  Just like we spoke of in being able to show love in a way that a person understands, I have that problem with gifts.  I tend to give cash and say that I am unimaginative, but the truth is that I give what I like to receive.  Not cash, but what it represents.  When I give cash it is so that the person receiving can make something happen for themselves that I do not have the time or skill to do.

 

The gifts I like to receive are not things that can be unwrapped and then left to clutter my life, they are the gifts of things that I cannot do for myself.  I really hate the whole idea of gift giving being tied to a date, such as a holiday or birthday.  I was this way as a small child.  I dreaded Christmas because my parents would buy all this stuff, that we couldn't afford, and what I really wanted was a childhood.

 

I am crying, so I must have hit that nail on the head.

 

The greatest gifts you give me are moments like this of self discovery, the gift of no pain, the gift of improved health and form, the gift of a happy home, the gift of a loving partner, the gift of tenderness and compassion, the gift of renewed strength to face another day.  I am getting your keyboard all wet with the tears of joy that you cause, so maybe writing was a better idea after all.  You might not be able to understand what a wonderful impact you have on my life through all of the sobbing.

 

AOL tried to shut me off and I have been searching for the letter that I wrote and just got back on track.  I left some cash on your desk and I will pick up more tomorrow.  I am always cash poor, so advance notice helps.

 

I don't know how you feel on the subject of gifts and would like to know.  I tend to assume that others share my opinions, despite amazing evidence to the contrary.  When I give you something, I want it to be what you desire, just like the way you give so intuitively to me.  You always seem to anticipate what I need before I can ever find the words to tell you.  The removal of the equipment under the carport was just a small example.  I love you, - Carole

 

I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/

 

I know ther

From Peter A. Kent:

I am putting the Med-x machine together at present, and, a few things are on my mind:

 

1. You wish it were not in your living room

2. I feel my first patient should be your extravagant former volunteer.   I feel this is important, BEFORE she makes up her mind to go in a different direction, one that is not reversible.  Perhaps I could work out something with her, not to charge her the rest of her life, if she would pay the rental on a space that would be productive to me.  This would benefit us both greatly, but, perhaps it would be an unfair proposal.

3. The third thing on my mind is YOU.  I cannot believe how perfect we are sexually, and, I cannot wait to get together again.  ( I must admit , having the TV on the Playboy channel helps to lead me in that direction, although I need little help).

 

YOU are the most perfect sexual animal I have ever met.  Your needs are precisely what I need.   I love all of you, you are such a remarkable person.   Just thinking of where you are, volunteering, after dealing with the fucken Indian last evening, over 150+K, is such a hoot.  Carole, we better not, ever, change.   Do you know that what you do on my penis is perfect.  You get me so excited I cannot wait to get it inside you, then, afterwards, in about 2 hours, I think about doing it again for the rest of the day or night.   Boy I love your skin next to me.  - pk

 

Dear Peter Kent

 

I wouldn’t' describe Stephanie as extravagant.  Quite on the contrary, she is very reserved and you would never guess she had money.  I don't know what her financial status is, but I will approach her about the Med X and feel her out.

 

My mother asked if she should approach our family Chiropractor about letting you set up there.  They are a husband and wife team and he is very much into alternative ideas and wrote a book that I will try to get a copy of about water.  They vacation a lot and it is just the two of them in the building.  She is the daughter of the man who saved my life (from paralysis), but who is now dead (Dr. Kellogg).  If you want to drive by and take a look, the address is 700 W. Waters Av.

 

You touched my heart in a way that you could not have planned this morning and I have pondered it all day.  I am often compelled to reach out and touch you, because I cannot keep from doing so.  This morning, after we made love, after you knew that there was nothing further in it for you, because I had to get up, you started to leave the room and returned, ever so briefly to stroke my back.  I knew at that moment, that you had felt the same desire for me, that I so often feel for you, and it felt good.  Thanks for making my life so wonderful.  I am catching up mail and will be home soon.

 

I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/

 

I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. 

 

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Dear Peter Kent,  Something you said yesterday troubled me, but I was in a rush most of the day and didn't take time to think it through until the drive to church this morning.  You said that your past concerns were of little consequence compared to my trials and I believe that your reason for saying that was your way of telling me that you acknowledged the nightmare I have lived through and were telling me that you are sympathetic to my pain.  I appreciate that.

 

I don't want you to feel like what you have been through was any less traumatic. When you lose something you love, whether it be a person or a way of life, it changes you, the way fire changes gold.  It makes no difference what the temperature of the fire if we are melted in the process.  You and I have both been purified by the experience and are made capable of blending into a more perfect creation.  There is so much beauty in this life we are creating and I am so happy to be a part of you.

 

I was also thinking about how we express our love for each other in our love-making.  I was thinking about how your mother expressed her love for her family by cleaning and how Don understood love if it came in the form of someone cooking for him and how we give what we want to get.  We are so fortunate that both of us seek intimacy as the feed back that says we are loved.  I never really thought about this before.  It seems pretty important.  If I gave you gifts to show my love, but you only understood that love was being shown if I were cleaning house for you, we would both feel that we were not getting the love we were worthy of, when in fact, the person may love us greatly and just not know how to effectively show us.  If the stars have set our paths, there are lots of things we may not agree on, but I think our agreement on this issue of what demonstrates our love is crucial.  As long as we know we are loved, safe and secure, how difficult could anything else be?  - Love, Carole

 

From Peter A. Kent:

 

Carole, that was so beautifully said.   All of it.  I agree 200%.  We have been molded for each other, I thank God for that.  More importantly, your understanding and appreciation are as much a gift as is the flesh and tangibles we share so often.   Everything I do these days I do with joy because of us.  A big part of US is you.  As I repeatedly say, it takes a receiver tuned to the correct frequency to receive the energy put out by the transmitter.  You miss nothing; you are beyond my biggest prayers for a partner: what you are, what you do, how you relate to others, how you express yourself, how you receive me.   My request is that I have two breaks with you, each about 30 minutes long before the sun goes down so that we can be one up on Cruise and contain it in this ongoing day which ends at sunset.   You have all my love, however, I love to express and receive it in that manner.  - Peter Kent

 

I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/

 

I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. 

 

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I love my life.  My life is so extraordinary now, thanks to you.  I wonder if you know what a woman you are.  I sooooo love what we do together we meet for our twice a day union.  It is special beyond words.   Feelings expressed and deeply felt emotion is so beautiful; I think you are so beautiful.  Your face is hard to forget at those moments.  I will be thinking about you all day.  I love you.  - Peter Kent

 

Dear Peter Kent

 

Thank you for taking the time to make my morning. I do love this union we share and can't wait to be back at your side.  Thank you for sharing in such an intimate experience last night.  Despite my outwardly, cavalier attitude, I am very uncomfortable with my body and want so much to truly be perfect, in your eyes.  I know I am on that path, and that helps, but the way you express such acceptance of me, in my current overweight state, is more comforting than you know.  I have always been beautiful and often breathtakingly so.  Men loved me because of what I looked like and not for what was important to me.  My self-destructive behaviour resulted as much from this need to be loved for who I was as it was stress and not taking care of myself.

 

You came into my life 5 months after I had decided that I didn't need a man in my life and that I would be beautiful to please only myself.  I didn't like what I saw in the mirror.  I felt stronger, from all of the trials of the past 5 years.  I wanted to be the best that I could be, for my own gratification.  If my appearance attracted the wrong kind of lover, it didn't matter much because I didn't really think any man could capture my heart, so I was at no risk of it being broken.  Then you came along...

 

I was in awe of you, the moment I set eyes on you.  I thought you were the sexiest, most stunning creature I had ever seen.  I could have stood in the gate way and looked at you forever, just to memorize every feature of your face, your build and your hair. I did the same thing to you, that I hated having done to me.  I prejudged who you were, by what you looked like.  I assumed that you could not be loyal and that you could not love me, because you were so handsome.  I assumed your character could not possibly be as strong as your sex appeal and I had nothing to base that on, but an image of you.

 

I have loved getting to know you, because the more I learn about you, the more in awe of you, as a whole person, I am.  Your outward appearance, appealing as it is, does not even begin to compare with the beauty of your spirit.  I have been so deeply touched by your giving and loving nature.  As much as I long to be beautiful in your sight, I realize that if I had already attained that goal before meeting you, I probably would not trust your motives.  I believe you, when you say I am beautiful, because I know that you can see me on a deeper level.  I am so happy and optimistic that our lives will only continue to be made better by the way we express our love and affection for each other.  - Love, Carole

 

From Peter A. Kent:

 

Have I ever told you what wonderful notes you write?  You touch me there as well.  I understand the depth of what you express there, and, while I believe that is true, I also wonder what you would look like on top of me while I watch you in passion; you are so perfect looking now.

 

Honestly, I am first attracted to who you are; I go over this in my mind on a moment by moment basis.  I am in admiration and respect for who you are after what has, thus far, shown up in your life in the mate department.   Regarding the timing of 'us', I go back to one of my favorite words, serendipity.  It involves the word fortune, providence, fortuity, luck.    If I were to have a vessel that we both loved, a boat or a plane, I believe I would have to call it serendipity, no matter how many others were there with the same name.

 

I love the exhaustion we get to twice daily.   While it is probably not good for our physical health, it is so nourishin

Astrology Carole

6 Jun 1961 AD Tue  19 22 00   6 00 W  29 25 N  98 30 W

The Birthchart Introduction

 

On the following pages you will find an in-depth look at your own individual character and life. At birth the chart represents a set of potentials, with the contents being added through the experiences of life. As this birth chart represents a map of the solar system for the time and place of your birth...it's a blueprint of your personality - unique to you and only you.

 

Most people are aware of the Sun sign that they were born under, that is, the sign read in a magazine or newspaper relevant to a birthday. However, it's not only the Sun sign that exerts a powerful influence over a birth chart and character. The Moon, the planets, their aspects, zodiac and house positions also play an important role.

 

But one of the strongest influences of all will be that exerted by the rising sign, also known as the Ascendant. The ascending sign shows the way in which you approach life and helps to shape your self image, general outlook, childhood and to some degree... your health. It also suggests the way in which you are seen by others, or at least their first impressions of you.

 

As you read through this analysis, you will occasionally notice that contradictory information may be given. This is to be expected, as each individual's character is extremely complex. For example, at times we can be aggressive and confident, and at other times withdrawn and moody. And if planetary patterns seem to be repeated time and time again, that's because the analysis is focusing on a particular and very important strength or weakness within your character.

 

Personal Interpretation

 

Ascendant

The ascendant is the beginning of the first house and represents the area of life concerned with our sense of self-identity.

 

• Sagittarius Ascendant

 

Possessing the courage of your convictions, other people's opinions won't matter. Believing in yourself, you tend to attract good fortune and unusual opportunities. Ambitions are geared to large scale goals but beware the tendency to take things for granted and assume that everything will go your way.

 

• Ascendant Opposition Sun

 

The Sun opposite your ascendant, shows that you have a need to seek approval from others in order to feel good about yourself. The Sun is our self, what we essentially are, with the Sun on the 7th house cusp you need constant feedback from the world in order to feel that you are alright in the eyes of others, and so maintain your self confidence and sense of self worth. You may tend to look up to and admire people who are really no better than yourself, you find it difficult to admire and respect yourself, so you project this on to other people. As a result of this, you may attract people with strong egos who attempt to dominate or control you. You need to be yourself and do your own thing, whatever other people may think you have to live your life for yourself as well as for them.

 

• Ascendant Trine Mars

 

The trine between Mars and your Ascendant indicates that you have a great deal of physical energy and drive. You can assert yourself aggressively when the need arises, challenges and competition stimulate you and rouse you into action. While this aspect gives you the stamina and energy to achieve your goals, it does not, of itself, provide the motivation or incentive to do so. As a result, a lot of energy can be wasted in useless activity if you cannot find some purpose or direction in your life. You have strong opinions which you are not afraid to express, but there is a tendency to take over and dominate in conversation.

 

The Sun

The Sun is your essential self, the centre of your being. It indicates what you are striving to become as an individual.

 

*Sun In Gemini

 

With the Sun in the air sign of Gemini, you're usually on the go, and have a natural ability to do two or more things at once. You're forever being accused of being two-faced and having a split persona