Hey, it's that time again. Taking a solid look at that life I've been creating via anxiety and workaholic tendencies.... and ABA-challenging myself to experiment with redirecting this messy MO towards more functional behaviors. 

Don't worry, this "hiatus" won't affect you - I'm too far ahead in my work for it to influence consistent podcast releases. ("lol")

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We all have our shit, right? Apparently, one of my noxious nuggets is a fast trigger response to the opposite gender. I'm not saying it's alright or I'm on the correct side of the issue. Just describing what I've seen so far in the context of this trauma recovery project and exclaiming my battle cry - STOP TRYING TO WHITE KNIGHT ME.

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Ever get that voice in your head whispering sour nothings about your shortcomings and the false perceptions of others? Hey, me too. Annnd that's especially true when I try to meld this CPTSD support project with my actual schooling in ABA. 

This week, I'm talking Applied Behavior Analysis... and we're kicking off "Season Three" with a quick look at the ways I still feel like a clueless, exhausted imposter.  You know the struggle.

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Ever feel like you're just TOO observative and sensitive? Like your surroundings have an irrationally large effect on your concentration, mood, and emotions? Like you're strangely stimulated from the inside more often than not? Good news, it's not just you - it's Trauma. 

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Well... I did a dumb thing and now I must pay the troll in mental health. If you're looking for a research-based podcast, go choose a different episode; today I have to work through some personal challenges in my choices with past partners and distrusting myself to select future ones. Codependency, insecure attachment, and projection are my best friends - so how do I ever date again? 

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Today, we're talking about a new personality trait that I learned from the TMFR Discord community! Are you continually overloaded? Overwhelmed? Overstimulated? You might be an HSP - a High Sensitive Person. Find out if you're part of the 15-20% of the population affected by HSP and how this genetic predisposition to stimuli-flooding contributes to our Distress Intolerance and Emotional Responses.

Where to begin this conversation? Depression is as inseparable from my life experience as breathing. So, today, I'm looking at the crossover between Complex Trauma and Depression. What are the hallmarks of C-PTSD that lend themselves to clinical depressive spells - and vice versa? How do the two progress and pervade each other? And... is there a way to escape? 

My first-ever Motherfucking interview! Today, I'm talking with Marie D'Elephant, host of the Everyone's Autonomous Podcast and personal Autonomy coach. This human RULES. Marie discusses her past religious trauma, deconversion, and learning how to accept herself for the first time. We also cover the idea of death-positivity, the autonomous effect of working for yourself, and combating relationship codependency! 

For more from Marie, check out the Everyone's Autonomous Podcast, and Google her to learn more about her coaching, photography, and personal history! Find our Skype call on YouTube to see my creepy fawning eyes - Just search for Traumatized Motherfuckers. 

I'm not a scientist anymore, but some things haven't faded. Today, I'm laying out my hypothesis that there are three major areas of life that need to be positively changed and maintained for lasting Trauma brain recovery to happen. The massive, overarching elements that require exhaustive attention and brave behavior changes. What are those areas? How do they impact our mental health? What happens when one or two of the components are in place - good enough, right? (Nah.) 

How are your emotions? Black and white, like everything else? 0 or 100? Big surprise, your trauma brain is just trying to keep you safe. 

Today, I'm discussing some research on Emotional Dissociation as well as my own experience with the learned defense mechanism. The emotional "switch" that flips when things are overwhelming... and how it takes on a life of its own.