Where were you in 2013? Among other things, I was at a house show where I ran into a travelling DIY musician, Brett Newski. Today, I'm reconnecting with the anxiety-inspired songwriter as we talk about bullying, COVID coping, and mental illness catharsis. Hey, even folks with social anxiety can learn to connect with strangers around the globe. Forgive the technical difficulties on this one - you know I'm running on cheapo-quipment. 

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Ever feel like you're about 3 humans rolled into one? Maybe anxiety and depression are to blame, more than your fears of multiple personality disorder is on-point. Today, I'm talking about the vastly different influences of the high and low energy states in my life... and the life-abandoning stagnation that happens when those fuckers collide. 

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Back to the science! Ever feel like an amnesiac disaster when you can't seem to remember a single thing... or, at least, not a single thing that you want to remember? Wonder why your brain seems to have an extra long "buffering" time with new information? Guess what, there's research on that. Today, we're talking about memory processing, retrieval, and unwanted recollections. 

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We're all going to deal with it - the death of our parents. What's it like when the lost parent was the source of your early life trauma? A confusing conglomerate of sadness, anger, enlightenment, and regret? Oh yeah, that's the start of it. Let's throw in some black sheep family dynamics, inner critic rumblings, and fear of your similarly traumatized future. Today, we're talking generational trauma and complicated remorse.

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Buckle up... it's an emotional one. Finally following through on a therapy homework assignment I neglected for 2 years; writing a letter to my motherfucking dad. If you're not ready for tears (mine), keep moving. 

Consider this my first unsent letter. 

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Having emotions, processing them, and letting them go has been a relatively new set of skills in my life. Allowing myself to feel has been nothing short of critical to my CPTSD recovery journey. Even though it seems like the worst thing you can possibly do, you must learn to deal with how you feel to live a functional, organized life with a functional, organized brain. Here are my 100% non-professional tips. 

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The TMFR Discord community is full of smart, recovery-minded Fuckers. One of the sunniest personalities is HotMessGuru, a single mom with a new leash on life since starting her CPTSD recover ~2 years ago. Listen to her early struggles, narcissistic partner drama, and how she turned the whole thing around. 

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More bad news for all the dissociators out there. Turns out that our ability to pay attention and think about feelings is a whole other game from just letting ourselves have them. 

Where does cognition interact with emotion? How do both influence our behaviors? Why aren't we equipped to deal with any of this emotional processing or - hell - acknowledgement? The answers lie in our socialization.

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Did you know that I used to be 1) terrified of driving 2) terrified of humans and 3) terrified of leaving the house? Yep, for a few years this MF was fully-agoraphobic. 

Today, I'm revisiting an old post from 2019 where I talked about how much my life has changed in 1.5 years of Trauma Recovery I had at that point - mainly, as it related to driving avoidance, controlling relationships, self-isolation, and anxiety-management. How'd the life-halting fears start? What made them worse? How'd I get over my stagnating anxieties? Lez revisit an old account.

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