July 4th is America's Independence Day!  Break out the swimsuits, fire up the grills, and make sure the cooler is bull of booze!  For me, the fourth was just another excuse to drink, and a good one.  Let's be honest, every holiday, weekend or event became another excuse for me.  What kind of example was that for my kids?  Our children learn by watching, so what was I teaching?  Now, it doesn't mean that I didn't love them.  Anyone who knows me, knows that I would die for my kids.  But wouldn't it be better if I lived for them?