Today we are talking about the the truth about reality television and how devastating it can be to the lives of those featured. There have been incredible numbers of reality TV stars who have died by suicide and I was almost a part of that statistic. If you didn't know, I was on a 2 part BBC show where I lived in a house for 9 days with people who either hated fatness or were fat positive and some inbetween. This is a deeply vulnerable episode where I am revealing exactly what happened and the resulting shame and grief I experienced culminating in active suicide ideation. A massive trigger warning as I will be playing clips of me talking about my ideation from the time after the show aired. If you are struggling like I was, please reach out for help. You are loveable and not alone.

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/180

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Suicide in reality TV: https://www.theguardian.com/tv-and-radio/2020/may/27/why-suicide-is-still-the-shadow-that-hangs-over-reality-tv-hana-kimura-terrace-house

Suicide ideation levels: https://www.instagram.com/p/CxBubUPOXd9/

How shame works: https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/the-scientific-underpinnings-and-impacts-of-shame/

https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/blog/emotional-intelligence/202102/what-is-shame-and-how-does-it-show-in-your-life-and-work

Reality TV union: https://time.com/6314118/reality-tv-unions-protection/

http://www.fiercefatty.com/179 How the heck do you feel more confident in your body anyway? In this episode, I go through step by step the actions to take. Get ready to make some notes, or not, I ain't the boss of you. Plus, the story of someone making me cry in Starbucks last week after shaming my beverage choice, fun! Also, there's an update on the Wegovy saga at the beginning so skip to 21.38 mins if you don't want to hear that.

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/179

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News from the Wegovy saga: https://www.instagram.com/p/CyO3dPru4CI/?img_index=1

Link to my IG channel: https://ig.me/j/AbaT5mRE9LD96thB/https://fiercefatty.com/179

Listener questions! Questions include: My mum blames her poor health on her weight and won't listen when I tell her about anti-fat bias, what should I do? Help, I have just been diagnosed with diabetes! Is it actually unhealthy to be fat?

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/178

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https://www.canada.ca/en/services/immigration-citizenship/helpcentre/glossary.html#excessive_demand

165: "Weight Loss" Surgery Stats and Stories (part 3): https://fiercefatty.com/165 126: Stories from Weight Loss Surgery Survivors Part 2: https://fiercefatty.com/126 122: Stories From Weight Loss Surgery Patients 8 Years Post Op: https://fiercefatty.com/122 90: Will "Weight Loss" Surgery Make You Thin, Healthy and Live Longer?: https://fiercefatty.com/090

Weight loss surgery facts: https://www.instagram.com/p/CrfAJxwSVLj/?img_index=1 Stories from bariatric surgery survivors: https://www.instagram.com/p/CcoU5cqPv7e/?img_index=1

Association of All-Cause Mortality With Overweight and Obesity Using Standard Body Mass Index Categories: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4855514/

The obesity 'crisis' is a myth By Harriet Brown https://nypost.com/2015/03/22/why-dieting-doesnt-work/

Diet-free Talk for Diabetes/Insulin Issues:https://www.facebook.com/groups/221981691163510/

Fat Positive Intuitive Eating Diabetes Community: https://www.facebook.com/groups/fatpositivediabetes/

I attend a free virtual weight inclusive diabetes support group here: https://www.laurennewmanrd.com/groups

25+ Weight Neutral and Health at Every Size Resources for Managing Diabetes https://bodyliberationphotos.com/2019/08/30/masterpost-haes-based-resources-for-intuitive-eating-diabetes-and-living-with-chronic-illness/

HAES Healthsheets: https://haeshealthsheets.com/type-2-diabetes/

Don't weigh me cards: https://more-love.org/resources/free-dont-weigh-me-cards/

https://www.instagram.com/fatpositivefertility/ for community and she probably has resources. Do you have a fat Facebook group in your area or a facebook group on Obgyn's? As I am in Canada this is where I find my people.

List of Anti-Diet, HAES, and Intuitive Eating Providers via Christy Harrison https://christyharrison.com/haes-anti-diet-intuitive-eating-providers-eating-disorder-recovery

Fat Friendly Health Professionals List http://www.fatfriendlydocs.com/

Fat Friendly Healthcare Providers

https://www.self.com/story/find-fat-friendly-doctor

https://www.instagram.com/p/CtLARDESZtE/?img_index=1

Listener questions part 2! Questions include: Help! I want to lose weight, but not for aesthetic reasons anymore but because the world is inaccessible. How do I cope? How to find a doctor who is fat positive? Is it true that biology dictates that fat people are less attractive to others?

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/177

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https://www.canada.ca/en/services/immigration-citizenship/helpcentre/glossary.html#excessive_demand

165: "Weight Loss" Surgery Stats and Stories (part 3): https://fiercefatty.com/165 126: Stories from Weight Loss Surgery Survivors Part 2: https://fiercefatty.com/126 122: Stories From Weight Loss Surgery Patients 8 Years Post Op: https://fiercefatty.com/122 90: Will "Weight Loss" Surgery Make You Thin, Healthy and Live Longer?: https://fiercefatty.com/090

Weight loss surgery facts: https://www.instagram.com/p/CrfAJxwSVLj/?img_index=1 Stories from bariatric surgery survivors: https://www.instagram.com/p/CcoU5cqPv7e/?img_index=1

Association of All-Cause Mortality With Overweight and Obesity Using Standard Body Mass Index Categories: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4855514/

The obesity 'crisis' is a myth By Harriet Brown https://nypost.com/2015/03/22/why-dieting-doesnt-work/

Diet-free Talk for Diabetes/Insulin Issues:https://www.facebook.com/groups/221981691163510/

Fat Positive Intuitive Eating Diabetes Community: https://www.facebook.com/groups/fatpositivediabetes/

I attend a free virtual weight-inclusive diabetes support group here: https://www.laurennewmanrd.com/groups

25+ Weight Neutral and Health at Every Size Resources for Managing Diabetes https://bodyliberationphotos.com/2019/08/30/masterpost-haes-based-resources-for-intuitive-eating-diabetes-and-living-with-chronic-illness/

HAES Healthsheets: https://haeshealthsheets.com/type-2-diabetes/

Don't weigh me cards: https://more-love.org/resources/free-dont-weigh-me-cards/

https://www.instagram.com/fatpositivefertility/ for community and she probably has resources. Do you have a fat facebook group in your area or a Facebook group on obgyn's? As I am in Canada this is where I find my people.

List of Anti-Diet, HAES, and Intuitive Eating Providers via Christy Harrison https://christyharrison.com/haes-anti-diet-intuitive-eating-providers-eating-disorder-recovery

Fat Friendly Health Professionals List http://www.fatfriendlydocs.com/

Fat Friendly Healthcare Providers

https://www.self.com/story/find-fat-friendly-doctor

https://www.instagram.com/p/CtLARDESZtE/?img_index=1

With the news of the cause of death for Lisa Marie Presley recently I thought it was time to expand the list of famous people who have died at the hands of fat hate or diet culture. The first part is episode 145, but you don't need to listen to that before this episode. I am talking about famous people who had overwhelming pressure to be thin and died trying or their life was damaged because of that. It's a pretty tough episode so please skip if you need to. TW: Fat hate/diet culture leading to death.

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/176

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Lisa Marie Presly: https://www.instagram.com/p/CuqObQpx_Uv/?img_index=1 https://fiercefatty.com/145

What is a small bowel obstruction? Lisa Marie Presley's cause of death explained: https://www.today.com/health/news/lisa-marie-presley-death-bariatric-surgery-rcna94299

Autopsy reveals Lisa Marie Presley died from small bowel obstruction: https://www.today.com/popculture/lisa-marie-presley-cause-death-bowl-obstruction-rcna94193

Lisa Marie Presley, daughter of Elvis and Priscilla Presley, dies at 54: https://www.today.com/popculture/music/lisa-marie-presley-daughter-elvis-priscilla-presley-dies-54-rcna65632

Lisa Marie Presley suffered a cardiac arrest: The different signs of heart disease in women: https://www.today.com/health/womens-health/lisa-marie-presley-cardiac-arrest-rcna65716

Lisa Marie Presley 'rushed' to hospital after apparent medical emergency: https://www.today.com/popculture/lisa-marie-presley-rushed-hospital-apparent-medical-emergency-rcna65604

Intestinal Obstruction: https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/intestinal-obstruction/symptoms-causes/syc-20351460

Explained: What is extreme liquid diet that late Shane Warne followed and how it affects the body: https://www.wionews.com/sports/explained-what-is-extreme-liquid-diet-that-late-shane-warne-followed-and-how-it-affects-the-body-460308

'Detox' or 'juice' diets such as that undertaken by Shane Warne are risky for heart health, experts say: https://www.abc.net.au/news/2022-03-08/shane-warne-extreme-diets-nutrition-heart-health/100887810

Remembering the demons that lingered for Dolores O'Riordan on anniversary of her death: https://www.irishcentral.com/culture/dolores-oriordan-health

What We Learned From the New Brittany Murphy Documentary: https://www.thecut.com/2021/10/what-we-learned-from-the-new-brittany-murphy-documentary.html

How Judy Garland's Struggle with Food and Need to Stay 'Camera Slim' Fueled Her Drug Addiction: https://people.com/books/judy-garland-struggle-with-food-drug-addiction/#:~:text=%E2%80%9CMost%20of%20her%20teen%20and,attempted%20to%20manage%20her%20weight

Judy Garland: https://people.com/tag/judy-garland/

Elizabeth Taylor: https://people.com/tag/elizabeth-taylor/

Frank Sinatra & Ava Gardner: https://people.com/archive/frank-sinatra-ava-gardner-vol-45-no-6/

Despair, Drugs and Attempts to Kill Herself: Judy Garland's Husband Details Her Many Struggles in New Memoir: https://people.com/books/judy-garland-drugs-suicide-husband-memoir/

Judy and I: My Life with Judy Garland Hardcover: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1613735839/ref=as_li_qf_sp_asin_il_tl?ie=UTF8&tag=people0d0-20&camp=1789&creative=9325&linkCode=as2&creativeASIN=1613735839&linkId=b6c64db51ba5537cde7f6088180c67b0

Judy Garland's Lover Sid Luft Reacted So Badly to Her Pregnancy She Didn't Tell Him About Her Abortion: https://people.com/books/judy-garland-sid-luft-abortion-memoir-judy-and-i/

Judy Garland's Daughter Lorna Luft Sings 'Over the Rainbow' for the First Time in Tribute to Orlando, Stonewall and Her Late Mother: https://people.com/celebrity/lorna-luft-sings-over-the-rainbow-for-the-first-time/

Eating disorder at rootof Terri Schiavo case:https://www.nbcnews.com/id/wbna7318508

Pretty Woman singer Roy Orbison died of a heart attack aged 52 'because of yo-yo dieting' following death of his wife and two eldest children, new TV documentary claims: https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-6004151/Pretty-Woman-singer-Roy-Orbison-died-heart-attack-aged-52-yo-yo-dieting.html

Prince's personal chef reveals musician was frequently ill towards end of his life: https://www.nme.com/news/music/prince-59-1203439

Laird Cregar: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Laird_Cregar#/Death

Eddie Muller: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Eddie_Muller

Bariatric surgery: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Bariatric_surgery

Oxygen tent: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Oxygen_tent

The Untold Truth Of John Candy: https://www.looper.com/981094/the-untold-truth-of-john-candy/

Aaron Carter: 'Basically, I have an eating disorder': https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/people/2017/04/26/aaron-carter-basically-have-eating-disorder/100922174/

Toxicology: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Toxicology

Lancaster, California: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Lancaster,_California

Lena Zavaroni: fame, anorexia and the tragedy of a 1970s child star: https://www.theguardian.com/music/2022/feb/26/lena-zavaroni-fame-anorexia-and-the-tragedy-of-a-1970s-child-star

UK Albums Chart: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/UK_Albums_Chart

Revealed: Callas's secret passion for recipes she refused to taste: https://www.theguardian.com/world/2005/jul/24/italy.arts

I hate my fat body and I don't know whhhyyyy! Have you ever thought this? If so, you need to check out this episode where I share the 6 things you could be doing inadvertently that perpetuated anti-fatness and could harm your body confidence.

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/175

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www.HAESHealthSheets.com

The American Medical Association released a press statement saying that the use of BMI is problematic. Is this good news?? The AMA famously went against their own expert advice to classify fatness as a disease with the BMI as the way to diagnose the disease so what's with this turn about? Does it mean that the BMI will be no more or is this just more sneaky weight loss industry lobbying which will cause more harm?

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/174

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AMA: Use of BMI alone is an imperfect clinical measure: https://www.ama-assn.org/delivering-care/public-health/ama-use-bmi-alone-imperfect-clinical-measure

AMA adopts new policy clarifying role of BMI as a measure in medicine: https://www.ama-assn.org/press-center/press-releases/ama-adopts-new-policy-clarifying-role-bmi-measure-medicine

National Institutes of Health: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/National_Institutes_of_Health

9 Ways to Eat Clean: https://www.webmd.com/diet/default.htm?fbclid=IwAR0pJyF7CaHV6deTttRdAjIWkcwu1tkDnVVBGrWn6jgVElIs4N5LpVgQkXQ

Is Obesity A Disease or A Behavior Abnormality? Did the AMA Get It Right?: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6179496/#:~:text=In%20June%202013%2C%20the%20American,requiring%20treatment%20and%20prevention%20efforts

Today we are looking at the Warsaw Ghetto Hunger Study, the Children of HungerWinter, and the Minnesota Starvation Experiment to answer the question what does hunger do to our mental and physical wellbeing? Massive trigger warning: mention of calories, types of food, starvation, eating disorders, self-harm, murder, the holocaust, and death. Although most are brief mentions and not going into details.

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/173

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The psychology of hunger By Dr. David Baker and Natacha Keramidas: https://www.apa.org/monitor/2013/10/hunger The Starvation Study That Changed The World: https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/minnesota-starvation-experiment Physiology of weight regain: Lessons from the classic Minnesota Starvation Experiment on human body composition regulation https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/obr.13189 The Secret Starvation Study Conducted by Jewish Doctors at Warsaw Ghetto: https://www.haaretz.com/world-news/.premium.MAGAZINE-the-secret-starvation-study-conducted-by-jewish-doctors-at-warsaw-ghetto-1.7965422 The Hunger Disease Study in the Warsaw Ghetto: https://www.urologichistory.museum/collections/the-scope-of-urology-newsletter/issue-2-summer-2020/hunger-disease-study This is what hunger does: https://thecorrespondent.com/5379/this-is-what-hunger-does/358445802-e6acda55

Anti-fatness is everywhere, yuck! Do you know what weight bigotry does to our brains and bodies? If not you'll hear all about it in this episode. More importantly, you will also hear about what the science tells us about how to survive this sh*t show. It's good news, you're probably doing a lot of the good stuff already!

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/172

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Study Looks At Ways To Protect Ourselves from Weight Stigma: https://substack.com/app-link/post?publication_id=534306&post_id=99410920&utm_source=post-email-title&isFreemail=false&token=eyJ1c2VyX2lkIjoyMDU1OTQwOSwicG9zdF9pZCI6OTk0MTA5MjAsImlhdCI6MTY3ODU1NzcwNSwiZXhwIjoxNjgxMTQ5NzA1LCJpc3MiOiJwdWItNTM0MzA2Iiwic3ViIjoicG9zdC1yZWFjdGlvbiJ9.pc8UxFO8zdkqH3qAKJRqnEoI1s6iY4aLsUtcCk71bEQ

Challenging oppression: A social identity model of stigma resistance in higher-weight individuals: https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S1740144522001061?via%3Dihub

Studies on weight stigma and body image in higher-weight individuals Angela Meadows and Rachel M Calogero . DOI: https://doi.org/10.1007/978-3-319-90817-5_28

Fat trans legal histroy: https://www.instagram.com/callmesj.theletters/

SJ donate: https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-sj-graduate-and-continue-their-work?utm_campaign=p_cp+share-sheet&utm_medium=copy_link_all&utm_source=customer

Anti-Fatness and Public Health by Mikey Mercedes and Monica Kriete for New England Public Health Training Center https://www.patreon.com/posts/reconsidering-84517517?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_fan&utm_content=join_link

Sutin, A. R., Stephan, Y., & Terracciano, A. (2015). Weight Discrimination and Risk of Mortality. Psychological science, 26(11), 1803–1811. https://doi.org/10.1177/0956797615601103

Fat sex! How does society view fat bodies and how do we view our own fat bodies when it comes to sex and desirability? What impact does that have on the way we relate to others sexually? I talk about how sex was one of the final ways anti-fat bias had a hold on me as desirability is key to seld esteem. TW: mention of fatphobic beliefs about fat bodies. This episode was first aired in December 2020.

Episode show notes: http://www.fiercefatty.com/171

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Fatphobia is not a sexual preference from The Fat Sex Therapist: https://wearyourvoicemag.com/fatphobia-is-not-a-sexual-preference/

Treating My Friends Like Lovers: The Politics of Desirability from Cale Luna: https://thebodyisnotanapology.com/magazine/how-to-be-fat-caleb-luna-sub/

3 Reasons Dating, Attraction, and Desire Are Always Political by Hari Ziyad: https://everydayfeminism.com/2016/04/attraction-desire-political/

Fatphobia Exists – and It's Especially Bad in the Bedroom by Marie Southard Ospina: https://www.vice.com/en/article/8894bx/plus-size-girls-sex-stories-fatphobia