Today i am having “fuck you @⁨Clare⁩ “ moment and not even having the courtesy to say white witch do she won’t get tagged. Honestly, you have one minute of feeling nice and there she is with the first well module, bringing in the misery. Reporting happy moments, she won’t have any of it. And now even journalling on things you’re grateful for is now not allowed. It’s like that friend you (used to, I’m not friends with any of them now) that no matter what you say puts a downer on it/pisses on your fire. Or I can go study human design that shows how the mind/body is made and the god-portals to explore what we really are but minus all the misery and suffering. Feeling so angry I have to continue with this stupid, miserable navel-gazing course, suffering-hunting all the time. Fuck you Clare Dimond. 😡 The rest of you are alright.

Ok will listen agsin but was something about ‘your symptoms will probably get worse’ and it was more the podcast from yesterday. Nothing in particular, just feeling  in a good mood then you just not allowing that for even one moment, putting a downer on that good mood, denying it, saying that’s not true or reality. Saying instead we want freedom. I thought ‘fuck this, fuck freedom, just leave me one to be happy. I’ll take that over freedom. I’m done.