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This week I talk to Aaron Harris, (voice actor and comedian featured in Ice Age and the new YuGiOh series). Aaron had a harsh reaction to smoking weed as a teen which he describes as feeling like almost triggering psychosis. We also talk about parenting (even though Aaron doesn't have kids) and how weird some adults are who have kids. I also discuss missing my flight to Korea and 'keeping my cool' at the airport and how that reminded me of similar incidents that happened with my parents as a kid which ended up being traumatic.

This week I talk to Erin Hosier the host of Tell Me About Your Father Podcast and author of Don't Let Me Down, a book about her relationship with her narcissist father. We talk all about narcissism. We talk about how common this personality disorder is but how it's very misunderstood. We specifically touch on the experience of being the child of a narcissist and how it effects us both to this day. We also talk about the confusing nature of relationships to narcissists because as harmful as they are, they are also so charming and intoxicating to be around.

This week I talk to my friend Cindy who is the owner of Azaelea's in NYC. She and I have been friends for a long time so I was totally shocked when she told me about a traumatic incident she endured in her early 20s involving the death of someone she was dating at the time. We talk about the nature of traumatic events, especially events that happened a long time ago in a different era of our lives. We talk about how we can be friends with people and know them intimately and not know they've been through some heavy shit. We talk about how as we get older we can clearly see the multiverse and the multiple different lives we could've lived but didn't. Also I talk about white guys who live in Korea and how some of them are really fucking shitty.

This week I talk about how I discovered that the abortion I had was illegal and why I had no idea until I discussed it on this podcast. I talk about how Korean people deal with an oppressive and conservative government and how the spirit of doing whatever they want behind "father's" back lives on in me. I also talk about being confused by people who are JUST NOW losing faith in the government as someone who has thought it was run by a bunch of greedy idiots my entire life. Thank you for your continued support!

CW: childhood assault, Bullying. This week I talk to Gus Constantellis (Comedian, Tiktok star) about how his obsession with celebrities and media from a certain time of his life relates to a trauma that he experienced during the same time. Gus discusses how during the pandemic his body had a severe reaction to an incident he experienced almost 20 years ago as a child. After processing the trauma he came to the realization of how that incident shaped his behavior to this day. We also laugh about how Greek moms are the same as Korean moms and how our shared experiences help build our friendship bond.

CW: Sexual Assault, Childhood Sexual Abuse. This week I talk to Lucie Pohl, the brilliant comedian behind Immigrant Jam Podcast. I talk about a really traumatizing experience I had as a teenager and Lucie talks about two incidents of her life where she experienced sexual assault and why her inital reaction was to blame herself. Also we laugh about the absurdity of sexual assault and discuss how it's scary to make jokes about our own trauma because men will weaponize our humor against us.

CW: mass shootings. I'm back with another solo episode about my feelings about guns and cops. I'm stupid and I don't know anything so I kept it to my feelings. I touch on how if you grew up in an unfair/abusive household, this feeling of powerless and frustration is familiar as well as triggering.

CW: death. This week I talk to John deBary about the death of his mother from brain cancer. John had no emotional reaction to her passing only to suffer a mental breakdown two years later after Hilary Clinton lost the presidential race in 2016. We talk about how we both tend to repress strong emotions and how it's conditioning from our childhoods. John also talks about his family history which he can trace back one thousand years. His last name is actually Bary Bary which also sounds like how my Korean mom would describe him: "John is Bary Bary white!"

CW: Abortion, Statutory Rape, Abuse. This week I talk about my abortion in full detail by myself. It was weird recording on my own but then I ended up sharing stories I have NEVER told until this day. I talk about having sexual relationships with adults as a minor and why I think that happened and how it directly led to me having to have an abortion. I talk about this cop that stalked me when I was 16. Until we raise female-presenting children with the knowledge and power to advocate for themselves, aborton is an essential human right. Also I cry AND laugh by myself. 

CW: Child Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Homophobia. This week I talk to Ryan Marie Burdge (who also goes by Hilary Burdge) about growing up neurodivergent and queer. Ryan Marie talks about being part of the first group of children to be diagnosed with ADHD in the 80s and the abuse they went through at the hands of the adults in their community. We discuss our friendship history and how we met working in the abusive environment of restaurants and how that work brought us closer together. We also touch on dressing femme and how at times it feels like drag to both of us and share a hilarious story about the time a man catcalled Ryan Marie shouting at them "Now that's a REAL woman!"