Clare, the WANT course was absolutely wonderful. I don’t know how you manage to record in advance a video that addresses a question or concern of mine each morning that I listen. Just wonderful! Totally mind-blowing!

Throughout this year taking your courses so much has become clear. The suffering, the new information, and the logic of it all has resulted in major shifts.

I came to your work to learn more about nonduality. But really with the ulterior motive of fixing/curing/solving a lifelong muddle of body/food/weight. What has shifted deeply is the knowing and respecting the logic and wisdom of the body. Shame and guilt and layers upon layers of innocent misperceptions and concepts have collapsed. Compassion and love flows through.

But what I want to ask about is a bit that remains. While there is contentment in the moment as is, just as it all is, a part still wants to wear a smaller size jeans. 

In searching within and journaling and sitting with it, this want remains. It feels like this want is not to secure or stabilize or compensate for some wound. Or if so just the tiniest bit.

Throughout this course we’ve talked about clean and dirty wants. I’m wondering for beings in form if these distinctions as metaphors describe opposite ends of a continuum? Can a want be clean-ish?

It’s all just conceptual labels, but I’m curious if wants that come bubbling up like this from the body/mind system steeped in the culture, if a seemingly frivolous want (a judgement from the same body/mind that produced it) like this could be clean or clean-ish? 

Thank you so much for a transformative year!