Do we keep questioning the way the mind functions at the same time we keep looking toward what is stable (what you call "true") because seeing the continual motion of thought, feeling and sensation compared to the backdrop of constant presence is what supports the realization of the core "I" as presence, instead of identification as temporary feeling/thought/beliefs?

I noticed today that when there is more identification with a feeling, there is more resistance to the feelings we've been conditioned to view as wrong/bad. So the feeling experience of cranky becomes "I am cranky" and then there's resistance to it and then the body seems to move into default learned patterns that may have side effects that would also be resisted (junk food eating, scrolling, etc) indicating a seeking to avoid the first identification to feeling. cue vicious circle.

And in contrast, in the last few days it seems that when there isn't this identification with a feeling, when there's just "oh here's crankiness again" then there's no resistance to it and therefore no related default avoidance/seeking patterns to escape that feeling...there's just the feeling and whatever else is going on. Yet whatever else is going on somehow ISN'T an escape/avoidance/distraction...it's like they happen side by side. cue virtuous circle.

Oddly there's no efforting or the "I" that does either of these things, it seems to just be flipping back and forth like a switch.