H picked up a left-over magazine on the bench beside him

One article talked about good hormones and bad ones

H decided he looked exactly like the writer was driving at-- specimen of a person with bad hormones

H then turned to a second article which discussed the probability of getting a cancer

it said that if the sore on any part of your body that didn't recover for a long time, it is high probable that you had got the cancer

H decided that the sore in the inside of his mouth had been there for two weeks but didn't heel, he had cancer for sure

He would die within months

He suddenly felt free

H decided to get some breakfast for vitamins

H ordered doughnuts and coffee

H didn't even touch doughnuts because his throat had been swollen he couldn't even swallow

Wauter was good enough to take back the doughnuts and didn't charge him for that

H left restaurant and went past two guys unloading Christmas trees

They swore which made H laughed

H turned to vomit because the throat was too swollen

H kept on walking to Fifth Avenue

Chrismas holiday season everywhere

H recalled last years Christmas when he took Phoebe to Bloomingdale's

They horsed around with shoe sales clerk pretending they were buying long moccasins

Clerk was busy like hell just to bind the lace of the shoes

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H took sabway on Lexington to Grand Central

It was almost 6am Wednesday

H decided he'd take the long bench in the subway waiting room

Because he could lift his feet up on the beach, he got a good sleep from 6-9am

People started swarming in the waiting room

H sat up

Headache was still there

H thought of A again though he didn't want to

H thought of how A went through all the trouble to tell him to go over his place

How A had valiantly saved the last dignity of James Castle

How maybe he had misjudged A that A might not be a gay at all

How maybe he should bring all his luggage's and go back A's place

H got sore and burny eyes for want of sleep

What made it worse, H seemed to have caught a cold

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A went to the kitchen

H went to bathroom

H didn't have his own toothbrush so he just undressed

H didn't have his own pajama so he wore only his shorts

H turned off the light beside the couch

H recounted what A just said about the size of one's mindset

H was so tired he fell asleep almost instantly

Suddenly in the total darkness, H felt human hand patting his forehead

H jumpstarted and shot up instantly to find it was A

H started fumbling for his clothing in the dark

H wished to leave right away

A didn't understand in what way was H offended

A followed H to the doorway where H waited anxiously for his elevator

H squeezed some words like he would read good books henceforward

A asked that H return to his place after procuring his bagages and whatnot

H escaped

H recalled this kind of perverts behavior kept recurring in his childhood

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A concluded the importance of one's getting as much education as one can was that after receiving education can a person see clearly what capability one has

Then knowing the size of one's mindset, one saves time experimenting all sorts of outfits for his mind

One knows one's true "measurements" (of one's mindset) and is able to "dress" one's mind accordingly

H yawned unintentionally

A laughed and stopped his advising

Together they made H's bed for the night

A spoke of H's girls by the way

H said he broke with Sally Hayes that afternoon

He would phone Jane Gallagher up tomorrow

A left

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H put the piece of paper o side his pocket

H appreciated A for taking all the trouble to try to comfort him

A repeatedly assured H that if he let pass people like Mr. Vinson, he would surely find what he really wanted in his life

A went on beating about the bush saying educated and scholarly are more capable of making more contributions to mankind because, for one thing, they can express themselves more vividly

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H asserted that he didn't "hate" people for all their lives he just hated Stradlater or Ackley for the time they were around but after a couple of days when they weren't around, he stopped hating them

A filled his glass for more alcohol

A compared H's discontent with his whole environment with a person who falls out of society

A lurched over the room to write H a piece of paper

"The mark of the immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause, while the mark of the mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one." (Wilhelm Stekel, Austrian, psychoanalyst)

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Mrs. Antolini brought in her coffee tray and asked about H's mom casually

She left saying she was fatigued

A started conversing by relating to his lunch with H's father

Father was concerned by getting headmaster's long letter explaining H's absence from his schoolwork

A himself could hardly concentrate himself for this was the second highball he's having at least after H's arrival

A explained that H's heading for a terrible fall

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Richard Kinsella got a D plus

Kinsella was to talk about his father's farm at. Vermont

But suddenly he talked about a letter his mother received from his uncle

The uncle was 42 and he got this polio

The uncle didn't want anybody to come visit him at the hospital

He was afaraid that people came and found out he had to walk in braces

The teacher was Mr. Vinson

A asked was the teacher not correct asking you to express yourself without any digression

H said Vinson kept saying unify and simplify which were hard to come by when you were really composing

H thought this Vinson was really brainless

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Mrs. A yelled something to H

A explained that Lillian didn't want H to look at her when she brought coffee from the kitchen

A offered H a cigarette

A joked that if H flunked his English he could get out of here this instant

H said he passed English alright

H described their Oral Expression course

When a classmate digresses his topic, you yell "Digression" immediately

Everyone loved it except H

There was this Richard Kinsella boy who got so scared at the class

He trembled before he even got up to the front

When it was his turn, his volume was so small that you could hardly hear what he said

But H liked his speech the best

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Mr. Antolini lined in a swanky apartment

After H left Elkton Hills, Antolini came over to H's house for dinner sometimes

Antolini was single then

Then he married his tennis mate at Long Island, Forest Hills, West Side Tennis Club

She looked quite older than Antolini

She had bad asthma

They both read D.B.'s novels

Antolini advised D.B. not to go to Hollywood

A said there was no need of a good brain in there

H wanted to go on foot without spending any of P's Christmas dough

But he felt dizzy

So he took a cab

A opened the door and welcomed H

They had just sent Mrs. A's college friends away

Glasses and dishes everywhere

Mrs. A was from Buffalo

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