Creation has always been a struggle. Now I understand the depth of confusion around identification. And as you suggest, it seems to originate at school. The profound need for validation borned from the possibility of failing, being wrong, or even worse: insignificant. These days I have brief moments of lightness, but the habit of creating in order to prove myself (or find some kind of security/satisfaction) is still quite strong. I think of the crossroad image you shared and wonder how "doing" can be the way out of identification when it seemed to have always been it's confirmation.

Maybe this can serve a podcast episode?