It has felt in the past like there was an I fixing myself whereas now, there's less of a sense of that. It's more like something arising by itself. My sense is that multiple 'I' characters are created each with its own narrative and patterns and we are identified with these 'I' characters until we see through them. Sometimes people see though the illusion completely and these self identities collapse in one go - like Syd Banks or Anita Moorjani, but often it's a slower process where one illusory character collapses while perhaps we're still identified with another? Do you see it like this or differently?