Listener question: I've just finished working through the REAL videos / course .. (not the conversations yet) .. is it normal for the .. well basically .. 'shit to hit the fan' inside ? - wont go into great details but just wondering if there is anything to 'do' ? ... it's kind of showed me just how of course i have been and how dysfunctional i have got from trying to cope for years but also the fact that everything i am running from is within ME and not out there .... like i want to be in a 'witness protection programme' from myself ... like i am both the stalker and the stalked .... its given me this massive sense that 'i cant get myself out of this alone' somehow and at the same time not sure what kind of support to seek that wont go and confuse me more e.g normal nhs type counselling options.... and does 'speaking about it all' in that kind of way EVER help us make sense of anything... and free us from basically scaring the shit out of ourself and keeping our own nervous system in a state of never ending vigilant exhaustion .. i see i've been running and running and cut myself off from every possible thing 'outiside' in the hope of finding safety only to find its 'me' whos the problem.

So not quite seeing through it all far enough yet to feel the freedom and peace.