Listener question: 

Life happens out of our control, yes. But trauma triggers are very real to the system, destabilising. If fight or flight is not possible, freeze can feel very dangerous. 

In this example being triggered at work, going into freeze can be debilitating and i can’t seem to function at work anymore, although I manage somehow. 

I really can’t seem to see where the healing is supposed to be in this. How can be reliving trauma responses in the body again and again be healing? 

If I don’t have the necessary support at work this will happen again. The confidence in my ability to hold a job is shaken (although I have been there for 8 years). The possibility of changing jobs doesn’t even come to mind.

I see the utter futility of the system trying to prevent these events from happening again, yes that is madness!  But the young vulnerable part needs protection fullstop!!!

Probably a protection it never experienced in its young life. 

I’m all up for having it all when it comes to the full gamut of emotions and I see how they ebb and flow. With this deep triggering stuff that makes me feel unsafe in my own body, I refuse to relive that again and again!

I know my own resilience, I made it so far which is a miracle in itself. 

But im questioning where the peace, love and Freedom is in this, we talk about in this conversation so often?