Okay let’s talk about being delulu

Because right now the internet is fully romanticizing the idea that if you just decide something is true, it’ll magically work out. And listen, sometimes that mindset is actually powerful as hell.

And sometimes?

It’s just avoidance in a cute outfit.

In this episode, I’m breaking down when “the delulu is the solulu” and when it quietly turns into spiritual bypassing, nervous system freeze, or straight-up lying to yourself.

I get into:

1. Why acting “as if” can genuinely change your life
2. The psychology behind why confidence before evidence actually works
3. The moment delusion stops being playful and starts being harmful
4. How manifestation turns toxic when it disconnects you from reality
5. The difference between faith and avoidance (and how to tell which one you’re in)
6. What conscious delusion actually looks like — belief that moves you forward, not keeps you stuck

If you’ve ever wondered whether you’re trusting the universe… or just not wanting to deal with something uncomfortable, this episode will hit.

Programs and Resources

1. NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
2. FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
3. Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
4. The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

1. Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
2. My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
3. Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

1. Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
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Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

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This episode isn’t cute. It’s honest.

Today I’m talking about the parts of ourselves we don’t want to integrate. The ones we wish never happened. Not the soft, Instagram-friendly shadows like dimming your light. Or even that shadows that focus on what others did to you or your wounded inner child. But the moments where we hurt someone. Where we straight up caused harm and moved on with life, with an over-sized bag of shame.

This is the kind of shadow work almost no one wants to touch. Because it’s not about reclaiming power. It’s about responsibility.

I talk about why it’s easier to face the places where we were wounded than the places where we had agency, and how pretending those parts “aren’t us anymore” doesn’t actually free us, it just buries them.

In this episode I talk about:

• Why unintegrated shadow doesn’t disappear, it leaks

• The difference between accountability and self-shaming

• How cruelty, judgment, avoidance, and superiority often come from distorted protection

• Why integration is not approval and never justification

• What real wholeness actually asks of us

This episode is an invitation to stop trying to be spotless… and start being honest.

Programs and Resources

1. NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
2. FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
3. Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
4. The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

1. Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
2. My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
3. Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

1. Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
2. Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

HOLY FREAKIN MOLY!!! It's real! I signed my NEW book contract this morning and I am giddy with passion and purpose and direction.

When I lost my dad the day after Christmas in 2024 I was just hoping the survive the year of firsts. I never imagined the first year after his death would be filled with so much life, creativity, adventure, joy, and new beginnings.

My disco ball soul was shattered at the end of 2024, but now a year later I’m shining brighter than ever 🪩

This book is going to show you just how potent and productive looking at your darkness can be.

This is what's possible through shadow work. I wouldn't be where I am if I didn't go into my darkness and ask what it had to show me. I've centered my entire career around shadow work because I've seen first hand that it's literally the key to everything you want to become and do.

This episode is testament to what "doing the work" can do and how to make your shadow sparkle.

AAAAAARRRRROOOOO!!!!

Programs and Resources

1. Way of the Witch Coven CLOSES JANUARY 7: https://www.sagedshop.com/products/way-of-the-witch-virtual-coven
2. NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
3. FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
4. Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
5. The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

1. Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
2. My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
3. Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

1. Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
2. Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Let’s talk about January 1st and the lie we've been told! Buckle up, this is a GOOD one!

Because if you’ve ever felt exhausted, behind, unmotivated, or low-key resentful of “new year, new you” energy, this episode is your permission slip to stop blaming yourself.

January 1st is NOT the new year we've been told it is. And pushing yourself to reinvent yourself in the dead of winter actually does more harm than good.

In this one, I pull back the curtain on the calendar itself and how we got tricked into something that robs us of our power.

If you’ve ever felt like something about the New Year rush didn’t sit right in your bones… this episode will put language to that feeling.

No resolutions. No hustle.

Just truth, a bit of fascinating history, and a gentler way to move through the season.

Programs and Resources

1. Winter 2026: Way of the Witch coven https://www.sagedshop.com/products/way-of-the-witch-virtual-coven
2. NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
3. FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
4. Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
5. The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

1. Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
2. My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
3. Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

1. Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
2. Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

In this episode, I’m talking about grief during the holidays. Not in a “here’s how to get through it” way, but in a let’s sit together in this way.

I laugh, I cry, and /i keep it real like always. Grief isn't something to push through. It's not an inconvenience, although our society might have you thinking otherwise.

Grief is proof of love. And if your sick of the energy of "holly jolly holidays" this one is for you.

If the holidays feel heavy this year…

If you’re missing someone…

If you’re grieving a person, a version of life, or a season that will never come back…

You’re not alone.

You’re not doing it wrong.

And you don’t have to carry it quietly.

Mentioned in this episode:

The Wild Edge of Sorrow by Francis Wheeler https://www.amazon.com/Wild-Edge-Sorrow-Rituals-Renewal/dp/1583949763

Laura Lynn Jackson: Signs + other books https://lauralynnejackson.com/

Programs and Resources

• Winter 2026: Way of the Witch coven https://www.sagedshop.com/products/way-of-the-witch-virtual-coven
• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Pull up a chair, because we need to talk about 2026.

And no, not in the Instagram “new year, new me ✨” kind of way.

We’re leaving a Snake Year and a global 9 year, which basically means the universe has been shaking your life like a snow globe and watching what falls apart. If things crumbled, burned, broke, ended, dissolved, disappointed you, ghosted you, or revealed their true form?

Yeah. That was the curriculum.

And now we're walking straight into a 1 year… and a Fire Horse Year.

And listen, everyone online is acting like this is some sparkly fresh start.

But I’m here to tell you the real truth:

2026 isn’t a clean slate. It’s a construction site.

It’s not a “glow up.” It’s a rebuild.

It’s not “new beginnings.” It’s identity initiation.

This episode is the conversation no one else is having. Because everyone wants to sell you optimism, but I want to tell you the truth.

In this episode I cover:

• what a Fire Horse year actually means
• why Japan’s birth rate dropped 25% last time we have a Fire Horse Year
• the rise of powerful, untamable feminine energy
• why a 1 year feels disorienting, not exciting
• how to calculate your personal year & what it really means
• Saturn + Neptune in Aries (aka identity demolition meets spiritual clarity)
• why next year burns what you’ve outgrown and ignites what you’ve denied
• the real emotional experience of stepping into a new 9-year cycle

If you're tired of spiritual bypassing, manifestation rainbows and unicorns, and fake positivity…

This episode is your permission slip to feel the raw truth of what’s unfolding — and the power in it.

2026 isn’t coming to bless you.

It’s coming to activate you.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

You’re not afraid of your power, like Marianne Williamson said.

You’re afraid of what your power will change, of the identity that will die, of the unfamiliar and unpredictable, and unknown.

Because when you rise, things shift.

Relationships recalibrate.

Identity rearranges.

Old comfort zones dissolve.

Your life gets bigger than the person you’ve been.

And your nervous system LOVES a good predictable mess.

It hates unfamiliar peace, unfamiliar success, unfamiliar ease.

In this episode, I dive into:

• why the ego clings to the familiar even when it sucks
• that WILD Michigan fMRI study where the brain literally panics at the successful future self
• why you sabotage right when something starts working
• why consistency feels terrifying (it's change, not sabotage)
• how identity death is the real shadow of expansion

and the truth nobody wants to admit: success is only scary because it guarantees change.

If you’ve ever wondered why you retreat, retract, procrastinate, or stall right when things start getting better… this episode is your mirror.

You’re not afraid of rising.

You’re afraid of what rising will require.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

If you’re already mentally preparing for the holiday Hunger Games, I recorded this for you.

But before you pack emotional armor for Thanksgiving, let’s talk about something juicy:

Your triggers aren’t meltdowns waiting to happen — they’re portals.

Yep. This week on Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re going right into the spiritual lion’s den:n family, holidays, emotional landmines, and the shadow work hidden in your aunt’s passive-aggressive comments.

In this episode, I’m breaking down why the holidays turn us into emotional werewolves… why your nervous system reacts before your brain even registers what’s happening… and how to move through family triggers without flipping the entire table over the cranberry sauce (tempting, though).

We’re talking:

• Why your body remembers your family before your mind does
• How triggers are actually invitations, not punishments
• The version of you your family resurrects (even when you’ve outgrown her)
• Real-life examples we can all relate to (yes, including “You look tired”)
• How to handle holiday portals like the spiritually evolved badass you are
• And why sometimes the most sacred thing you can do… is hide in the pantry with a cookie

This one is real, raw, and honestly one of the most relatable episodes I’ve ever recorded.

Listen before you walk into the holiday lion’s den. Your shadow will thank you — and your future self will avoid a felony.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Stop focusing on trying to to regulate your nervous system. You need to let out the scream you've been holding in the past decade.

We’ve somehow convinced ourselves that being peaceful all the time is the goal — like inner peace is the new personality trait. But what I’ve learned (through life, shadow work, and a few cosmic smackdowns) is this:

sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is scream into a pillow at full volume.

In today’s episode, we get into the messy truth the wellness world avoids:

• Why “inner peace” can secretly be a trauma response
• Why your body doesn’t want calm — it wants completion
• How sacred rage is actually your path into real peace
• The neuroscience behind anger, suppression, and emotional bottlenecking
• Why softness after rage is stronger than pretending you’re chill
• And why your soul doesn’t want constant regulation… it wants permission

This is the episode where we break up with performative peace and come back into actual aliveness.

Because if you’re never angry … you’re probably not being honest.

Grab your matcha, get cozy, and let me tell you why your rage is medicine — and your peace is stronger because of it.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

You know that feeling when life rips the rug out from under you, and your first instinct is to grab tighter? Yeah, same.

In this episode, I revisit something I wrote a decade ago while living in Granada, Spain, back when uncertainty meant adventure, not anxiety. Back then, I chased the unknown through cobblestone streets and open roads. But after the quantum crumble of the past few years, I’ve learned that uncertainty isn’t something you conquer… it’s something you befriend.

In this episode I talk about:

• Why the ego craves control but the soul craves expansion
• How science proves uncertainty is literally the fabric of reality
• Why softness is the new strength (and surrender is sacred)
• What Hartmut Rosa and Gabor Maté teach us about letting go
• And how to find peace when you have no idea what’s next

If you’ve been fighting to “figure it all out,” this one’s your permission slip to stop gripping and start trusting. Because control is an illusion — but presence is real.

Back then, uncertainty felt like freedom.

Now I know it’s the portal to everything real.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/