In a church that requires confessions from ages as early as 8, to an untrained, inexperienced, randomly appointed man, it leaves a lot of room for a potential ab*se situation. In Taylor’s case, she developed scrupulously (religious OCD) and felt compelled to repent of every single thing that would be seen as a sin by the LDS church. Her bishop further took advantage of her, asking for explicit details of her intimate life with her boyfriend, including over text message and in his own home. This type of clergy ab*se is not the standard, but unfortunately not uncommon. Taylor describes living with this condition and the immense guilt and shame that followed her into her mission and beyond. 

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Chapter Marks:

00:04:53 Taylor’s ChiIdhood & Her Family's Relationship with Mormonism

00:12:33 Some Background Information on the Mormon Church

00:16:17 Taylor’s Traumat*zing Experiences with One-On-One Interviews & Her Relationships as a Teen

00:22:07 CW: CSA, Eating D*sorders, More About Taylor's Experiences with Her Bishop and The Beginnings of Religious OCD

00:29:45 Taylor’s Conflicting Feelings Surrounding The Mormon Church

00:36:17 CW: SA, Taylor Opens Up About The Details Surrounding Being S*xually As**ulted

00:40:36 CW: SA, Taylor Shares Her Experience Being Blamed For Being As**ulted Coupled with Religious Guilt

00:46:20 More About Taylor's Guilt and Her Experience Leaving The Church

00:49:35 Taylor Shares The Doctrinal Foundation for Her Religious OCD

00:52:26 Taylor’s Church Leader's Opinion on Her OCD Diagnosis & More About Leaving the Mormon Church

00:59:02 Taylor Describes How Her Mormon Mission Contributed to Her Leaving The Church

01:05:14 Taylor Shares About Her Self-Exploration and Decisions Made After Leaving the Church

01:08:33 Taylor's Journey and Healing with Religious OCD

01:14:04 Final Thoughts & Linda Listen

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