HEADS UP: This episode speaks about having a living baby after loss. Sarah from episode 24 is back to chat with me about our experiences in this phase of loss life with a 4 month and 6 month old. This is uncharted territory for both of us and we have mutually felt that there is not much being said in the loss community about how challenging it is to have a living baby after loss. We want to tell you about what we've learned.  While mine and Sarah's losses are very different, we share the same feelings about the trauma, joy, grief, challenges, and pain that occur when having a living baby after your first baby dies.

We navigated loss life after Brody and Nathanial died. Now we are navigating parenting their little siblings, Wolfy and Thomas. 

This is NOT to scare or treat anyone. This is NOT complaining. We are also not speaking for everyone. This is us talking about our experiences in hopes we can help other mommas who are feeling the same way. Just shedding light on the normalcies having a living baby after loss include. 

What we discuss:

• The less than ideal way the baby after loss arrives
• It's not anything like we imagined
• We prepped for PAL but not for when the baby is here.
• We have the same experiences as other living baby parents do except ours has a layer of trauma 
• Early induction after loss
• Relationships with people who dropped off when our baby died but came back when we had a living one.
• Breastfeeding, pumping, feeding, formula, pain, etc
• Terror over joy
• Guilt for not hyper-focusing on our baby that died.
• The definition of a "good mother"
• Out partners and what they are experiencing
• Finding space to talk about our baby that died.
• Parenting a dead child while raising a living one
• We cover a lot of things...

Find Amy at @whenmybabydied and @totallythomaswilder

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I am not a doctor or a therapist. The views of my guests are not always reflective of my own.  I am just a real life loss mom describing her experiences with life after loss. This is my real experiences, and I'm putting it out there so you feel less alone. Always do your own research and make informed decisions!

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