Quitting Marijuana

Coming to grips with a new "self" and seeking other resources for staying on track.  Anyone have experience with marijuana anonymous?  Shoot me an email at [email protected].  There is a meeting about 105 min from me but that's a haul for a work night... 

Realizing that with a busted up body a lot of stuff on the typical "lists" don't really cut it! 

Podcast announcement and 3 messages from listeners sharing their stories.  Would love to hear your symptoms of withdrawal and what you noticed as your health started to improve.  My bowl broke a few weeks ago...  Inside was a freakish mass of black, ash-filled resin packed so full that only the smallest needle-sized hole was permitting air to go from bowl to stem.  .  Wtf must my lungs look like???  

Yeah buddy!  I'm terrified of the weekend but I was able to get up here and podcast rather than burn, now headed to do some SMR before bed.  Lots of reflecting lately, it's crazy how the mind changes after a few days without bud.  

Some good scripture this evening though!  Got my meditation in, did some Wim Hof at school while the kids were in gym, and did an additional core session when I got home.  Gotta stay busy! 

And I do a lousy job of explaining it courtesy of melting my brain on Sunday but Saturday night was the eye-opener for me.  I got to see both ends of the spectrum, as well as experience a feeling of fear/powerlessness during a thunderstorm.  My friend overdosed on an edible, a friend who otherwise was not a big cannabis user until he met me.   Then I met a 20 y/o tow truck driver who said that job saved his life because he was smoking weed all the time and was headed nowhere, now he is a straight thundercat.  I haven't been taking quitting seriously the last few weeks and now I am.  It's time for a new chapter in my life and if I can let go of the competitive athlete, I can let go of mary jane (and vice/versa).  There will be pitfalls and roadblocks headed my way but I will talk about those in the next episode.   Hang tough! 

Fucked up 

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, 3 days is better than no days!  Should be a great day at work tomorrow I always look forward to the mental clarity and improved speech function.  Will be putting in my hour of meditation this evening before bed so that's different, but couple that with my hour at 4am tomorrow and I should be in a really great spot.  I feel like my life has more direction than it used to and it's helped me stick to my guns, but perhaps what has helped the most is adding as many healthy things into my daily routine as possible.  

Staying busy is definitely the key to quitting dope!  I had literally 3 minutes of wait time yesterday, sooooo close to going out the door, and I took a poke.  Dang it!!!  Back on track today, got a game plan for tomorrow.  

A while back someone wrote in to me that they had been clean for a full year and staying distracted/busy was their key to staying clean.  It's so wild too because there is ALWAYS something to do.  Shave, tidy up the bedroom, pack lunch for the next day, etc.  I was getting lost in my phone, avoiding meditating and avoiding some drama with the wife and new I needed to snap out of it.  Came in to the second bedroom for some scripture, checked my email inbox, saw a message, and said I gotta do this.  Another day clean!