And I do a lousy job of explaining it courtesy of melting my brain on Sunday but Saturday night was the eye-opener for me.  I got to see both ends of the spectrum, as well as experience a feeling of fear/powerlessness during a thunderstorm.  My friend overdosed on an edible, a friend who otherwise was not a big cannabis user until he met me.   Then I met a 20 y/o tow truck driver who said that job saved his life because he was smoking weed all the time and was headed nowhere, now he is a straight thundercat.  I haven't been taking quitting seriously the last few weeks and now I am.  It's time for a new chapter in my life and if I can let go of the competitive athlete, I can let go of mary jane (and vice/versa).  There will be pitfalls and roadblocks headed my way but I will talk about those in the next episode.   Hang tough! 

Fucked up 

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, 3 days is better than no days!  Should be a great day at work tomorrow I always look forward to the mental clarity and improved speech function.  Will be putting in my hour of meditation this evening before bed so that's different, but couple that with my hour at 4am tomorrow and I should be in a really great spot.  I feel like my life has more direction than it used to and it's helped me stick to my guns, but perhaps what has helped the most is adding as many healthy things into my daily routine as possible.  

Staying busy is definitely the key to quitting dope!  I had literally 3 minutes of wait time yesterday, sooooo close to going out the door, and I took a poke.  Dang it!!!  Back on track today, got a game plan for tomorrow.  

A while back someone wrote in to me that they had been clean for a full year and staying distracted/busy was their key to staying clean.  It's so wild too because there is ALWAYS something to do.  Shave, tidy up the bedroom, pack lunch for the next day, etc.  I was getting lost in my phone, avoiding meditating and avoiding some drama with the wife and new I needed to snap out of it.  Came in to the second bedroom for some scripture, checked my email inbox, saw a message, and said I gotta do this.  Another day clean!  

Not a bit surprising that a few days without dope has me jacked!  How you doing?  

One foot in front of the other

Just gettin' it on, can't be afraid to tackle the good stuff.   Quitting marijuana is a one day at a time process!  If you've got some words of inspiration/wisdom you read or listen to, send it to me?  [email protected] 

It's the day before the stoner national holiday!  Had time this morning to podcast since yesterday was a big lift day, today at the gym will be yoga and back PT.   Trying to gain more self-control via meditation, did 2 hours on Sunday, 2 hours Monday, and an hour this morning.   1 session in the morning from 4am-5am, and 1 session in the evening ~8:15pm - 9:15pm.  Shoot me an email [email protected] with a story of something good or bad related to weed and how it's impacting your life and I will definitely share.  

Peter and Solomon have more wisdom and strength than I do you guys, hopefully their story and wisdom help keep you straight.  It's been a struggle for me, cracked on Friday night after getting super drunk (I drink about once every 3 months) and then Saturday burned again after not meditating that morning.  I'm headed into spring break now so I won't be dropping another episode until Monday April 18th.