Rye Off The Bat

Made this while we head towards the end of 2nd month, and I guess life's been quite errrr... well tiring

Feeling the burnt out, in this episode I talk about some of my challenges as I was balancing the 3 different sector, from family to work and personal. I think it was one of the episode that I ran through what I had to priorities depending on the circumstances of my life, mental health etc. 

In this pilot episode of Skem or Dayum, I'm here with my Twitch Mod XZ, who's been nothing but helpful when I was looking to get a new computer after my previous one failed me. I decided to head towards Carousell, as they have a more attractive price ranged, for those which I believe are lightly used (2 years or less), I manage to "snipe" 2 good PCs, totalling around $2000 for both of them, with one at $1.4k with 2 monitors and another at $550.

We then decided to start this podcast to talk and discuss about different tech stuff, from rating set ups, to reviewing listings; no frill style!

Was exploring the potential of an upcoming tech podcast with my twitch mod while I was shopping for a new PC and we decided to make it happen. It's been awhile since we'd done podcast together and it's really nice to have found a great balance where it lies within our common interest.

Named Skem or Dayum, this casual and light podcast is a 20min byte size tech reacts, from 2nd hand price builds to set up reviews, Skem or Dayum goes on a conquest see if there's anything's worth that bang for that buck out that.

Never would I expected to be doing a podcast about my first love as my intention was just doing a podcast recording, and it happen to be on valentine's day. It is apparent that this particular day has lost its meaning over time as I grow up, becoming less of the dreamy childlike romantic but more of... an ordinary adult.

But that being said I also travelled down the thought rabbit hole or how I loved much more passionately back then, and how Valentine's day is a day and a reminder of the romantic in me, somewhere.. in there.

A podcast episode on what I went through today and some brief updates of my life and anxiety. 

Today I head over to the hospital for my regular therapy session and we moved on to conducting Traumatic Incident Reduction (TIR); a method where most doctors use to deal with PTSD patients. I was asked to remember, and try to reorganize the information and details of my accident, repeatedly. It is bitterly cathartic but definitely needed. 

I left the session feeling down when everything starts crashing to me at home. It was a tiring day... and I really needed a break.

In this episode, I decided to share my experience during my company's goal-setting meeting. I guess it hits me to some extent, as I was made to write and think about my current state, emotions, feelings and also this session is pretty exploratory with the questions directed. And I guess I left this session with more question and answers, but wiser as to the path that I should seek out down the road in 2023.

Like how the title feel, I'm back from a long hiatus, as I got buried with work and personal matters. Perhaps I have been shutting off and haven't been feeling, as fatigue only lull me to bed right after I'm back home. I haven't been playing games even, and my leisure time consists mostly of staring into space. But one thing I know for sure; I want to get back to things. So I took this Chinese New Year holiday as a break to kick start the projects that I'd paused.

A new year doesn't feel like a new canvas, but only a continuation of an old one. We might have a new picture to paint, different colours, or different paintbrushes, but we are still working on the same ol' canvas; Us.

Perhaps it's middle-age crisis speaking, or perhaps I am no longer as young and fearless anymore. No longer as adventurous, my body isn't as great as it use to be, and my spirit is dampened from work; seeking solace over weekends or quiet nights hunching over a book or huddling under my sheets watching Netflix.

I guess... at the end of everything, I do prefer some sort of stability, and mundane. And understanding this mundane is nothing special, nothing magical, afterall.

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