Today’s episode is the first in a two-part series on mixed orientation marriage and same sex attraction in the LDS church. Guest Sarah Nicholson shares how her husband’s disclosure that he was a gay man may have led to the end of their marriage, but it was actions taken by the LDS church leaders that rocked her faith and led to the end of Sarah’s participation in the church.

Here’s what Sarah realized when her husband came out to her: “I knew that he was a wonderful man, and what I thought I knew about homosexuality changed at that moment, because if that was him, there was no way it could be an intrinsically bad thing…I cried for two things: I cried for the pain that the LGBT individuals go through as members of the LDS church and their struggles, and I cried for the uncertainty of my marriage.”