Still Coloring with Toni Collier

Tori shares the story behind her new book Safe House and introduces us to Tanya—the woman who welcomed Tori during some of the hardest moments of her childhood, gave her somewhere to live after she aged out of foster care, and still keeps a key available so Tori always has a safe place to land.

Together, Toni and Tori unpack why hospitality is about so much more than opening your home.

It’s about access and presence.

Listening well.

Building trust.

Making room.

And being willing to love people closely enough that it actually costs you something.

Toni also gets vulnerable about overcoming her own fear of opening her home and what she is learning through hosting a small group for single moms around her table.

This conversation asks all of us a challenging question:

Do people experience the welcome of Jesus when they experience us?

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Watch the full conversation at YouTube.com/@tonijcollier and share this episode with someone who wants to become a safer, more present, more Jesus-like person.

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What does it actually look like to keep going when you’re tired enough to quit?

In this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni sits down with author and friend Kaitlin Chappell Rogers for a vulnerable, practical conversation about perseverance, failure, burnout, motherhood, rejection, obedience, spiritual warfare, and learning how to take life one next step at a time.

Kaitlin shares the winding journey from broadcast journalism to writing, the dreams God asked her to surrender, and how some of the fruit she prayed for took nearly a decade to see.

She also opens up about one of the darkest seasons of her life and the reality that perseverance does not always look strong or impressive.

Sometimes it looks like finding one reason to stay for one more day.

Toni gets vulnerable about her own fear of failure and how that fear can sometimes keep us from even starting the things God has called us to do.

Together, they unpack the idea of everyday perseverance:

You do not have to solve your whole life today.

You do not have to carry tomorrow today.

You do not have to eat the whole elephant.

Sometimes you just need to ask:

“God, what is the next right thing?”

And then ask Him for the grace to do that.

One of the most powerful reminders from this conversation is simple:

Crawling still counts.

If you are exhausted, burned out, scared to fail, grieving, overwhelmed, or wondering if you have enough left to keep going, this episode is for you.

Grab Kaitlin’s new book She Just Won’t Quit: Embracing the Practice of Everyday Perseverance here:

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Watch the full episode on YouTube.com/@tonijcollier and share it with someone who needs the reminder that they do not have to do everything today.

They just need the next right step.

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What happens when your life looks nothing like the plan?

On this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni sits down with Mac & Kenz, founders of Delight Ministries and authors of This Wasn’t the Plan, for a vulnerable conversation about feeling stuck, disappointment with God, unanswered prayer, surrender, sin, faith, and what it looks like to keep moving when God does not change your circumstances the way you hoped.

Kenz shares about years of chronic illness and the spiritual crisis that came when she prayed for healing but her symptoms remained. What eventually changed wasn’t immediately her body—it was how she understood God’s presence in her pain.

Mac opens up about reaching a point where life looked incredible externally while internally she felt deeply empty and lonely, eventually moving back into her parents’ basement with no plan for what came next.

Together, they unpack a practical framework from Matthew 7:7:

Ask. Seek. Knock.

Ask Jesus better questions.

Seek evidence of His faithfulness.

And then knock—take the next brave step and trust Him with the door.

They also talk about the hidden places of sin and shame we desperately try to keep locked away from Jesus. Toni shares vulnerably about her own battle with pornography and lust and how inviting God and trusted community into that hidden room became part of her freedom.

If you’ve been thinking:

“God, this wasn’t the plan…”

this conversation is for you.

Grab Mac & Kenz’s new book This Wasn’t the Plan on Amazon through this link: https://amzn.to/4hlmaL2 

And if the Still Coloring Podcast has encouraged you, consider supporting the show through the donation link in the show notes as Toni continues building the podcast while raising her kids as a single mom.

Watch the full episode at YouTube.com/@tonijcollier and send it to someone who needs a reminder that feeling stuck does not mean God has stopped moving.

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How do you keep your joy when life keeps giving you reasons to lose it?

On this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni sits down with Air1’s Lacy Abercrombie for a hilarious and deeply vulnerable conversation about what they call “sticky joy”—the kind of joy that can exist alongside grief, disappointment, addiction, and pain.

Lacy shares her journey from people-pleasing and searching for identity in other people to discovering who she was through actually following Jesus.

She also gets vulnerable about addiction, losing her ministry job, hiding from accountability, becoming dependent on alcohol, and the moment God used another woman’s obedience to help lead her toward sobriety.

Toni shares her own experience of turning to alcohol after divorce and realizing that something she used for temporary relief had slowly become an idol.

Then the conversation shifts into grief as Lacy shares about losing her brother DJ to addiction, seeing him days before his death, and singing “Goodness of God” at his funeral.

Together they wrestle with a hard question:

How can God still be good when life still hurts?

This conversation is a reminder that joy does not require denial.

Sometimes joy looks like finding one thing to hold onto today.

A Scripture.

A prayer.

A friend.

A worship song.

Or simply:

“Jesus, help me.”

If you’re grieving, fighting an unhealthy pattern, rebuilding your faith, or wondering why following Jesus hasn’t suddenly made life easier, this episode is for you.

Watch the full conversation on YouTube.com/@tonijcollier and send it to someone who needs a little sticky joy today.

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Myesha shares what it was like to leave an 18-year marriage and suddenly lose friendships, relationships, identity, and parts of her faith along the way. Together, Toni and Myesha talk about the messy reality of healing — where grief and relief can exist at the same time, where pain does not disappear overnight, and where freedom sometimes looks like simply taking the next right step.

They also dive into the importance of learning from your pain, taking accountability without blaming yourself, surrendering unanswered questions to God, telling the truth without becoming bitter, and giving your children permission to have their own relationship with each parent.

And when it comes to dating after betrayal, Myesha offers one unforgettable reminder:

“Anything harmful loves speed.”

This episode is for anyone learning how to trust themselves again, rebuilding after divorce or heartbreak, or trying to figure out what life looks like on the other side of survival.

Because healing does not mean erasing your story.

It means learning how to carry it differently.

Watch the full episode on YouTube.com/@tonijcollier and share it with someone who needs hope that there really is freedom after the ending.

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What happens when healing becomes the destination instead of part of our discipleship?

After my reel about becoming so obsessed with healing that we forget to become holy reached millions of people, I knew we needed a deeper conversation.

In this episode, Me and Chris Cook sit down to talk about the difference between healing that makes us more self-focused and healing that actually makes us more like Jesus.

We’re talking about self-awareness, surrender, boundaries, triggers, identity, personal responsibility and the uncomfortable truth that sometimes we can learn all the therapeutic language…and still resist transformation.

Healing matters. Therapy matters. Processing your story matters.

But the goal was never simply to become more aware of yourself.

The goal is freedom. Wholeness. Surrender. Love. And becoming more like Christ.

This conversation is for anyone who has done the work, learned the language and protected their peace—but is wondering whether God may be inviting them into something deeper.

Watch until the end, then tell us in the comments:

Has your healing journey made you more like Jesus—or just more focused on yourself?

Subscribe for honest conversations about faith, healing, relationships and rebuilding your life with hope.

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Drawing from her own experience of enduring repeated infidelity in marriage, Toni shares the things she wishes she had understood when she first discovered betrayal—and the practical steps she believes can help you move from panic toward clarity.

Reminders in this episode:

Do not make a permanent decision from a temporarily flooded place.

You are allowed to be devastated.

You are allowed to ask questions.

You are allowed to create space.

And you are allowed to take your time before deciding what happens next.

This episode is not telling everyone to divorce. And it is not telling everyone to stay.

It is about finding safe people, establishing truth, creating healthy boundaries, praying for wisdom, and paying attention to whether the person who betrayed you is actually willing to take responsibility and do the work required for reconciliation.

Toni also talks about three common responses to betrayal: revenge, self-blame, and rushing to repair everything immediately. 

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Remember: broken crayons still color, and God is not finished with your story.

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If you’ve been asking:

Where is God in my pain?
How do I forgive someone who hurt me?
How do I get consistent with the Bible?
Why is my rebuilding taking so long?

This episode is for you.

Because God is not asleep on the job.

Watch the full episode on YouTube.com/@tonijcollier and leave your question for Part 2.

Special thanks to Our Daily Bread Ministries + God Hears Her for sponsoring the Still Coloring Podcast. Be sure to watch Toni’s Unshakeable Moxie Bible study series for free through this link: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie

Broken crayons still color. 🖍️

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What if you don’t need another goal…you just need a reset?

In this episode of the Still Coloring Podcast, Toni sits down with certified Christian health coach and Healthy by Heather Brown host Heather Brown for a practical, faith-filled conversation about caring for your mind, body, and soul without turning health into another exhausting thing to achieve.

Heather shares the framework behind her new book, The Sunday Reset, and challenges us to stop letting life simply happen to us and start intentionally building our weeks with God.

Together, Toni and Heather talk about finding your “why” for health, meal planning, movement, mental health, stress, consistency, grief, anxiety, surrender, and why getting healthy should be less about looking a certain way and more about having the capacity to live the life God has called you to.

Heather also leads Toni through a practical breathing exercise for stress—and y’all, Toni almost ended the podcast to go take a nap. 😂

One of the biggest reminders from this conversation?

We may not have the power to stop life from being hard, but we can create more capacity in our bodies to hold the hard.

This episode is for the woman who is tired of starting over, setting goals she cannot sustain, running herself into the ground, or constantly trying to move faster than God.

Maybe you don’t need to completely reinvent your life.

Maybe you just need to reset it with God.

Pre-order Heather Brown’s new book The Sunday Reset and access her bonus reset and meal-planning resources through this link: https://mylifewellloved.com/ 

Be sure to follow Heather and listen to the Healthy by Heather Brown podcast wherever you listen to podcasts.

And special thanks to our Still Coloring Podcast sponsor Our Daily Bread Ministries. Watch Toni’s Unshakeable Moxie Bible study series for FREE through the link here: https://go.odb.org/broken-crayons-moxie 

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Share this episode with a friend who has been holding everything together and needs permission to stop, breathe, and reset.

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