In this very first episode of BFTA we explore one of the most frightening parts of the abyss, coming face to face with the desperate need to die. Elizabeth woke up five days after her near fatal suicide attempt and found herself with another chance--  this is her story of finding a new way to live and be in this world.

Helpful websites on:

Bipolar disorder
https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/bipolar-disorder/index.shtml

Clozapine
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25346322

https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lanpsy/article/PIIS2215-0366(16)30081-5/fulltext

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/7883728

Ketamine
https://www.knowablemagazine.org/article/mind/2019/listening-ketamine

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/getting-the-inside-dope-on-ketamine-rsquo-s-mysterious-ability-to-rapidly-relieve-depression/

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/28749092

Dr. H and Back from the Abyss
https://www.craigheacockmd.com

Dr. Craig Heacock is an adolescent/adult psychiatrist and addiction specialist in Colorado. He was a co-therapist in the Phase 3 trial of MDMA-Assisted Psychotherapy for PTSD and has particular interest in the use of ketamine and other psychedelics to treat severe mood disorders and PTSD.  He is a graduate of the University of New Mexico School of Medicine and did his psychiatry training at Brown University.