The Hopeaholics

At the height of her addiction, Abbey Fickley lost custody of her daughter to her own parents. Then, in one of the most painful turning points of her life, her father pressed felony charges against her. What followed was a journey through addiction, motherhood, sobriety, and the difficult reality of rebuilding a life in recovery.

In this powerful episode of The Hopeaholics Podcast, we sit down with Abbey Fickley, a mother and recovery advocate, to discuss the devastating impact of substance abuse on her family, the heartbreak of losing custody of her daughter, and the life-changing decisions that ultimately pushed her toward sobriety.

Abbey opens up about navigating addiction as a single mother, the consequences of substance use disorder, and the complicated role of tough love in addiction recovery. When her parents stepped in to protect her daughter, Abbey was forced to confront the reality of her addiction and the damage it was causing to the people she loved most.

She also reflects on her father's decision to press felony charges against her, a painful experience that became a pivotal moment in her recovery journey. Through accountability, healing, and a commitment to change, Abbey began rebuilding her life and repairing the relationships that addiction had impacted.

This conversation goes beyond addiction and sobriety. It's about motherhood, family intervention, generational healing, forgiveness, and what it truly takes to break free from the cycle of addiction.

For anyone struggling with addiction, navigating recovery as a parent, or loving someone battling substance abuse, Abbey's story is a reminder that even when everything feels lost, recovery and a different future are possible.

Watch this powerful conversation with Abbey Fickley on The Hopeaholics Podcast.

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At 18 years old, Ian Bick was running a nightclub and booking major artists. Just a few years later, everything came crashing down — leaving him facing massive debt, federal charges, and ultimately three years in federal prison.

In this episode of The Hopeaholics Podcast, Ian Bick shares the unbelievable rise, fall, and comeback that completely changed the course of his life.

Ian opens up about the pressure of finding success so young, the decisions that led to his federal conviction, what life was really like behind bars, solitary confinement, and the reality of rebuilding your life after prison. But Ian’s story didn’t end there.

After his release, he eventually turned his experiences into a platform for second chances, redemption, and conversations about the criminal justice system. Today, he is the host of Locked In with Ian Bick, where he sits down with former inmates, law enforcement, attorneys, victims, and others to tell stories from every side of the system.

This is a conversation about ambition, consequences, accountability, resilience, and what it takes to rebuild after losing everything.

$1.2 MILLION in Debt & Facing Federal Prison with Ian Bick | The Hopeaholics Rereleased

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In this re-released episode of The Hopeaholics Podcast #109, Orange County Sheriff Don Barnes shares warnings about fentanyl, the rise of counterfeit pills and the programs his department developed as the crisis grew. Sheriff Don Barnes has spent more than 35 years in law enforcement and has been confronting the fentanyl crisis in Orange County since his department began seeing the drug in 2015. 

Barnes discusses naloxone deployment by deputies, medication-assisted treatment inside the jail, reentry programs, counterfeit pills sold as Xanax, Percocet and Adderall, social media drug sales, youth drug education, mental health crisis response and why he believes there is no single solution to fentanyl.

We Should Have Seen the Fentanyl Crisis Coming w/ Sheriff Don Barnes | Re-Release #109

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0:00:00 Intro
0:05:54 Orange County starts seeing fentanyl in 2015
0:13:41 Addiction treatment inside the Orange County Jail
0:16:15 Prop 47, drug arrests and consequences for addiction
0:23:56 Marijuana, psychosis and the developing brain
0:29:19 Addiction, mental illness and homelessness
0:32:31 Why short insurance stays fail people in treatment
0:36:55 Reentry, relapse risk and counterfeit pills
0:41:35 "If it's not from a pharmacist, it's fentanyl"
0:50:02 Kids selling fentanyl and the changing drug market
0:52:39 Cartels, trafficking and border security
1:00:45 Overdose vs. poisoning
1:05:38 Fentanyl dealers, murder charges and criminal liability
1:12:13 Barnes recalls years of warnings about fentanyl
1:18:36 How Narcan races against fentanyl
1:25:59 What Orange County's death investigations show about addiction
1:36:20 Fentanyl deaths among teens and talking to your kids
1:52:51 The arrest Barnes says helped change one man's life
2:01:24 Mental health stigma and Orange County's Be Well centers
2:16:11 Chad: "This is a podcast that I wish never existed"
2:19:45 Chad thanks the deputies who helped save his life
2:22:43 Preventable deaths, education and final thoughts

Retired Long Beach Fire Captain James Owen spent his career running toward other people’s emergencies while addiction, trauma, and post-traumatic stress were building behind the badge.

In this episode of The Hopeaholics, James opens up about the murder of his close friend and fellow firefighter Captain Dave Rosa, surviving a motorcycle crash that broke his neck, losing and rebuilding his sobriety, and the realization that ultimately changed his life: after spending his career trying to save everyone else, the last patient he needed to save was himself.

James joined the Long Beach Fire Department and built the career he had dreamed about, eventually becoming a fire captain. But as the job became more of his identity, his recovery began to disappear. After years of sobriety, James found himself drinking again while dealing with divorce, overwhelming stress, internal investigations, traumatic calls, and the cumulative weight of life as a first responder.

James also discusses first responder PTSD and suicide, Alcoholics Anonymous, Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families (ACA), nonlinear recovery, alternative recovery modalities, the importance of continuing to seek new ways to heal, and his book, The Last Patient.

Firefighter PTSD, Addiction & the Cost of Being "Tough" w/ James Owen | The Hopeaholics Podcast #363

Rachel Sereni is co-host of the 2 Girls in a Chair podcast and sober for over 2 years. She grew up mostly alone with her little sister while their dad worked two jobs, because their mother was addicted to opiates and spent most of Rachel's early childhood nodding out on the couch. Rachel got a DUI after she left work early to drink and forgot to pick up her son from school, woke up in jail with her car impounded and her son at his grandma's house. By the end of her drinking she was 221 pounds, had over 32 W2s because she couldn't hold a job, and was blacking out most nights and cursing out her husband without remembering any of it. On April 10th, 2024, she drove to a parking lot with a bottle of wine and two shooters for one last hurrah, got halfway through the wine, started throwing a tantrum in her front seat and almost kicked her windshield in. She got out, threw everything into a field, and landed on her knees sobbing. She drove home, woke up April 11th, and that was her sobriety date. She's been sober since, lost 80 pounds, and chose April 11th as the date she married her husband.

Rachel also announces an amazing surprise for the very first time in our show's history!

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00:00 — Intro
04:00 — Pregnancy Announcement
08:00 — Day one of sobriety: got on the scale, saw 221
13:29 — In and out of halfway homes with Mom
15:14 — Mom came back at 11
16:57 — Mom had numerous overdoses
17:31 — The night mom died
21:51 — Daily drinking by 19; violent, fighting people;
22:20 — Found out she was pregnant
23:33 — The friend nobody wanted to go out with
24:18 — Left work early to drink; forgot to pick son up; woke up in jail
29:40 — The surrender moment
31:39 — Friend did an intervention while she was the one who got Rachel drunk
33:17 — Started 2 Girls in a Chair with Jessica
36:41 — She thought she'd never genuinely laugh again
37:49 — Addiction doesn't have to define your whole personality
43:55 — "I married the love of my life the day I got my life back."
46:41 — Grief in sobriety
47:24 — Started EMDR for PTSD from seeing her mom's body
50:47 — Not continuing EMDR while pregnant
53:33 — What you feel during pregnancy, the baby feels
54:33 — Her son forgives her
57:22 — Blackout drinking
57:47 — How alcohol is glamorized vs what it actually is
1:02:19 — AA experiences mirror bad church experiences
1:07:04 — How she and Jessica met
1:09:14 — Grew up with no mother; all mother figures have passed

Jesse Sanchez was 11 the first time he smoked weed, 14 when he tried cocaine and opiates, and 17 when he looked up from a carpet covered in crack and thought "holy s***, what are we doing." He eventually landed on heroin as his drug of choice and spent three years hiding it from his wife, driving 4.5 hours round trip to his dealer while she thought he was at work, once using a co-worker's real funeral as cover to go pick up. When she finally found out, he ended up on his sister's couch in Washington sweating it out, then a year in AA still drinking, still taking chips for heroin. He's been six years off heroin, four years fully clean.

Six months into his final sobriety, his brother Julian had died from fentanyl poisoning. The depression that followed got dark enough that when the thought of taking his son with him crossed his mind, it scared him into finally getting real help.

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0:00    — Into
2:07    — The shirt: in memory of Julian
7:43    — Parents divorced when he was 2
8:14    — Age 11: first smoked weed with a friend, not his brother
10:06   — Age 14: no weed around, tried cocaine
13:17   — Age 17: became a crackhead
14:12   — Opiates vs everything else
17:15   — When pills got scarce, friends switched to heroin
18:06   — Met his wife from Ukraine
23:17   — Wife caught him, admitted pills, never mentioned heroin
32:37   — Used a co-worker's real funeral as cover to go pick up drugs
34:30   — Confessing addiction to wife
42:45   — Detoxing at sister's house
45:18   — 6 years off heroin, never touched it since
46:04   — Tried AA while still drinking
51:22   — Relapsed on cocaine at work, told his sponsor
55:24   — Mom calls to tell me my brother died
58:20   — 800-pound steel tube cut his fingertips off on the job
1:04:39 — Staying sober through brother's death
1:09:05 — Rock bottom in sobriety
1:17:33 — What turned the corner: therapy, EMDR
1:21:06 — What you tell your sponsor vs what you tell a therapist

Jessica Nolin is a content creator, recovery advocate, and co-host of 2 Girls in a Chair podcast. Jessica's dad dealt drugs her entire childhood and helped manage her anxiety by giving her a vodka orange at 12 along with random pills she didn't even know the names of. By 15 she was drinking daily. A few years ago she detoxed at home alone over nine days without telling anyone, sleeping an hour at a time, still showing up to work and helping customers on the sales floor between rounds of throwing up. What got her through it was sheer will and a decision she made going in that she wasn't going to be ashamed of it. After those nine days she started figuring out what sobriety actually looked like for her and found an Instagram community of people in recovery just by putting herself out there during a dry January and posting every day. Today she has two years sober, a genuine support system, and is continuing to share her experiences and spread her message with her content. 

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01:12 — Jessica Nolin
04:38 — Parents were 17 and 18
05:27 — Struggling with anxiety and depression
06:28 — First drink at 12: dad gave her a vodka orange for her anxiety
11:46 — Living in dad's trap house
19:24 — Hair falling out, throwing up every day
25:42 — Grandpa and dad sold drugs
30:00 — Moment of clarity
31:47 — Nine days of home detox
33:46 — What's kept her sober
35:49 — Radical self-acceptance
36:46 — How she met Rachel and started their podcast
42:58 — Dad is still using; relationship with mom is better now
43:48 — Why she does this

Adam Wittbrodt is a personal trainer and recovery advocate. He grew up with an alcoholic father who walked out on his 12th birthday and died before Adam turned 19. Carrying grief Adam spent the next decade and a half burying under IV heroin, forged checks, and 8 felonies. One day he collapsed at the front desk where he worked after injecting what he thought was heroin. It was laced with fentanyl and cocaine. A hotel guest walked in at exactly the right moment and called 911. Three weeks into county jail after that, he heard himself tell his cellmate he was pissed that the paramedics had saved him. That was the break. He went through Midland County Recovery Court, then treatment at Harbor Hall in Petoskey. Sober June 22nd, 2016. He has 10 years, runs a personal training operation with 100+ clients, a fitness and recovery program inside the Midland County Juvenile Justice Center, and co-hosts the Level Up Life podcast.

I Used To Do Heroin At Work Now I'm 10 Years Sober w/ Adam Wittbrodt | The Hopeaholics Podcast #359

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0:00   — Intro
0:58   — Adam Wittbrodt
11:59  — Cigarettes at 13 to IV heroin
12:53  — First Vicodin prescription at 14
14:50  — "Maybe if I do what my dad did, I'll understand him"
16:34  — Dad dies; $10K in life insurance gone in a month
18:29  — First 90 days in jail at 21
21:06  — The Curry Hotel: 3 × 80mg Oxy loaded into one shot
23:24  — Conning doctors
25:08  — 23 months to 14 years
30:00  — Grandmother dying in the ICU
31:20  — Using laced Heroine at work 
33:06  — It was fentanyl and cocaine: just hitting the market in 2016
33:52  — Survivor's remorse: "Why was I saved?"
35:42  — The ER should treat addiction like a diabetic emergency
52:32  — 7th and 8th felonies, $500K bond
1:03:23 — 10 years sober; 210 meetings in 210 days
1:14:37 — Building the personal training business
1:15:48 — The Rebuild Program
1:19:52 — 300 fentanyl deaths a day: why he thinks he was saved

At 18 Riley moved to LA, got into the adult entertainment industry, made fast money, found cocaine & alcohol, and ran that combination through her entire 20s.  In 2023 she got pregnant but couldn't stop using. She missed 2 Christmases that she blamed on her daughter being sick when it was Riley being hungover. Riley's breaking point was being in closet at 4am doing coke, convinced there were people in her house that weren't there, called 911, the operator told her to get some sleep and hung up, and she grabbed her daughter and drove 80 miles an hour to her ex's parents' house to try and convince them they needed safety.


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00:00 Intro
01:40 Riley Jensen
06:40 The family disease
08:32 Doing P*** at 18yo
14:14 First attempt at sobriety
16:23 Pregnant and couldn't stop
18:28 Post partum addiction
20:06 Going Into Psychosis
22:33 Walking into AA, 3 times a day, the first 60 days
31:55 First sober airplane and vacation
35:51 80-year-old sponsor
39:43 Dad chaired her first meeting
43:18 Breaking the cycle
56:24 "This is me. This is the real Erica."

Nate Block is a professional crisis de-escalation instructor with Jumpstart Mastery, traveling the country to train correctional departments and agencies on how to work with people in crisis. Nate dropped out of high school and spent the years that followed bouncing between apartments, bar shows, and eventually a college town he moved to chasing a girl, working odd jobs and drinking past the point where it felt like a choice, past the point where it was the only thing that made him feel like he was worth being alive. At 19 he made his first suicide attempt, and he'd make 3 more over the years that followed. Today Nate is 13 years sober and he's 60 days into "The Weight We Carry," a rucking challenge he built from scratch where he adds 1lb into a pack and runs a mile until he can't anymore; for 1 goal: to force men to talk about suicide.

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0:00:00 Intro
0:05:26 Oklahoma City bombing
0:08:48 "Childhood ends the moment you realize your own mortality"
0:14:16 Finding out he was adopted at 12
0:17:44 First drink at 13: punk rock and playing bars at 15
0:25:57 A friend is killed, dropout at 15
0:32:10 Drinking was the only thing that made me feel worthy
0:33:03 4 close call suicide attempts
0:36:29 "There is a big difference between reactive and premeditated"
0:38:05 "I heard a voice that wasn't mine"
0:46:09 1lb a day for men's suicide prevention
0:51:00 Men's suicide and the cost of being told to toughen up
0:53:50 Reasons to Stay: writing letters to people who are reaching out
0:54:13 You have no idea how good it can get
0:57:08 Firefighting
0:58:33 2 kids from his safety class didn't make it out
1:13:36 What he does now: crisis de-escalation, men's coaching
1:21:43 "Don't doubt the addicts"
1:23:04 Mama Bird pushes the babies out of the nest