These last few days have been really uncomfortable and at times painful, as I am staying with what’s going on. No numbing, no trying to change it. I feel the pain, I feel the grief as I see again and again where my mind goes to… the stories it tells, the narrative that’s been going on for so long, most of the time unnoticed. 

“Unconscious mind activity makes you unhappy” says Eckhart Tolle, and I am seeing more of this activity now. I am experiencing “feeling” like I’m unwanted, ‘low vibe’, ‘a failure’… The deep feeling of not ‘enoughness’, and of rejection. 

I was reflecting on that today, and the fact that some people weren’t answering my messages (yet), and how my mind was going to habitual and painful narratives. I realized again how these were opportunities I am thankful for. Opportunities to actually observe those narratives. 

And less than five minutes later, I received a message… haha! A wink from the Universe, like a confirmation. 

“Yeah! You’ve unlocked the next level at the game of life.”

All of it is a mirror. Life is mirroring ‘yourself’ back to you. 

This story of rejection is a very old story, but what is new is seeing the nuances and being present when it emerges, instead of lost in the mind’s story. And I am so grateful for that, because this is the key to the prison’s door. This is freedom, “Feel the pain and know that you are free”