I have long turned to writing as a way of, what feels like, processing or making known felt insights.

Something stirs in me and I reach for my laptop to try to put words to the knowing that is felt. I love the process of trying to match words to a feeling.

When what is written feels as complete as I can make it, I go back and reread it. I’m often struck by the wisdom, beauty and deep resonance in my words. I know I’m reading Truth.

The moment passes and if I were to reread these same words later on, they may or may not ring with resonance. The moment has passed.

If they no longer ring as they did, I’m left with a mind that jumps in and somewhat snottily points out all the ways “Sure, you write that, but that’s not how you’re living.”

In your conversation with Shelly you mention how writing like this comes through creating words for the mind to hear. My paraphrase. 

My mind jumps in and wants to control this process. Or work it somehow. I see through that. That’s the tail of the elephant judging it’s own ear and looking to fix it.

And, darn it, my mind just wants to know how this works. Is seeing a belief believed  in the light of day what dissolves the belief? 

Or sees the belief as part of the body/mind/psychology and nothing needs to be dissolved or done. Just is. IS fine?