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In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Carlos about living after unimaginable loss—and why he rejects "everything happens for a reason." Starting from a Khalil Gibran quote on suffering, Mason unpacks free will, the mixed feelings around calling grievers "strong," and the very real pull of suicidal thoughts. He shares how being a dad to Blue keeps him here, why asking for help isn't weakness, and how therapy and safe spaces made telling the truth possible. They dig into modeling resilience, honoring Kortni, Riggins, and Franki, and making meaning when life isn't fair—clear eyes, full heart, get back up. A candid guide for anyone walking through pain and trying to choose what comes next.
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In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason talks with Carlos about living after unimaginable loss—and why he rejects "everything happens for a reason." Starting from a Khalil Gibran quote on suffering, Mason unpacks free will, the mixed feelings around calling grievers "strong," and the very real pull of suicidal thoughts. He shares how being a dad to Blue keeps him here, why asking for help isn't weakness, and how therapy and safe spaces made telling the truth possible. They dig into modeling resilience, honoring Kortni, Riggins, and Franki, and making meaning when life isn't fair—clear eyes, full heart, get back up. A candid guide for anyone walking through pain and trying to choose what comes next.

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