In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, Mason sits down with Matt Meo, a Sacramento-area father and the dad of Landon — a 10-year-old boy who died of brain cancer in December 2022. Landon was funny, kind to everyone, and relentlessly trash-talked his dad. He went commando to his MRI, called out nurses who were moving too slow, had a signature move with his Pokemon cards, and called himself the Kickass Kid. He was also doing the hardest thing imaginable, and somehow got stronger doing it.

Matt talks about what it was actually like to watch his son live and die with cancer — the diagnosis that started with a word he still hates ("finding"), the MRI that changed everything, the sliver of hope that came through while boarding a plane to Disneyland, and the final 48 hours at home. He gets into the guilt that crept in at the worst possible moment, the fork in the road that came when Landon died, and what it looks like to actually go down the good path instead of the bad one.

He also gets into porn addiction — what made it an addiction, how childhood cancer didn't fix it, and how 6,000 miles of running mostly did. He talks about the experiment of pushing himself past his limits, the dream about Landon he had to earn, and why where you most want to find something is usually where you least want to look. And he talks about raising money for cancer families by running 240 miles to the Pacific Ocean — and why not crossing the finish line was the whole point.

This one goes everywhere and earns every minute of it. "What we most want to find is where we least want to look."