today we are digging deeper into my own creative fear — why and how I fear cancellation, my experience with it thus far, and what I tell myself in the face of this fear.

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Key quote from episode: 

"I fear the social death that comes with disposability culture, where Black creators are built up just to be teared down"

"I'm not fearless, I'm terrified"

"I want to love myself so much that I am never disposable; I am never worthless"

Time stamps

(00:24): quick affirmation for you

(02:46): i'm not fearless I'm terrified

(06:48): self-sabotage and fear

(20:32): disposability culture and Black creators

(28:49): what this fear stops me from doing

(31:19): my past experiences with cancellation

(42:05): what I tell myself in the face of fear

Sources mentioned: 

Book: Emergent Strategy: Shaping Change, Changing Worlds by adrienne maree brown

Book: The Mountain is You by Brianna Wiest

Essay: The Transformation of Silence into Language and Action by Audre Lorde

Podcast: The Highest Self Podcast by Sahara Rose

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