A fire alarm rang in Claire Weber's nervous system at age two and never turned off, until ibogaine finally silenced it, forty years later. This is a conversation about what happens when your first memory is the worst thing that ever happened to you, and what it takes to come back from that.

In this episode, Talia Eisenberg sits down with emotional release coach and hands-on healer Claire Weber to explore the territory of pre-verbal trauma. Claire shares how witnessing her mother's death just before her third birthday encoded a lifetime of shock, hyper vigilance, and the core belief that she was fundamentally alone. She traces her decades-long search for healing through 12-step recovery, neurofeedback and its role in repairing the brain's "mother circuit." Claire shares the distinction between pre-verbal trauma and pre-verbal shock, the daily practice of "re-mothering" her inner child, and a post-treatment car accident that confirmed her nervous system had fundamentally changed. Claire also shares her life vision to open a healing estate called Mothered, a place devoted to helping others rebuild the internal mother they never had.

Claire Weber is an emotional release coach and hands-on healer devoted to grief work, somatic healing, and nervous system repair. She works with clients to release trauma held in the body and is developing Mothered, a residential healing estate designed to help people encounter and rebuild their internal mother.

She can be found on Instagram at @bonjourclairefontaine.

Timestamps

• (00:00) Introduction to Claire's story and the landscape of pre-verbal trauma
• (03:00) Claire's first memory: witnessing her mother drown at age two
• (06:30) Childhood coping — food as a substitute for the lost mother
• (11:00) The turning point: 12-step recovery, grief rituals, and the long search for healing
• (15:00) Neurofeedback and repairing the "mother circuit" in the brain
• (20:00) Claire's ibogaine vision — reliving the drowning through a firefighter's eyes
• (39:00) The car accident that proved her nervous system had changed
• (43:00) Re-mothering, the dreamscape practice, and Claire's vision for Mothered