In today’s episode I interview Sarah. Sarah had her first pregnancy and birth with her son Arthur in Sept 2013. It was a low risk mostly easy pregnancy but after a quick and intense labour he was birthed via ventouse. The birth was traumatic and left its mark, physically in the form of a 3rd grade “c” tear and mentally with years of undiagnosed postnatal depression.    Sarah waited years in the hope that the mental and physical trauma would heal so she could add to  her family. After the start of the healing journey just shy of 3years later, she surprisingly found out she was having another baby boy.   This unfortunately got turned upside down when Aksel was stillborn at 33weeks due to severe brain malformations and after a long and traumatic pregnancy, they had no choice but to let their baby boy go, so he would not  need to ever suffer anymore pain.    Sarah described the birth of Aksel as so beautiful, peaceful and yet so heartbreaking. Hearing those newborns cries down the hallway when she knew her baby won’t come out breathing let alone crying.  It was another trauma her family sadly had endured.   Sarah is now pregnant again with not only baby no.3 but their third boy. Everything is crossed that this little guy’s journey helps rewrite over both traumas and she will get to talk about that another time I’m happier light.