BFTA takes a wild ride with Colorado based artist, writer, and video producer Ian Jaydid as he tells his double abyss story of lucid dreaming, out of body experiences, REM deprivation and transient psychosis....which then led to the blissful but ultimately destructive salve of opioids and a life changing encounter with the African psychedelic Iboga (ibogaine).

Ian Jaydid
https://ianjaydid.com

Ian's novel Tripping the Field
https://www.amazon.com/Tripping-Field-Existential-Ungodly-Proportions/dp/0991193199

Ian's first lucid dreaming experience
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-WaA3SGl9M&t=26s

Dr. H/ BFTA
https://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

In the context of an increasingly severe shortage of psychiatrists,  Dr. H discusses some uncomfortable truths about why finding a good outpatient psychiatrist is even more difficult than ever.

Psychedelics and Psychiatry-- Dr. H on The Third Wave Podcast
https://thethirdwave.co/podcast/episode-112-craig-heacock/

BFTA and Dr. H
https://www.craigheacockmd.com

The therapeutic relationship is built on trust, we come to therapy expecting that we are going to be heard and believed.

Jeanine wasn't believed-- about her childhood sexual assaults, or the emerging psychotic symptoms, or her intractable suicidality....even after many near fatal attempts and over 40 inpatient stays.

This episode looks at how and why we believe some people and discount others.  It turns out that the way people tell us their stories matters just as much as the actual words they choose. And, unfortunately, certain clinical presentations make patients/clients much less likely to be heard and believed.

A heads up-- this episode includes descriptions of childhood sexual abuse, self-harm, and suicide attempts.


Dopamine, saliency, and the onset of paranoia
https://www.nature.com/articles/s41398-020-00912-4

Borderline personality diagnosis leads to demedicalization and poor treatment
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4870819/

Inappropriate affect
https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/personality-disorders/inappropriate-affect-symptoms-and-signs/

Dr. H/BFTA
https://www.craigheacockmd.com

Some things in life defy explanation...like tripping on mushrooms and arresting the plunge into alcoholism.

Here Stella shares her story of childhood abuse and neglect, her reenactment of the abuse through toxic relationships with men, and then her life-changing sessions with both psilocybin and MDMA. Stella and Dr. H explore how she was able to first bring her dissociated and numbed self back to life with the help of psilocybin and later heal her attachment wounds and trauma with MDMA-assisted psychotherapy.

BFTA and Dr. H
http://craigheacockmd.com

Dr. H sits down with Dr. David Puder, a psychiatrist and host of the Psychiatry and Psychotherapy podcast, to explore the beauty and challenge and mystery of psychotherapy. 

What are Chris and Craig wanting for Christmas...??? How about writing us a review!

Dr. Puder and the Psychiatry and Psychotherapy podcast
https://www.psychiatrypodcast.com

Dr. H essay on psychedelic healing for CNN.com
https://www.cnn.com/2020/12/20/opinions/psychedelics-trauma-healing-this-is-life-heacock/index.html

BFTA and Dr. H
https://www.craigheacockmd.com

In most specialties of medicine, the dictum "Diagnosis guides treatment" is the law of the land. In psychiatry, however, most of what we treat are often overlapping syndromes, not actual diseases, and these syndromes involve hugely varying dimensions of symptoms with a vast array of potential causes and exacerbating factors.

Maggie came to Dr. H with a challenging clinical presentation:  likely genetic loading for a mood and/or anxiety disorder, childhood emotional neglect, years of school problems, hormone irregularities and progesterone hypersensitivity, all leading to  steadily worsening mood instability, depression, and hopelessness.  Over the course of the last 12 years, Maggie and Dr. H were eventually able to co-create both a successful treatment course and a shame-free narrative, without a clear diagnosis to guide them.

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The podcast Psychedelics Today recently released a two part interview with Will Hall, an author, podcaster, therapist, and voice of the anti-psychiatry community. This BFTA episode came about after Dr. H reached out to the hosts of PT and asked for a counterpoint to Will's complete dismissal of psychiatry as a meaningful part of the mental health treatment community. 

Here Dr. H  presents a more nuanced, balanced, and hopeful perspective, one that recognizes the harm that psychiatrists and other physicians have caused in the past and continue to cause today, while also asking that we try to lean into the positive, to identify and celebrate what works for people, to reject the black/white thinking that calls for tearing down systems which are, by their very nature, messy and imperfect, just as we humans are messy and imperfect. 

Psychedelics Today
https://psychedelicstoday.com

Dr. H and BFTA
https://www.craigheacockmd.com

Dr. H sits down with his friend Brian, who watched his daughter, and then his wife, plunge into the depressive abyss.   This is the journey of a father and husband, of a "we can fix this" engineer trying to find a path through the ambiguity and uncertainty of psychiatric treatment.

This is the second in an intermittent series of family members describing their journey of trying to support their loved ones through their darkest times.



Grief and loss raft trips (mentioned by Brian)
https://www.pathfindersforyou.org

Dr. H/Back from the Abyss
https://www.craigheacockmd.com

In this third of an intermittent series about therapists in the abyss, Dr. H sits down with his colleague  Dr. Elena Estanol, a Colorado-based psychologist, to explore Elena's "fourth dark night of the soul".  Her story serves as a springboard for exploring how to cope with the randomness of life,  learning to go inward to heal relational wounds, differentiating pain vs suffering, and finding peace with who shows up for us and who doesn't.

Dr. Elena Estanol
https://www.synapsewellness.com/

Dr. H and BFTA
https://www.craigheacockmd.com

Dr. H finds a trove of patient letters from the last 15 years and shares three of the most poignant, using each as a springboard for lessons learned.

Dr. H and BFTA
https://www.craigheacockmd.com