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Hey y'all! This is the ONE jail story I have yet to tell anywhere . Literally one of the craziest events of my entire life, and probably the wildest four days of my active addiction. As always though, there is purpose in the madness, and this story is no different. A few episodes ago my guest Kevin said that a "miracle" can just be a shift in perspective. I absolutely love that idea and today you and I are going to discuss the perspective shift that "rejection is protection." Typically when we are rejected for anything, or by someone, we feel it is based on our value - that we aren't "good enough." What if we can shift our belief system to believe that rejection is a good thing, and absolutely unrelated to our value? Let's talk about it! Let me know what ya'll think! DM on Instagram or email me [email protected] - love you guys!

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This week, we sit down with Bishop Snow an emerging hip hop artist whose story moves from police documentation to performance stages.

Raised between Oceanside and Long Beach, Bishop grew up surrounded by instability, gang culture, and early exposure to drugs. By 16, he was already documented by the gang suppression unit, immersed in a lifestyle that felt inevitable in his neighborhood. The streets were loud. The future felt small.

But somewhere between the chaos and the consequences, Bishop found a different outlet: music. Writing became his therapy. Recording became his refuge. Even as addiction tightened its grip and his focus on music faded, the spark never fully went out.

In 2019, Bishop made the decision to walk away from meth. Recovery didn’t just clear his mind, it reignited his discipline. With clarity came consistency. With consistency came growth. His health improved. His writing sharpened. His sound evolved.

Then fatherhood shifted everything. Becoming a dad at 21 forced Bishop to zoom out and get serious about his craft. What started as personal expression turned into professional pursuit, leading to viral moments, studio production, and now a tour kicking off next week.

This episode is about transformation in real time. It’s about trading gang files for tour dates, addiction for ambition, and survival for legacy. Bishop Snow’s story is proof that recovery doesn’t just restore what was lost. Sometimes it amplifies what was always there. 🎤🔥

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Kimmy’s story doesn’t begin with rebellion. It begins with survival.

Raised in a home where instability was the norm and addiction sat at the dinner table, Kimmy was introduced to meth at just ten years old when her own mother injected her. What followed was a childhood shaped by substance use, escalating mental health struggles, and self-harm that started in elementary school and grew alongside the chaos around her.

Just as Kimmy was preparing for college, two devastating deaths in her family shifted everything. Grief deepened her addiction, and pain fueled behaviors she didn’t yet have tools to heal.

In this episode, Kimmy shares the raw reality of growing up in trauma, navigating mental illness, and eventually making the brave move to California in search of treatment for both her mental health and substance use. After moving through multiple treatment centers, she has remained sober since December 24th, 2024, refusing to give up on herself or her healing.

This is a story about resilience, relapse risks, recovery, and the ongoing work of choosing life, clarity, and mental wellness every single day.

A reminder that sobriety isn’t just about putting down substances.
It’s about picking up hope. 🌱

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This week’s episode follows Rio, a woman whose story moves from chaos to clarity with raw honesty and hard-won hope.

Rio began using meth in high school, a path that quickly pulled her out of her parents’ home and into the control of an older woman who groomed her and introduced her to a traumatic, dangerous lifestyle. After graduating from an alternative school, Rio became a young mom, but addiction tightened its grip. She walked away from her baby and his father in pursuit of drugs, parties, and a life that only grew more volatile. What followed were years of chaos, including involvement with a motorcycle club and people who kept pushing her further into risk and destruction.

Eventually Rio entered treatment, relapsed once more, and then made the decision that changed everything, choosing sobriety for real. Today, she’s married, has regained custody of her son, is working on her degree at UCSD, and is driven by a powerful goal: to one day work with women in prison and help them find the same freedom she did.

This is a story about grooming, addiction, motherhood, relapse, resilience, and what’s possible when recovery finally sticks. 🌱

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If you or a loved one are struggling with mental health or substances, ⁠Worthy Wellness⁠can help.

Worthy Wellness Center is nestled within the charming village of Carlsbad, in North County, San Diego, less than half a mile from the tranquil local beaches. Worthy stands as a sanctuary wholly devoted to nurturing the healing and well-being of those in recovery. Committed to addressing the holistic needs of individuals navigating through life’s challenges, whether related to substance abuse, alcohol addiction, or mental and mood disorders, Worthy Wellness Center takes a comprehensive approach to healing the body, mind, and spirit.

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516 Recovery Center transforms lives through individualized, compassionate care that rejects the “heads and beds” model of traditional treatment. Our licensed clinical team combines evidence-based therapies with holistic wellness approaches to help individuals overcome substance use disorders, mental health challenges, and co-occurring conditions in a welcoming beachside environment where personalized attention and genuine partnership drive lasting change.

Located in Carlsbad Village by the beach, we provide comprehensive treatment services, including on-site medical detoxification, making us one of the few Southern California facilities offering the complete continuum of care under one organization.

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Born and raised in South Oceanside, California, Ian G grew up in the shadow of early loss. After his father passed away, Ian made a vow to himself he would never touch narcotics. Life, however, had other plans. After dropping out of high school, that promise slowly unraveled, giving way to years of heavy drinking and drug use marked by multiple DUIs, arrests, and mounting consequences.

In October of 2017, Ian was arrested for the last time. That moment became a turning point, leading him to his first stretch of sobriety. After one final relapse, Ian made a quiet but decisive choice on January 1st to get sober for good and this time, he stayed.

Today, Ian’s life looks radically different. He’s in a committed relationship, helping raise his stepdaughter, and thriving in a career in design. Alongside that, he’s cultivating a deep passion and talent for photography, channeling creativity into a life built on presence and purpose. This episode is a conversation about grief, broken promises, second chances, and what can grow when you finally stop running and start living.

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If you or a loved one are struggling with mental health or substances, Worthy Wellnesscan help.

Worthy Wellness Center is nestled within the charming village of Carlsbad, in North County, San Diego, less than half a mile from the tranquil local beaches. Worthy stands as a sanctuary wholly devoted to nurturing the healing and well-being of those in recovery. Committed to addressing the holistic needs of individuals navigating through life’s challenges, whether related to substance abuse, alcohol addiction, or mental and mood disorders, Worthy Wellness Center takes a comprehensive approach to healing the body, mind, and spirit.

Detox now open as well, 516 Recovery

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Located in Carlsbad Village by the beach, we provide comprehensive treatment services, including on-site medical detoxification, making us one of the few Southern California facilities offering the complete continuum of care under one organization.

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In this episode, we sit down with Skinny Vinny, comedian, content creator, and podcaster whose journey from idolizing the Jackass crew as a kid to eventually working alongside them is anything but linear.

Vinny’s story begins on a skateboard, smoking weed and chasing adrenaline, before escalating into a painkiller addiction and eventually heroin. His use cost him nearly everything, including housing. At one point, he was homeless in Vermont, living in a porta potty. After making his way to Los Angeles, Vinny spent three months on Skid Row, a period that marked one of the lowest points of his addiction and survival.

Instead, sobriety opened a different path. Through recovery and a series of unlikely chance encounters, Vinny found himself not only back on his feet but working with the very people he once idolized, including co-hosting Steve-O’s hit podcast Wild Ride.

Vinny’s journey is a powerful reminder that addiction does not get the final say. Even after periods of deep suffering and instability, it is possible to reclaim creativity, purpose, and long-held dreams. This conversation is about resilience, recovery, and what can happen when someone chooses to keep going.

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Today is a little different! I’m sharing a recording from a twelve-step meeting where I gave the lead a few years ago. It’s a simple, honest breakdown of the Twelve Steps and the process of actually working them, not as a rulebook or a rigid formula, but as a deeply personal experience.

I’ve always felt that the steps are essentially free, personalized therapy. They ask us to look at our patterns, our pain, our responsibility, and our capacity for change with a level of honesty that most of us were never taught. In this lead, I walk through how the steps build on one another, why they matter, and what they’ve given me beyond just staying sober.

Whether you’re new to recovery, thinking about working the steps, coming back after time away, or just curious about why they’ve helped so many people for so long, this episode offers a clear, human look at the process and why it still works.

No perfection. No preaching. Just one addict’s experience with a framework that helped turn survival into something that finally felt like a life. 🌱

If you or a loved one are navigating substance use or mental health concerns, please check out our sponsor ⁠Worthy Wellness Center⁠, a luxury mental health and SUD treatment center in San Diego, CA.

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Today, I am joined by my best friends of over thirty years, Keri, Scott “Gumpy” and Barbara. They are not in recovery - which is actually why I wanted them on the show and what hopefully makes this conversation meaningful and different for you guys, too. I wanted to hear from the people who loved me through addiction without ever experiencing it themselves, and to explore what it is like on the other side of an addict friendship.

Together, they reflect on watching a childhood friend slowly self destruct. The confusion, fear, frustration, and helplessness. The moments they tried to step in, the times they did not know how, and the emotional toll of caring deeply without having control. Their honesty offers a compassionate and often overlooked perspective for anyone who has loved someone struggling with substance use.

The conversation is not all heavy, though!. Woven throughout are the shared memories that come from growing up together. Field parties, driving around in a fake cop car, and me calling Barbara as an adult to talk to my mom for me. The kind of stories only lifelong friends can tell.

This episode is for friends, family members, and loved ones who have walked alongside addiction. Those who stayed close, those who pulled away, and those still trying to understand it all. Thoughtful, warm, and deeply human.

If you or a loved one are navigating substance use or mental health concerns, please check out our sponsor Worthy Wellness Center, a luxury mental health and SUD treatment center in San Diego, CA.

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This episode is a real-time holiday check in with me and my husband as we talk about what sobriety looks like during one of the most emotionally charged seasons of the year. We reflect on past holidays when substances were part of how we coped, numbed, or survived, and how different things look now with intention, communication, and boundaries.

We also pause to acknowledge a milestone. My husband shares where he is at just over two years sober, specifically how his program and mental health have evolved.

Together, we talk about the stress of family dynamics, expectations, grief, finances, and the nonstop pace of the season, along with the practical ways we take care of ourselves so resentment and burnout do not quietly take the wheel. From checking in with each other, to protecting our routines, to knowing when to opt out instead of powering through, this episode is about choosing sobriety on purpose when things feel loud and heavy.

If the holidays have ever made you question your recovery, miss old coping mechanisms, or feel alone in the effort it takes to stay grounded, this conversation is for you. You are not weak for feeling it. You are human. And you are allowed to do the holidays differently now.

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Y'all, my guest today, Toni Becker is absolutely incredible.

Toni lives in South Africa and is a content creator with twelve years sober. Toni was plagued by disordered eating years before her addictions to meth and alcohol began. Years of partying led to homelessness, meth psychosis and severe illness and kidney failure.

In sobriety, Toni was still struggling with disordered eating. Treatment in sobriety finally helped her with that struggle. Later in sobriety, she developed facial dysmorphia induced by social media expectations and filters. Talking about these issues in sobriety was fascinating and I learned so much from Toni!

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