When Liz Tichenor's mother killed herself, it would have been hard to imagine a loss more crushing, even though her mother had struggled with addiction for most of Liz' life. But shortly after that Liz' son, only forty days old, died inexplicably and sent Liz into a territory of loss and grief unfamiliar to her. As she struggled to carry herself through those most terrible days, she knew that her work as an Episcopal priest would be forever impacted. She also knew she had to tell the truth; to herself, her children and her parishioners. Her message would now carry the deep experience of her grief and the life she built going forward. She would never be the same- and she would offer everything she learned in this deepest time to the people she leads.