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What if you’re not behind in love?

In this deeply personal and illuminating transmission, Catrina shares the long arc of her 19-year Saturn Mahadasha — a sacred timeline of karmic relationships, feminine refinement, heartbreak, discipline, and devotion. Through the lens of Jyotish (Vedic astrology), she unpacks how Saturn initiates us into emotional maturity, spiritual leadership, and sovereign self-love.

If you’ve ever felt like your path is slower, heavier, or more serious than others… this episode is for you.  It's a sweet reminder that Saturn's delays bear inevitable fruit, not the least of which is the most exquisite expansion you'll ever taste. And for feminine leaders, the love of your life often arrives only once you’ve become the woman who is fully a match to it.

🔥 Inside, we explore:

The soul’s karmic blueprint through Saturn Mahadasha & Sade Sati

The difference between Western & Vedic astrology (and why it matters)

What Catrina looks for in Jyotish compatibility when dating intentionally

The evolution from karmic entanglement to sovereign love

Saturn in synastry, the D9 chart, and dharmic partnership

Why Saturn teaches us to play the long game — in love, in legacy, and in becoming unshakable

This is for the woman walking the path of devotion, discipline, and divine timing.

In this episode, I share a raw transmission recorded during 2023's Saturn Retrograde. I was in the 2nd phase of my Sade Sati (Saturn's transit through the house before, of and after the moon) and the 17th year (of 19 years) of my Saturn Mahadasha. This is from the lens of Jyotish / Vedic Astrology.

This is for the woman ready to meet her shadows, rise through devotion, and lead from embodied truth.

Let's explore multiple orgasms, multi-orgasmic experiences and orgasmic states.

Inspired by her own journey into understanding her sexuality, Catrina passionately shares her early childhood experiences with erotic energy and evolution towards embracing multi-orgasmic states and exploring pleasure beyond traditional perspectives. Through her compelling narrative, Catrina embarks on a liberating journey to dismantle societal norms and stereotypes while fostering self-realization and healing.

Discover the extraordinary world of clitoral orgasms, deep vaginal zone (g-spot, g-zone, cervical, etc.) orgasms, multiple orgasms, orgasmic states, pelvic contractions for orgasms, and so much more. Learn more about the clitoris, the glans clitoris, and the intricate nerve pathways that innervate the female genitalia access, offering diverse sensations of pleasure. Gain a clear understanding of the difference between localized genital orgasms and full-bodied orgasms, and delve into the sensory intricacies that culminate in an orgasmic state of consciousness.

Beyond the physical, this episode also touches the mystical nexus between physical and emotional experiences—creating an orgasmic state of being that has the power to transform everyday life. Learn about the role of hormones, the concept of multiple orgasms, the refractory period, and the current scientific studies related to female orgasms.

Our goal? To encourage women to embrace and enjoy their sexuality in a safe, shame-free, and empowering space. Listen to this episode to validate your experiences, gain insights, and spark inquiries into your own path of self-discovery and erotic energy. Are you ready for the journey into the extraordinary world of female pleasure?

Episode Highlights:

[02:51] Multi-Orgasms vs. Orgasmic States

[04:00] My First Orgasm & Erotic Innocence

[05:07] Clitoral Orgasm

[06:33] The Two Orgasm Types

[07:50] Early Childhood Orgasmic Meditations

[09:37] Pleasure as Escape (Attached vs. Unattached Enjoyment)

[11:14] Emotional Release for Integrated Pleasure

[12:44] The Four Nerve Pathways for Female Orgasm

[14:45] Are All Orgasms Pleasurable? Compliant Sex.

[15:28] All Senses vs. Friction-Based Orgasm

[16:15] Vagus Nerve, Spinal Orgasms & Ejaculation

[17:01] Hormonal Pathways to Orgasm

[18:29] Self-Touch / Self-Pleasure

[20:15] The Refractory Period

[21:01] Explosive vs. Implosive Orgasms

[21:41] The Major Scientific Study: Masters & Johnson 

[23:39] Male vs. Female Centered View of Orgasm

[23:55] Closing

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This is not your average sexual empowerment story. In this deeply personal episode, I share the unexpected journey of injuring myself during a self-pleasure practice, being diagnosed with Mycoplasma (specifically, Ureaplasma), and the spiral of shame and fear that followed, as well as the hormonal dysregulation this pointed to.

This is a story about arousal literacy. The all too familiar experience you have when your body says “yes” whilst your nervous system screams “not yet.” It’s about reclaiming sovereignty when the very thing that once gave you life, your turn-on, feels like a betrayal.

You’ll hear me reflect on:

- The difference between regulated vs. dysregulated arousal

- How pelvic tension, unprocessed grief, and overfunctioning play into sexual shutdown

- The relationship between nervous system healing and cervical awakening

- And the unexpected medicine of sexual rupture as a rite of passage

This episode is part erotic memoir, part nervous system teaching, part spiritual transmission, and it’s a real-time unfolding of what it means to fuck yourself back to life... not in a performative way, but through profound honesty and repair.

If you've ever felt confused by your body, terrified by your turn-on, or ashamed by your symptoms, this is for you.

00:00 Intro

04:40 The Erotic Spark & Dysregulated Arousal

11:58 Introducing (Phases 1 & 2) of the 3-phase Path to Orgasmic Sovereignty

22:27 Ancestral Integration + Real-time Alchemy

32:46 Introudcing the Mycoplasma STI + Regulated vs. Dysregulated Arousal

51:06 Female vs. Male Libido + Cyclical Arousal

60:00 Erotic Sovereignty + Holistic Dive into Erotic Self-Repair + Mycoplasma

67:38 Integration & Reclamation

In this raw, intimate solo episode, Catrina invites you into the sacred, taboo, and wildly illuminating chapter of her life as a professional dominatrix.

Through erotic storytelling and soul-level reflections, she shares how sensual domination became the unexpected portal to reclaiming her power, boundaries, erotic truth, and capacity to lead—not just in scenes, but in love, life, and business.

You'll hear:

The moment she first felt the magnetic pull of financial domination

How the Erotic Blueprint types became foundational tools for attunement, desire, and sacred kink play

What the Energetic and Sensual blueprints taught her about presence, pacing, and healing trauma through subtle touch

The truth about men who outsource intimacy—and why most are craving attuned feminine leadership, not performance

How being a dominatrix helped her heal masculine wounds, communicate boundaries clearly, and reclaim intimacy on her own terms

Why the dominatrix archetype became both a playground and a cage—and what she chose to embody after she left that world behind

This episode is part memoir, part erotic education, and part initiation for any woman ready to integrate her shadows, reclaim her sensual voice, and lead with unapologetic truth.

In this raw backyard recording, I revisit season one of the show and the journey that unfolded as I unapologetically led with desire. What started as moments of “cringe” listening back, turned into a deep celebration of self-trust, erotic aliveness, and the art of letting life be mystery-led.

Step into a conversation that fuses sacred sexuality, sovereignty, and unapologetic success.

We explore cult recovery, reclaiming power from the shadow, the art of pleasure-led manifestation, and why the same principles that spark cervical orgasms can also ignite quantum leaps in business.

**Correction** Ana's Retreat in Peru is happening in September. (AFTER Living Brave Live)! There's still time to join :)

Instagram: http://www.instagram.com/ana_gasol Ana's "Cosmic Wombs" Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/cosmic-wombs/id1670419717

What does it mean to truly hold the expansion?  When life shapeshifts, identities fall away, and your next level calls you forward?

In this powerful episode, I sit down with Jakob Gricar.  Trauma-informed coach, retreat leader, and masculine mirror for a raw, resonant conversation on nervous system alchemy, masculine integrity, identity death, and leading through chaos.

We explore:

This episode is for the woman who’s expanding fast and craving sacred structure to hold her rise. For the leader ready to stop performing and start anchoring in truth. For the one who knows her next evolution requires deep surrender and embodied masculine support.

Let’s drop in.

Welcome to Season 2 of Come With Me — a podcast devoted to the portals that initiate us into deeper love, wilder truth, and unapologetic embodiment.

In this opening episode, I share a deeply personal story of rupture with the woman who raised me — my Samoan grandmother — and the emotional reckoning that followed when repair wasn’t possible. This isn’t just a story about family; it’s a reflection on what happens when love remains… but safety, attunement, and accountability do not.

We explore:

The truth about repair (and why it’s rarely mutual)

How ancestral trauma shapes our nervous systems and intimacy patterns

The emotional progression from resentment to contempt

What it means to return to yourself when others can’t meet you

The difference between performative and embodied repair

And the radical self-leadership required to break generational cycles

This episode is for those who’ve over-given, over-explained, and still felt unseen. For those navigating the grief of love without safety. For those ready to stop waiting for someone else to change… and start choosing themselves.

You heal forward by healing back.

Let’s stay connected:

I've moved back to O'ahu, spending lots of time on the North Shore, learning to surf, and having more incredible cervical orgasms. 

In this episode, I highlight the gift being on the North Shore during surf season (Winter) has been, the incredibly intimate experiences I had with my most recent partner, and I reveal why I don't use condoms or contraception, and the harm these and lubricants can bring to our mind-body system.

Episode Highlights:

[2:32]  I Moved Back to O’ahu

[3:53]  The Seven Mile Miracle (North Shore)

[8:28]  My First Surf Lesson

[9:06]  Wana (Sea Urchins) aka "Fauna" 🙃

[10:23]  More Cervical Orgasms & New Partner

[15:38]  Self-Pleasure Demo with Partner

[16:00]  Porn, Shame, Self-Abandonment

[19:55]  Inviting my Partner to Touch Me

[20:57]  Spontaneous vs. Response Arousal

[25:27]  My Spontaneous Arousal with Partner

[27:26]  vs. Typical Responsive Arousal 

[27:59]  Best Sex Post-Celibacy

[30:34]  Vulva, Vagina, and The Three Gates

[31:22]  Disclaimer to my Future Husband

[32:08]  Inviting Him to Pleasure Me (Communication, Exploration)

[33:11]  My Doctor-Patient Fantasy

[33:53]  His Guidance During Penetrative Sex

[34:59]  Jackhammering (vs. Grinding, Gyrating, etc.)

[37:36]  The Multiorgasmic Experience

[39:23]  Loss of Emotional Safety

[41:20]  Surf Competition / Hurley Pro Sunset Beach 2024

[44:15]  Unprotected Sex

[47:31]  Chemicals in Condoms, Contraceptives, Lubricant, Vaginal Microbiome, pH, Osmolality

[69:37]  Contraception: Fertility Cycling, Withdrawal & Peeing, Hormonal Implications for Women, Surgical, Neem for Men

[78:59]  Sensation vs. Friction Sex

[79:57]  Post-Nut Clarity

[84:15]  Empaths, Numbing, Responsibility, Support

[86:04]  Sensation vs. Friction Sex

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