Doctors are people we often trust to make the best decisions for our health. While that's usually the case, it’s not always true. Dr. Stan Li, a once-respected anesthesiologist, became known as "New York’s deadliest pill pusher." Li wrote more than 21,000 prescriptions for drugs such as oxycodone and Xanax and was ultimately convicted of manslaughter in the overdose deaths of two patients.

In this episode of “Grieving Out Loud,” we speak with Charlotte Bismuth, the former assistant district attorney who prosecuted Li. She’s also the author of "Killer in a White Coat: The True Story of New York's Deadliest Pill Pusher and the Team that Brought Him to Justice." Join us as we examine the details of this case, the challenges of holding doctors accountable, and the fight to seek justice for overdose victims.

You can find the manual Bismuth helped create for prosecutors working on overdose homicide cases through the Prosecutor's Center for Excellence. Click here: https://pceinc.org/

Listen to Episode 161: Prince’s cousin’s efforts to expose the truth behind the musician’s fentanyl death

Listen to Episode 162: Grieving father takes on Purdue Pharma after son dies from OxyContin

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Addiction's impact extends far beyond adults and teens—each year, over 20,000 babies are born dependent on drugs due to prenatal exposure. In this episode of Grieving Out Loud, we speak with a neonatal nurse practitioner who saw a critical need to provide care for these vulnerable newborns and their families.

At Hushabye Nursery in Phoenix, more than 800 babies have received life-saving treatment in the four years since its opening, offering specialized support for opioid-exposed infants and their mothers in recovery. 

We’ll also hear from a mother whose life was transformed by the compassionate care she and her baby received, illustrating how, even amidst substance use disorder, hope and healing are possible.

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We're taking a break this week for the election, but we will return next week with a powerful new episode of Grieving Out Loud. Next week's episode dives into a struggle that too many families face, but often goes unspoken. Every year, more than 20,000 babies are born affected by a mother's substance use during pregnancy. That's one baby every 25 minutes, each entering the world already fighting.  

"Every time I would take it, I would just feel so bad because I knew he was moving inside me. And it was just, it was horrible." 

We'll hear from Jazmin, a mother who faced addiction while pregnant. She tells us about her journey and how she and her newborn son found healing and help from a place where stigma is left at the door. 

"They made me feel like a person again. They made me feel like I'm a human again.  Just because I used, it happens, but they didn't judge me. You know, they didn't judge. They saw Jazmin. They saw Jazmin in recovery. They saw Jazmin trying to get help."  

Tara Sundem, co -founder of Hushabye Nursery, shares how her center is redefining care for substance exposed babies and supporting mothers to build a future with their children.  

"This is how I'd want you to treat my daughter. I'd want you to like hug her and embrace her and tell her, number one, congratulations. Congratulations. Everyone that's pregnant, the first thing you hear is congratulations, I'm so excited for you. My families never get told that." 

While we're on a short break, I invite you to join us next week for this moving new episode of Grieving Out Loud. If you or someone you know is struggling with substance use disorder, please visit emilyshope.charity for resources. Get ready for an inspiring conversation on the resilience to overcome and the power of compassion in recovery.

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After losing her son Alec to fentanyl poisoning on his 26th birthday, Dita Bhargava has transformed her grief into action, becoming a powerful voice in the fight against fentanyl. She’s engaged in important conversations with political leaders across America, including Vice President Kamala Harris.

On Overdose Awareness Day, Harris highlighted Dita’s story in her message about the opioid crisis, writing on Facebook: “We remember Tiarra, Jonathan, Alec, and millions of others who lost their lives from an overdose.” 

Dita has also challenged lawmakers on their views of substance use disorder, including Senator Lindsey Graham during a CNN Town Hall.

On this episode of Grieving Out Loud, we sit down with Dita to talk about her life’s mission, her son’s story and what she would like every American to know about the fentanyl crisis and substance use disorder.

Watch the full conversation with Vice President Kamala Harris here:  https://app.frame.io/reviews/8a1c19ac-5713-4b60-b15e-68f28d5c3502/95c4f602-e755-491a-ad2a-e6365df25eda

Watch the full interview with Lindsey Graham here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k3xfGvuGr34

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In this special episode of Grieving Out Loud, we revisit a cherished conversation with Dr. Gladys McGarey, a trailblazer in holistic medicine who passed away on September 28th at the age of 103. Her wisdom transcended the medical field, emphasizing that love is the most powerful healing force.

Dr. Gladys built her life around the five L’s: love, life, labor, laughter, and listening—with love as the cornerstone. Her message continues to inspire us to live with purpose and joy, regardless of life’s hardships. Join us as we honor her legacy by revisiting this insightful episode, originally recorded one year ago. Listen now to remember her spirit and her words.

Link to Dr. Gladys' Celebration of Life Services: https://www.foundationforlivingmedicine.org/memorial/services/

Link to Dr. Gladys' Book, The Well Lived Life: https://gladysmcgarey.com/#

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Imagine losing not only your mother, but also your twin sister to substance use disorder. On this episode of Grieving Out Loud, Cristina Cavallo and her father, Chris, share their deeply personal and heartbreaking story in hopes of raising awareness about a disease that touches millions yet is often left in the shadows. According to the latest National Survey on Drug Use, nearly 49 million Americans—almost 17% of the population—are struggling with substance use disorder.

So why don’t we talk about it more? The Cavallos believe that shame and stigma play a huge role, keeping people silent and preventing them from seeking the help they so desperately need.

If you or someone you love is affected, please visit our website, emilyshope.charity, for a list of helpful resources.

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As a grieving mother who fought to get help for my daughter’s substance use disorder—and ultimately lost her to fentanyl—I’m often asked what advice I have, or what I wish I had done differently.

Today on Grieving Out Loud, I sit down with another grieving mother at the DEA Family Summit on Fentanyl. Kate Sloan, like so many others, learned about the deadly reality of fentanyl far too late. She’s here to share her son’s story—his battle with substance use disorder—and the hard lessons she wishes she had known sooner.

If you or someone you love is struggling, please don’t wait to get help. Fentanyl is finding its way into street drugs, and even a tiny amount can be deadly. You can find helpful resources on our website—emilyshope.charity—because time really does matter.

Also, if you have an idea for a Grieving Out Loud episode, email Angela at [email protected]

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In this special episode of Grieving Out Loud, released for International Podcast Day, we deeply look at grief and its multifaceted nature. In our nearly 200 episodes, we’ve shared deeply personal stories from individuals navigating their own paths through loss, offering listeners a chance to find solace and understanding in shared experiences. 

As we reflect on the lessons gained from past episodes, we also consider the importance of community and connection in navigating the rocky terrain of grief. Whether through personal reflection or by finding comfort in the stories of others, this episode serves as a reminder that while grief is an inevitable part of life, the potential for growth and healing is always present. Join us as we dive into these words of wisdom, offering strength and support to anyone traveling through the landscape of loss.

Listen to “Surviving the holiday season while grieving” with Dr. Mark Vande Braak - Episode 143: https://emilyshope.charity/episode/dr-mark-vande-braak/ 

Guests featured in this episode:

Deric & Kathy Kidd - Episode 181
Chris Didier - Episode 149
Murray & Kay Sumner - Episode 128
Dr. Gladys McGarey - Episode 132
Bradi Harrison Nathan - Episode 172
Carol Wolfe - Episode 146
Harold Noreiga - Episode 136
Lynn Gillette - Episode 147
Ed Ternan - Episode 133
Dr. Mark Vande Braak - Episode 88
Justin Phillips - Episode 153
Debbie Evans - Episode 135
Ed Bisch - Episode 162
Meghan Judge - Episode 15

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As the United States faces its deadliest drug epidemic in history, lives are being lost in unimaginable ways. Over the past two decades, more than 5,000 children and teens have died from fentanyl—among them, toddlers and even infants.

Janan Haugen knows these devastating numbers all too well. She’s lost not only her son to drugs, but also her granddaughter to drugs.

In this episode of Grieving Out Loud, Janan opens up about her emotional journey, the lessons she’s learned through immense heartache, and how she’s finding the strength to move forward after such unimaginable losses.

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Hans Arwine choked back tears as he recalled the moment he had to tell his wife that their son was gone. ”That was the hardest thing I’ve ever done–tell his mother that he was no longer with us,” he said.

The heartbreaking scene is tragically familiar across America—parents receiving the devastating news that their children have died from fentanyl overdoses. In the United States, nearly 300 people lose their lives to drugs every day.
Amidst this widespread grief, the dealers responsible for these tragedies often go unpunished. But Hans and Laurie Arwine are channeling their profound sorrow into a powerful fight for justice. Their journey is one of resilience and hope, as they strive to honor their son’s memory by seeking accountability and making a difference.

Join us today as we sit down with Hans and Laurie to hear their inspiring story of turning their pain into a mission for change, fighting for justice not just for their son, but for countless others affected by this crisis.

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