Talking ‘Bout My Evolution

I talk about looking at different houses where the renters trashed the property and I wonder why people would do that.  I also talk about how difficult it is to find a nice house in my price range and that anything that comes on the market right now is immediately involved in a bidding war.

I talk about how Amazon sent me a picture of a package they delivered right on my front step with no attempt to conceal it.  I drove home to get it and prayed that it was still there when I arrived.

I talk about the astrologer Yasmin Boland and her 3-pt webinar series about Moonology.  I talk about how the moon effects your moods and if you keep track of where it is throughout the month, you will start seeing patterns and be able to predict how your day will go based on where the moon is in the sky.  Interesting stuff, in my opinion.

I talk about how I'm still trying to find a house and how things are not going easily at the moment.

I talk about how I am trying to move on and see what else is out there.  I talk about how I'm planning on looking at a new beautiful home, but it's slightly out of my price range.  It seems that most of the houses I want are $225K and my budget extends to $210K.  I try and focus on all the positives in my life instead of the frustration of the house hunt.

I talk about how we finally found another home we love after the profound disappointment of losing out on buying the first house we loved.  I talk about how I devastated and angry I am that I missed another opportunity to live out my dream.

I talk about touring a duplex and figuring out if I should bid on it or not.  The duplex is in the right neighborhood, but isn't exactly what I was hoping to buy.  It will need some work to get it the way I want to be and it smells, to be quite honest.  I decided to put in an offer anyway, because it's a lot of house for the right price and it seems like the sensible move to make.

I talk about how I started listening to Robert Ohotto again and I discuss some of his thoughts he had  about how we can make decisions that are right for us.  I also talk about how biases and filters that we picked up as early as in the womb inform our decision-making abilities and how we need to question our assumptions and beliefs when we look at something so we can try to get an accurate read on any given situation.

I talk about how I was listening to a presentation by Wayne Dyer today and how he was discussing Lao Tzu and the Torah and how God's name, as told to Moses, is I Am The I Am (or something like that.)  So when we say, "I am ..."  we are invoking God/the divine.  He was encouraging us to recognize the divine in us and others every time we use the words "I am".

I talk about how the kids and I went to view a house we're interested in and how we lfell in love with it.  It seems like a darn-near perfect fit for us, but it is $25K too expensive.  That may not seem like too much in the grand scheme of things, but since the house is barely affordable for us if we got it for $200K, there's no way I can spring for that extra $25K and go up to the $225K they want for it.  The house is totally worth it to me, but it's just not possible on my current salary.  The taxes alone will be close to $6000 for a $200K house in Milwaukee, which is ridiculously pricy to me.  

So we've put the house in a blessing ball and I've cleared any obstacles I have to buying it or receiving it and now I have to give it to the universe.  If it's meant to be, then it will happen.  I am doing my best not to let my ego or personal desires get too involved in all these decisions.